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Enneagram Wing Boards: Type 8 Wing 7 - The Maverick

Energetic, turbulent, autonomous, idealistic, extroverted.

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It’s My Life - Bon Jovi

Survivor - Destiny’s Child

You Don’t Own Me - Grace ft G-Eazy

Don’t Play - Halsey

Fighter - Christina Aguilera

Mount Everest - Labrinth

Remember The Name - Fort Minor ft Styles Of Beyond

Hit Me With Your Best Shot - Pat Benatar

This Is Me - Kesha

Love It If We Made It - The 1975

Do It Like A Dude - Jessie J

Born Ready - Zayde Wølf

“I can write the saddest poem of all tonight. I loved her, and sometimes I think she loved me too.”  

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For Aphrodite 🐚🦢🤎

pls help

I know you’ve answered this question before, about ego and I apologize for asking the same question but I just don’t get it.

I’ve been into every corner of the internet asking for the same advice, how do I get away from ego? and I’ve gotten the typical advices “observe” “be aware of everything and notice it” and so on. I’m not saying that’s bad I know what “you’re supposed to do” but girl, I’ve tried it and I still feel like this limited bitch (sorry for the cursing is just I feel so lost) like I feel like I’m glued to her. Everyone I try not to identify it feels IMPOSSIBLE, I don’t even know that feeling of just feeling numb or feeling extreme happiness and love Ike Robert Adams says. I know this topic intelectually, but I don’t know it and I don’t understand it. I few when people are giving me these advices they’re talking about something non existent, it feels like they’re lying ( pls don’t take is as if I’m saying that what you write is fake but I just don’t understand them ) my ego feels like still needs to work and all I do is try, try and go insane. I don’t want to read a book no more, I don’t want to read a book about ND and be like “wow I’m limitless” and then be like “oh nvm”.

How do u guys not feel like humans? How do u do it Sophie? It seems so far away from me. I don’t want to work or figure out. Like I genuinely give up on trying, I just want to exist. I want to know, how? genuinely, how??

how guys when you cry u dont identify??? it’s that even possible? how could someone ever feel numb?

A little piece of me believes in this, like I’ve somehow experienced the proof of this, which is my existence. But why do I feel like this ego??? Am I connected with Grace (my real name lol) for ever??? All I read is content and I don’t even understand nothing no more. It all feels impossible and so far away. I’ve tried everything, and I don’t feel like it works for me.

this is kinda embarrassing, but please, what would you do in my place? I don’t even want to read about ND no more lol that’s how done I am with this. I know this is my ego complaining but I feel like I’m just repeating theory over and over. I’ve cried these days over and over to figure out how it; what do these people do to not feel like their ego???

#help

You can literally see me starting my journey here. All my progress happened live and in front of this site's eyes. I did it all BY myself with myself. I read Ada's posts when she was here and replying to asks (~3months maybe?) And then other 3 months of revising her words over and over and doing my best to apply.

So if I'm "rude" sometimes; it's because I started just like all of you also. I didn't start as an enlightened master but just a girl coming across this information on tumblr. And not in good circumstances AT ALL.

I haven't really cried in a long time; but if I did I wouldn't feel "numb". I would enjoy the experience like all the other experiences. It's your ego's judgements that make something anything but lovely and love.

If you're spiralling then it means you haven't even understood it intelectually. You really have no choice but to make yourself understand; read some more or just give up. If it's too much — move on from the topic for now and do something else with your life until you're ready to come back to Self realization again (because you will be back, the world can give you nothing of lasting value).

Lastly, you can't get away from ego because you are making it up. You make it up and then go "how to get rid of it?" It doesn't exist. Not without you here to experience it.

Ego is A THOUGHT. You're trying to get away from your own mind.

HIIII PINK!!! When I heard you were leaving I was so sad I even started crying and started to doubt myself on entering the void. I was like “how tf am I going to get into the void without pink???” I started procrastinating reading some of your post basically stalking ur page staying up til 4 in the morning (I was desperate 😭). I realized that I already read all of ur post, nd I just was surprised on how much time I wasted trying to get into the void. And I always dreamt abt putting a success story in your inbox. I already had all the knowledge i needed so what’s the point of more? I deleted tumblr and thought of anything that could help me get in the void. I did SATS while listening to my subliminal playlist, i daydreamed abt the void and my desires for fun, i affirmed for my void concept randomly throughout the day, feeling of the wish fulfilled, listened to delta waves when I was abt to sleep, and I meditated once a day for 10 mins. Meditation was optional but whateva 🤷‍♀️. I ONLY DID THAT FOR THREE FREAKING DAYS. And Im still mad at myself for wasting time procrastinating for 9 months. I was going to take a nap and I was in a drowsy state, so might as well affirm for the void right? I started saying affs like “I’m in the void”, etc etc. Once I started affirming, everything was just calm Yk? My body wanted to move but it was like it couldn’t cause the state I was in was calm asf. So I closed my eyes and just repeated the affs in my head over and over and over until I got this feeling like as if my body was floating, then I payed attention to it for a split second then ignored It after. I kept on affirming then I felt like I was being pulled then let go and it was as if I was falling. Everything got darker and quieter. So then I got scared and jumped because that scared me soo bad (I’m a easy person to scare 😔). After that, I felt like I was actually a master at the void, I took a nap again and I had the same feeling but when I felt like I fell I kept my calm. Then I couldn’t hear my fan which was louddd, I opened my eyes to total darkness, I was scared for two seconds and realized I was in the void!! Ngl I had a whole list set up with my desires and I was ready to affirm and goooo!!! But I realized how calm the void is and stayed there for what felt like 5 minutes. I did affirm I had all my desires and that I was able to wake up in the void under 5 seconds. When I woke up from the void it was 9 pm and I took a nap at 2!!! I woke up with all of my desires nd shi. (I would explain in more detail in how I got in and stuff like that but I was in a rush and didn’t want to make this too long 😀)

