Just A Remind To Myself (TW)

Whattup I’m Jared I’m 19 and I never learned how to gain any goddamn self control.

Sunset eyeshadow look 🌅💜🧡💛

I used so many different eyeshadows for this look! I tend to do that often when creating colorful/bright looks..lol.

what i want for myself ♡

- getting out of bed and not hating the way it creaks with my weight

- walking and not hating the weight of my arms at my sides, the way my thighs rub together

- looking someone in the eye and being unafraid of what they see

- interlacing my fingers and crossing my legs easily

- not worry about my double chin whenever I yawn or lean forward

- eat in public without worrying that people are thinking “no wonder she’s fat”

- be confident enough to wear short sleeves and shorts

- be able to fit in my old clothes

- learn to like clothes shopping again

- not be humiliated when p.e. class does bmi

- hear “you’re beautiful” and believe it

- stop hating mirrors

- stop hating myself (maybe not love, but it’s enough for me)

feel free to add your own ♡

An interesting thing to realize about internet transmisogynists who post pictures of trans women they don’t find attractive as “proof” that we as a community are deserving of mockery and mistreatment is that the actual ethical framework operating under this basic bitch internet nastiness is “I don’t think that people I don’t find sexually attractive and fuckable deserve human rights, I think your access to human rights should correlate to how much I want to bump my genitals with yours” and if you think about it, it doesn’t get any more deranged and creepy than that, it’s like taking the attitude of a nasty high school bully and making it into your adult political-ethical framework without realizing how much it fundamentally speaks to the fact you’re a deranged creep.

Quick question, do u think strade would repect the quarantine or do you think he's the asshole that still goes to the bar to kidnap ppl

Strade does absolutely NOT respect the quarantine. Not even CLOSE. This man is not afraid of death, disease, or government dominion. He doesn’t give a single fuck. Supposed to stay indoors? Watch this prick go outside and start gardening. Home depot closed? Watch this dickhole hang around outside. He fears no Covid-19, not after the shit he’s seen and done. He hangs around in a filthy fucking basement ripping people infected with God knows what apart for FUN. If he hasn’t caught it by now, he doesn’t give a shit.

In fact, this asshole is probably stocking up on toilet paper at the local supermart and then trying to sell it to unsuspecting victims on some shady internet market place to lure them back to some abandoned alleyway to make shit simple for himself. He might have been worried at first, since quarantines mean that people are staying in their homes and we all know he’s not a home invader, but with how many people have been openly defying the quarantine and panicking and what not, he’s probably out here having the time of his life. 

After all, things tend to get pretty hectic in a pandemic. You’ve been pretty busy working from home and keeping safe. How long has it been since you last talked to your friend? Days? Weeks? Only the Gods and Strade know.

He can, however, also be spotted outside “socially distancing” with the other neighborhood dadbods who ‘aren’t afraid’ when he’s not busy taking advantage of this state of affairs.

Violence moodboard

I’ve drank about 1 lb of water since I’ve come home—169.0 to 169.6

And see, that’s weight from WATER. Nothing I need to fast off or anything. I know it’s weight gained because I added water in my tummy :)

Here’s hoping that 0.6 lbs of water is put to good use….make my acne go away hhh

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