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hi bllk tumblr i am returning with more kunigiri angst. (manga spoilers)

so like i am a massive loveless fan and i think their song haunting me is SOOO good in terms of a kunigami pov song post-wildcard. like here here look at some of my favorite lyrics yes?

I could climb another mountain

I could swim another sea

Fall apart again if you were next to me

'Cause it was all for you

It's a brand new day

But I can't even think straight

Got a taste of the bitter in me

Now I keep it just to feel complete

Wish that I could just fall asleep

And not wake up with you haunting me

like. like come on. "i could accomplish all these massive physical feats yet i would also collapse in front of you if you were just here. and all of it was for you." because it was. kunigami going through wildcard not only for his own ego and his goals but to see his friends and loved ones again.

"got a taste of the bitter in me" also known as the understatement of the century. kunigami is barely a person anymore, let alone his own person, he's a shell meant to house the glory of noel noa and nothing more. and of course he is keeping this lone wolf mentality going, he has no other choice. after the hell he went through, maybe it's better to just accept the philosophy that was forced on him. at least it'll make him feel human again. sort of.

and god chigiri is haunting him. it's the way they can't develop entirely separate from each other. it's the way that when we see hints of kunigami's old personality it's either because chigiri is directly there or inspiring the conversation/moment in some way. it's the way that chigiri thinks of kunigami to motivate him. kunigami is trying so damn hard to keep this wildcard persona up but the ghost that is chigiri's presence and his own past are making it such a difficult task.

i need to write kunigiri fic i think .

kunigiri thoughts/theories/ramblings

kunigiri has had my heart since like the first few episodes of bllk and i still have faith in them especially after chigiri went to search out kunigami after the bm/mc match like. their story isn't over.

and although yeah this might be kind of unrealistic unless we get both of them playing on the u-20 team at the same time i still want to have hope or at least write a fanfic. because. just.

so we obviously know chigiri's nickname since the beginning has been "princess" and kunigami's goal for himself was always to be a hero which he has since given up/been forced to give up since entering the wildcard, and yes he gets referred to as "cyborg hero" & "cynic hero" etc. but never "hero" on its own anymore.

and because the chekov's gun that is chigiri's acl tear scares the shit out of me, what if chigiri has an outright reinjury or at least the heartstopping scare of one (if chigiri gets hurt for good i won't be able to handle myself) and it's this damsel in distress moment that prompts kunigami to return to his hero identity (because it's still there inside him, he's just buried it out of necessity).

i need this to happen. please. please let kunigami want to be a hero again and please have it be because he wants to protect chigiri please give this to me.

something i drew in 2016 but never posted... little me was proud of this,,,

self-inflicted

little rant under cut lol

matt is VILE but also he’s really young and its probable he’s been in the television or acting industry since he was a teenager. since we see him absolutely tear up his face when he’s in distress, i think maybe he’s prone to skin picking/scarring under stress (and the industry puts a lot of pressure on its young stars!) . i know the acting industry can fuck up people so just an origin of where the scar came from maybe?? matt engarde you monster…i need to dissect you under a microscope.

y'all ever think about Chigiri, mad at Isagi and Nagi for picking him and not Reo?? for forcing him to leave Kunigami behind and condemning Kunigami to his fate?? because if they'd picked Reo then Chigiri and Kunigami would've stayed together, and they'd have won. Chigiri and Kunigami together could've conquered anyone and anything, they could've conquered the world. instead it's just Chigiri and his angry tears and his teammates who are great but they're not Kunigami and he came to blue lock looking for an excuse to quit football but all he got was a stupid tshirt and a broken heart. y'all ever think about that???? bc sometimes it's all i can think about

Dragging myself out of inactivity to grossly overanalyse/scream about the chapter 213 Kunigiri stuff coz I’m so mentally unwell and it’s their fault.

First of all, I love how in order to get into the other stratums, players first have to submit a request form. Presumably they’d have to state a reason for going and I doubt “I want to see my friends” would be allowed because some people would end up using it as an excuse to slack off, so I wonder what Chigiri said to get his request accepted? Obviously he was actually coming just to see Kunigami but he probably needed to make up an excuse (either that or Ego/Anri let him through because BLTV really is just football Love Island atp).

