I Want Sleepy Morning Sex 🥺

As of yesterday, I signed a 5 year lease on piece of property that I can develop as I see fit. Might not be exactly what I wanted but it’s a start and now there’s a bit of security in making improvements and putting my time and energy into making it somewhere I enjoy being.

Finally taking the heads to the machine shop today, 2 weeks and the xterra will live again!

In other news, filed for my LLC and started the application process on a few small business grants. Already have the loan secured, but figured I might as well try to borrow as little as possible. Less than a year away from owning a couple properties, and getting to realize 3 of my life goals as long as everything goes to plan. Always knew I’d find a way to create stability for myself and make the world a better place at the same time. I can’t wait to see what the next year of my life will bring.

"Come with me.. take my hand and follow me into the sea, this sea of stars that spans eternity. Come with me, hold my hand as we walk from constellation to constellation as if we were walking through a park.. let's see what magic we can find in a meadow of stars, a wild garden of sorts. Let us ride the waves of a supernova to the edges of light.."

What magic we would find in the stars together - eUë

Congratulations, you lost me 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

Just over two weeks sober from alcohol, and it feels great, it’s taking some getting used to, but for sure was a choice for the better. Always pushing forward, never settling for less then where I want to be.

You just end up getting used up until there’s nothing left. None of the light that shone so brightly before. Just a husk, a shade of the beauty that once was, and it’s absolutely heartbreaking to know, that the person that was will never be again.

I hope you heal and find your peace. I will always love you, I will always be rooting for you, and a piece of my heart and soul will always be yours. Please be good to yourself and find others whose soul is as beautiful as yours. I wish I could be there, but I can’t watch the soul I love devour itself because the pain of the world is too much. Doing that almost led me down the same path, and we both deserve better than that, we are both far more valuable than that. Thank you for all of the brightness that you brought to my life, and for showing me that everything I surrounded myself with was just a distraction from what I truly wanted.

Until the atoms that make up my soul no longer exist and across countless lifetimes.

It is all part of our journey.