Petra Collins’ High School Aesthetic Photography Changed My Brain Chemistry

40 hour fasts are not for me bc tell me why i woke up with my heart beating so fast i thought i was having a heart attack 💔

horrible experience i will be trying again soon

something comforting about seeing the same workers at my local grocery store and making them scan my 4th sugar-free pudding mix of the month

recovery will never be an option i fear

i’m so destroyed mentally that i’ll just feel worse if i fix my relationship w food bc i’ll still be lacking everywhere else in my life

i’ll always be anxious, a people pleaser and terribly jealous of everyone else

hunger is a measure of when you should eat not how much you should eat.

do you guys ever feel like there's something fundamentally wrong with you? I constantly feel like I'm too much, or not enough. I'm too fat or too thin, too loud or too quiet, too little or too big, too young to feel the way I do, old enough to know better, I care too much or not enough and it hurts

I need new characters for the 2025 season. Why is everyone in my life someone that I already know?

me bc unfortunately i need male validation for motivation. sometimes

he will soon have to see you in a bikini, lock in!!

i’m being serious when i say that my life would be 100% better if i was skinny. like genuinely. i wouldn’t have to worry and spend an hour and a half (sometimes more like??!!) trying to figure out what to wear just to go buy groceries. i wouldn’t have to overthink that my bf might find me heavy. i won’t have to be anxious going to parties. and i can wear whatever the FUUUUUCCCCKKK I WAAAANT and look good STILL

forgot how much of a god complex starving gives me

once summer comes i don't think i'll feel as trapped inside with my ed and actually live a fulfilling life outside of being the thinnest I can be.

this disorder is so lame ngl the only thoughts running through my head are preparing for a beach body like omg get a life