Anyway, I love the intro panel for Chigiri in this chapter coz it says SO MUCH about him.

It’s the hair.

Chigiri barely ever wears his hair up, not even while playing football (and I’ve made my thoughts on that clear in the past so I’ll refrain from any ranting). On the field he’ll have that weird half-braid thing going on, and off the field he usually just wears it loose. One of the only other times we see him with a ponytail is in chapters 150-151, during the 2-week break post U-20 match. I think this shows that Chigiri is putting active effort into his appearance for his visit with Kunigami. He puts his hair up when he wants to make a good impression — in the Shibuya chapters he’s also wearing a rather nice outfit, so he was focussing on his appearance then too. This time around, he’s specifically doing it for Kunigami because he’s unsure about what Kunigami thinks of him after “ghosting” him during the MC match. This is Chigiri going all-out to impress through subtle gestures and small changes that are consciously made and will subconsciously be picked up on.

(There’s also Kunigami’s canonical thing for the napes of necks (egoist Bible) to take into account which… listen we have no proof that Chigiri is aware of it but we also don’t have any proof that he’s not. Who’s to say he didn’t choose this hairstyle specifically because he knows it shows off his nape, which is usually kept hidden under his hair? He’s already a bit of a flirt after that “such an insensitive hero” comment back during the Second Selection. It isn’t impossible.)

Next, the iconic “keep an eye on me” line.

First off, Nomura really decided to make Chigiri look that pretty when he said this. Boy looks absolutely gorgeous. I’m aroace but I would’ve folded. Kunigami is stronger than me.

Second off, I like how this shows Chigiri being attentive towards Kunigami. When they first reunited, it did come across a bit like Chigiri was being dismissive of what Kunigami went through in the Wildcard, saying that he’d treat Kunigami as exactly the same person he was before (although it’s arguably understandable since they’d only just met again and Chigiri has no idea what happened in the Wildcard). Now though, it’s clear he’s observed the change Kunigami went through and a) wants to make amends for his previous comments, and b) still wants to be with Kunigami. While there’s never a direct apology given, it’s clear he doesn’t think of Kunigami the same way he did before the Mc match and wants to make amends. Honestly, idk if a direct apology would’ve been a nice addition or would’ve just made Kunigami feel worse — Chigiri is a proud person and Kunigami doesn’t want pity, so this less direct approach was probably the best way to go about things.

Thirdly, when Chigiri says “from now on, I’m gonna be keeping an eye on you”, it’s not just a promise to acknowledge Kunigami’s skills as a footballer. It’s also a subtle way of saying “you’re not getting rid of me. I’m staying right here”. Adding to that the “so, you better keep an eye on me too, got it?”, it’s both a declaration that Kunigami shouldn’t underestimate Chigiri and a “you’re gonna be seeing a lot of me so get used to it”. (Side note: Isagi’s face on this page is so fucking funny to me he’s just like “yeaaaaaah, these bitches gay. Good for them” lmao.)

Last thing I’ll scream about is this:

FIRST NAME BASIS!!!

Obviously Chigiri is specifically using “Rensuke” as a little jab at Kunigami to get him riled up. Chigiri is just like that when it comes to teasing. Still, it’s nice to know that he feels comfortable enough around Kunigami to say something like this without Kunigami getting angry or making things awkward between them. We’ve seen Bachira do this with Isagi too during the Barcha match, so that’s nice little bachisagi parallel. At the very least, Chigiri is showing that he wants their friendship to continue and is going to continue to treat Kunigami as a close friend, no matter how much Kunigami might try to push him away.

Conclusion to my ramblings: Chigiri is putting in the work and I respect him for it. Kunigami is in a bad place rn and what he needs is someone as stubborn as Chigiri to see him through. Chigiri knows what it feels like to feel depressed and push everyone else away because it happened to him too. He thought for a time that everything was over for him. No doubt he’s recognising those things in Kunigami and wants to help him out, especially since the two of them had grown pretty close before being separated.

