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// drug use mention

matt x juan is something so dear to me and my canon divergent mind i just think they love each other and it got fucked over when matt started getting into drugs and The Inpax Bullshit started but yeah in a better world where matt has rehab and therapy i just think him and juan would be so good. enrida/juangarde my beloved.

just. matt using dude/bro romantically but also having the cheesiest french pet names he uses for juan. the two of them back in a hotel room after an award show just slow dancing with the city skyline as their backdrop. matt being juan's muse for all the love songs he writes but juan will Never admit to this.

and i would like to imagine the rivalry they had is something they made up for shits and giggles (and publicity) and they are actually really good friends and just were taught that any press is good press so matt went "hey y'know what'd get 'em all talking???" and at age 12-13 brought this idea up to juan.

i will never shut up about enrida sorry.

Thinking about self hatred and how it's such a plague in Blue Lock. Thinking about how Rin can't look in the mirror because of how much he reminds himself of Sae, but how he tells Isagi to look at him. How even characters who think of themselves as filth get angry, how Kenyu has bursts of it, how Kaiser chokes himself. How deep down every single character in Blue Lock is begging to be loved and understood. The light in their eyes when someone believes in them and the deep pit of depression they fall into when no one does.

How Reo and Ness are hated by parts of the fandom probably BECAUSE their self hatred is so viceral and so obvious you can fucking feel it. Yet characters like Barou and Kunigami are seen as edgy because they hide their self hatred behind an equally destructive facade, a mask of controlled apathy for those around them. The way the coaches have to cradle the fragile, fragile souls of these boys while still pushing them to be better. Begging them to believe they are capable and picking them up after they pass out, stopping them from falling into the same imposter syndrome they've witnessed again and again (that even they are not immune to).

Thinking about how even Ego Jinpachi doesn't take care of himself.

Thinking some thoughts about Matt at this fine hour of the afternoon.

- boy division by my chemical romance

- castles crumbling by taylor swift ft hayley williams

- just the concept of matt engarde with a navel piercing

- the multitude of reasons why he tries so hard to hide his scars (his body is the one thing he's got going for him and now he's screwed it up, the false promise of hollywood glitz and glamour has betrayed him)

- constant nightmares of his own body being puppeteered on a stage and he's tied down to a first row seat

I need to get over my writers block and make more Matt content dammit

Happy Maid Day!

self-inflicted

little rant under cut lol

matt is VILE but also he’s really young and its probable he’s been in the television or acting industry since he was a teenager. since we see him absolutely tear up his face when he’s in distress, i think maybe he’s prone to skin picking/scarring under stress (and the industry puts a lot of pressure on its young stars!) . i know the acting industry can fuck up people so just an origin of where the scar came from maybe?? matt engarde you monster…i need to dissect you under a microscope.

im in love with him and that's my proudest character flaw

what a guy

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A SEVEN YEAR OLD WOULD NOT SAY THIS