I’m Going To Be Stuck Like This Forever

Trying to find an ana coach, so I can b skinny 😇

Weight checking like once or twice a month, measurements can do frequently tho :)

• 18 +

• Meanspo and sweetspo appreciated

• No creeps 🙅‍♀️

me when i realize my sh addiction is actually addictive

people ask me why i want to move out at 18 but how do i tell them that it's solely so i can starve with no one there forcing dinner on me.

Bruuuuuuhhh why can’t someone hug me tenderly and bandage my cuts gently while telling me everything is alright like they do in fanfics maybe then I’d quit

reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions

I always ask myself am i actually sick or am i just making everything up? I never trust myself. I want to know if theres anything wrong. I need to be told.

I want a girlfriend or boyfriend

(translation: I want to text someone everyday who’s sick too and who insanely enables me and pushes me to get worse and we cut together and ⭐️ve together but I’m so INSANELY AWKWARD and anxious about making the first move even online)

i want someone to watch my self destruction with a smile. i want them to encourage me to go further, eat less, cvt deeper, isolate myself more. i want them to make me feel small, like i need to get sicker to get better. listen to my problems. twist them until im the villain. break me until im whole again, and laugh at my suffering.

so mad my standing up stoumach isnt my laying down stoumach