Kunigiri has my whole heart!!!

When the main manga doesn't have our backs Kunigiri stans, we can count on Episode Nagi 🔥

the rake not-yet-punished

some of y'all writers are weird af 💀

like wdym you write smut about a MINOR but it's okay cuz you aged them up and warn minors to not interact w the post?

Do you even hear yourselfs???? and I KNOW most of y'all are GROWN ADULTS writing about minors...

even if you "age them up" why are you simping for a minor in the first place?

and yeah i'm looking at y'all blue lock and jjk writers...

Unpacking Karasu Tabito

Arguing with the referee (Rin's case - when Shidou kicked him)

Preventing Otoya and Bachira from falling off the bench

Has a competitive nature (he’s almost in every. single. goal. celebrations)

Is a really good leader

He's a logical person hence where the caring comes out and is really mature. At the end of the day, he still thinks they're morons but I hereby declare, looks like could kill you but is a cinnamon roll, your honour.

back in the game

Explanation for this:

Dangaronpa V3 is kinda meh to me so this is my au in which Rantaro and Kaede are the main protagonist and antagonist duo.

I also think the 3rd trial is a big waste of potential. They had such a cool idea in mind with the whole "Korekiyo confessed to one murder but not the other" but then in the end it's revealed he actually commited both and it's like.... ok??? You're telling me we could've had a trial with 2 murderers who didnt know about eachother's exsistance and that no matter what there would be a killed left among the survivors??? Anyways in this au I like to pitch the idea of Himiko secretly being the second killer who accidentally murdered Angie and although Korkiyo did kill Tenko his crime doesn't count as Himiko killed Angie before him.

There could've been fun loopholes I'm just saying 🙄🙄🙄

Also I think the dynamic between Rantaro and Kaede could've been fun to explore in a "Kaede wants to trust and believe her friends while Rantaro is aware they could betray them at any moment" kind of situation

an emotaro

don’t you know ignorance is bliss?

i cant believe attorneys are real

hazmat is short for hazardous matthew

will aa tumblr take my matt engarde fanart

posted this earlier but it didn't came up so now I'm re posting it again 💔💔

was experimenting a diff brush than I usually use so dk if I dig it

(also new blog theme wowowwo)

DanandPhilCrafts + Fucked Up Queer Devotion + Christian Homophobia: An Essay

We’ve all been talking about the willingness of Dan and Phil to perform the ritual, we’ve all been talking about the intimacy of carving out your lover’s heart, but I have not heard anyone talk about the fucked up side of Dan and Phil’s (fictional) relationship with each other, and with Him, so here goes.

On the craft channel, Dan and Phil act overwhelmingly positive, like satanic children’s show hosts, but this is clearly a farce. We see them drop their smiles quite a few times during the crafting- most notably in Glitter Faces when Dan’s craft turns out wrong, and when Phil cuts Dan’s hand. “Don’t cry, craft” is directed towards the audience, but it seems Dan and Phil are following their own advice. Cults, after all, prey on vulnerable people. While they do seem scared of doing the ritual, and their involvement with Him, they are, however, definitely willing. In

The blood on Dan after he kills Phil is interesting; The handprint on his shirt isn’t a sign of a struggle, but rather Phil just grabbing his shirt- that’s pretty intimate, honestly. The blood on his face could’ve been caused by a bunch of things: blood splatter he wiped at? wiping at his face (eyes?) with a bloody hand? or Phil holding his face? (I like the third option) The blood on his nose might totally have been accidental, and just a thing that happened, but it could also be an allusion to the cat whiskers, in the spirit of bringing things back to the beginning and whatnot.

After the ritual is complete, there’s the obvious tarot symbolism. @freckliedan has a great post about this, but I’ve got more to add, so bear with me. Yes, Dan and Phil are framed as the lovers, but that’s not all. While the sexual deviance associated with the devil card has clear connections to queerness, it’s main association is usually unhealthy relationships and dependence. We also see Phil always giving Dan the directions, implying some kind of power unbalance. Applied to Dan and Phil’s (fictional) relationship, we’re told that it’s just not as healthy as their real relationship. These characters, while obviously in love and super devoted to each other, are not in a healthy relationship.

