I Wish I Was Better At Dirty Talk

inviting my favorite mutuals to a playhouse (sex dungeon) where we have so much fun together!! (freaky sex where we roleplay as a big, happy family)

even when I'm anon, I struggle pretty heavily with saying things because they just feel wrong. I always just end up being so polite because I'm terrified of scaring people off, I don't want to make them think I'm weird or gross. I want to make friends and respect people's boundaries, but it's hard to do both!!

this prob doesn't make any sense :(

the affirmations didn't work...

ugh i wish i was a good writer because i would be writing so many lawlight fanfics. and NO i'm not just not doing it because i'm a pussy!! i'm also a bad writer who can't portray dialogue!!

Have you/would you rape someone? if so what’s is your biggest fantasy or what happened?

have i? no. the only "physical" crime i've committed is trespassing when i was 9. at least the only thing that could be considered a real crime, you know?

would i? depends, again. is it a random person that i just met? maybe. is it someone i actually know/trust? probably not! i wouldn't want to betray their trust in me and risk losing them forever for me taking that one step too far. unless they wouldn't remember it, of course.

but again, i'm still clinging to morality.

i don't know if i have any specific fantasies at the moment, but i suppose gr00ming has been particularly hot to me recently... and maybe stuff like date r4pe/somno. like either taking someone out on a date and slipping pills into their drink or just straight up breaking into their house. (i know how to pick locks! kinda.)

what do you find hot about sh?

mental illness, primarily. both the fact that i am mentally ill and the fact that i love mentally ill people. trauma is just hot. physical and emotional.

im BORED chat send asks please 💔

could be about anything freaky or not, literally ranting about one of my interests would fix me rn I just need a good place to start

ughhh crazy and obsessive people my beloved

tell me you're not going to let anyone else even talk to me, condition me to believe that it's okay and that you're all i need

follow me home to "make sure i get home alright" and then look through my windows just to "double check"

send me texts and voicemails about nothing in particular because you just want to talk to me

threaten to hurt me or yourself if you even start to suspect that i'm going to leave you

tell other people that they can't talk to me, spread rumors saying stuff about me so that i'm all yours

hurt them when you see that they're still trying

and if i finally start to realize what you're doing, maybe you just need to take more drastic measures :3

also sometimes i forget that all of the thoughts i put here are literally public and then i start tweaking out like "oh god what if i make friends on here and then they find out i'm a freak"

like i mean obviously i'm a freak by being on this side of tumblr but i'm still embarrassed by the level of it D:

this but they're all just completely impossible to interpret and understand, let alone put into words.

i wanna start just posting my unfiltered thoughts on here but most of them r like i need to have freaky nasty sex and then get brutally murdered and that’s about it

and this is my type when it comes to men (and i want it to be me SO BAD)

this is my type when it comes to women

(please don't explode me tumbles <3)