I Always Ask Myself Am I Actually Sick Or Am I Just Making Everything Up? I Never Trust Myself. I Want

i want someone to watch my self destruction with a smile. i want them to encourage me to go further, eat less, cvt deeper, isolate myself more. i want them to make me feel small, like i need to get sicker to get better. listen to my problems. twist them until im the villain. break me until im whole again, and laugh at my suffering.

I need more 4na friends. 🫶 I love everyone please be my friend

just a reminder

in a few months, it will be swimsuit season, and nobody is gonna like the way you look if you aren't stick-thin by then. don't you want to be the prettiest in the room?

Bruuuuuuhhh why can’t someone hug me tenderly and bandage my cuts gently while telling me everything is alright like they do in fanfics maybe then I’d quit

the thing about my body is that its actually a really nice shape. like i have pretty wide, round hips and a small waist. but the problem is

its covered in layers of fat making it ugly

i want to get that gorgeous skinny girl out of the pig that i am rn so badly

Make me worse, make me thin, ask me if I ate, tell me I’m wrong if I do, tell I’m I did good if I don’t, encourage me, enable me. Push me. MAKE ME THIN MAKE ME WORSE HELP ME

things to do instead of food

learn all the lyrics to a song

make slime

watch a movie

go on a walk and look for hot men

do fun makeup looks

girlblog

make a pinterest board of what u want ur house to look like

dress up like ur favorite characters or celebrities

make edits

sit outside and listen to music

dance and sing to ur favorite songs

get high

go on a bike ride while listening to music

tan

go swimming

shop online

write a story or poetry

do hairstyles

read books outside

create a alter ego of urself new and improved

get all pretty and go shopping

paint ur nails

draw how u feel

watch true crime

have a self care day

make food for ur FAMILY. NOT URSELF. and make sure its something that wont tempt u

binge watch a show

watch all the movies u have been telling urself ur gonna watch

does anyone know any shows, movies, influencers, etc that can help with motivation???

I need to get that spark back again ✨