Furthering the unhealthy relationship idea is when Phil calls Dan “Sampson”. In the Bible or whatever (I’m not Christian sue me) Sampson topples these pillars, killing both himself and his enemies, which has a clear parallel to Dan’s stacked ingredients falling over, but the use of “folly” is interesting, and suggests a further connection. Sampson had married a prostitute, and she sold him out, basically, leading to his enslavement and later death. In this story, this is the clearest and most obvious act of folly by Sampson: marrying someone who he shouldn’t have, someone who it was taboo for him to be with. Connected to Dan and Phil, it suggests that their relationship is dangerous due to the social taboo, but it’s also implied that Phil will betray Dan.

Speaking of unhealthy relationships, that’s sure what they’ve got with Him! Leading up to the ritual, Dan and Phil are shown to be scared of Him, even though they call Him their friend. Dan’s head shake when Phil says “crafting has improved my life in numerous ways” is very telling. At the end, Dan’s shoulders tense at His first footstep, however, when He actually touches Dan, he doesn’t seem scared at all- forgive me for this next point, but from the way he kinda leans into the touch and tilts his head back, it seems more like he’s going for “turned on” rather than “scared”.

“Okay, cool” you say, “but what does it mean?” Well, Dan and Phil’s relationship in this series is not just about homoerotic undertones- this is an allegory for toxic queer sexual relationships. Why would they make something about toxic relationships when they’re in a healthy relationship? With the toxicity, and the power imbalances, and the satanism, Dan and Phil’s (fictional) relationship is a representation of Christian fears of queerness, and the supposed immoral/corrupting/anti-Christian effects of being in a queer relationship. The fear Dan and Phil show throughout the series is representative of internalized homophobia. They’re scared to align themselves with Him because it means accepting their own queerness. Dan shows more fear than Phil throughout the series (like after his glitter face turns out to be a pentacle) which parallels his real world internalized homophobia that he’s experienced. By holding hands with the devil (or baphomet?) standing behind them, Dan and Phil have embodied every conservative fear about queerness, but have come out on top. Through their YouTube channel, we get to do the same.

(un)happy anniversary of matt engarde going to jail

（´_｀）~~

practice sketches

STOP PARALLELING THE HONEYMOON WITH YOUR OWN JAPAN TRIP THATS OUR JOB

DAB AND EVAN IN JAPAN

THE HONEYMOON

How come you always say you’re going to do Drabble requests and never do them? I’ve sent in so many and none of them have ever been filled :/

i don’t know man, maybe it’s because i have a life? because outside of fandom i have a partner and a job and other hobbies that aren’t just writing things for free for people who are clearly ungrateful. or because i’m tired and don’t have the mental capacity or i simply changed my mind?

either way, i know the answer to this question probably doesn’t matter to you. all you want is to complain to the source of your issue, which normally i’d simply ignore and delete but today i am so fucking over being treated like a machine.

i am a person. not a content pusher. and if you think for one second this kind of behaviour is going to get you what you want genuinely fuck right off.

Oh my god. The tears in Luke’s eyes when Percy says the betrayal line. The desperate pleading for them to run away. That he doesn’t want to hurt Percy. The tears in Percy’s eyes. The fear and shaking. Percy apologizing for actually hurting him. The look of horror on Luke’s face as Annabeth comes in. How horrified he looks when he looks down at Percy, who he HURT. The realization that Percy won’t join, and the equaled horror of hurting a twelve year old child.

Then he runs.

so this ended up being my dark urge wild magic sorcerer for bg3 that I made based on Matt. Didn't feel like downloading any mods to make it super accurate to how he looks in the OG game but like. He's pretty so idc. Yes Juan is his guardian. Bc I'm gay and stupid and so are they

ouuughh… Highschool au where matt has shitty parents and Juan has the average suburban white life… ough…. OUGGGHH….