BUT THANK YOU SMM PINK, IM GOING TO MISS U SM. YOU HAVE BEEN A REALLY BIG HELP WITH MY VOID JOURNEY, I TRULY APPRECIATE EVERYTHING U HAVE DONE FOR THIS COMMUNITY, MAKE SURE TO ENJOY UR SELF 💗💗💖💖💖💗💕

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Hi love!!! Omgosh I'm so proud of you! This is so cute and you deserve this so much and I'm genuinely happy for you. 💗

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❦ this pac was requested @junswic , i never forgot it! and im not taking in any requests anymore since i already have the last two pick a piles im my drafts that im doing, and i thought the ones they came up with was very interesting and i'd like to try one of them so i evidently picked the dark powers one!

❦ anyways, take a deep breathe and choose wisely!

PILE ONE - THE SILVER QUEEN

❦ from what im getting for this pile is that you have a dark power of making many people submit to you, without barely doing anything you have this power of making others feel intimidated by you, even though this gives you automatic authority over other people. they might be others who will want to be different and go against you. due to how used to you are having others submit to you it could rub you the wrong way when you see someone not behave like others. you have this queen energy that makes many people do whatever you want them to do, you have this cold fire energy to you and especially when you speak. you can speak with softness yet people would still be able to hear the dominance you bear with your soul.

❦ you have this dark power of controlling both men and women, it could be considered as mind manipulation/mind control, or people from the outside would study it as people fearing you so they do whatever you want them to do. your dark power could include of influence, you will have people by your side all the time and would have people advocate for you, you might have people around you that see you doing barely anything wrong which could lead to something dangerous. even though your dark power could impact people around you, this could also impact you, because they see you as someone who is "perfect" and "mighty" the moment you do something they wouldnt expect them to do, all their delusions about you will fall and they can become disappointed.

❦ but because of your mind manipulation, you can quickly make them believe otherwise. you can make them start thinking you are someone who is perfect and outer-worldly again. this is a pile for people who want to feel like a God, this could be your inner self, what you want to become, becoming someone who could have someone's life in their hands. deciding if they should go punished or unpunished. (very Lilith-like).

❦ as i said that you have this type of influence, which could once against link back to mind manipulation. with just with the look on your face and the gloss in your eyes, you could make others decide if they want to or not want to do anything. people who chose this pile could be very excellent when giving puppy-eyes which could make it difficult for others to say not to you. many people who have picked this pile could be studied as someone who is brattish and spoiled, being very used to everything going there way. and because you are so good at mind-control, you can use it to make others go against others, the power of persuasion and influence.

❦ people who've picked this pile might have some aquarius, pisces, leo, neptune and uranus, prominent lilith and slight scorpio dominance to them. they could even have some pluto dominance to them; those placements are very required for someone to have that much influence on others, it could even go to the degrees, the 23 degree, 17 degree, 10 degree and 20 degree. but the most dominant and prominent sign and planet that is coming up for me for this pile is pisces and neptune.

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PILE TWO - QUEEN OF HELL

❦ for those who have picked this pile, i sense that your dark power is being able to transform yourself from every situation and like the previous pile, or which i'd say is quite similar to the previous pile, many of you have the power to deceive others. being able to get other people to do your bidding without them realising that they are doing your bidding; many of you are witty, mischievous, cunning and alluring that is most likely how you get many people to fall for what you say to them causing them to do what you want. like i said in the beginning of the paragraph that you have the ability to transform yourself from every situation, including negative situations, you guys mainly transform yourself from negative situations, in a way that you become more powerful than ever. in a "what doesnt kill you makes you stronger" way.

❦ however, like, the previous pile, you guys can be very manipulative, but not in a mind-control way. perhaps you guys already have done or maybe it has flown through your mind, or you have the capability to do it; you guys might've used someone's leverage against them. but majority of the leverage could be about relationships, im seeing a lot of you guys used leverage against married people who've tried to hit on you. im also getting that you use sex to get what you want. very mischievous people who have picked this pile and people who usually have ulterior motives.

❦ im seeing that many of you might pray to a deity or that some of you just have a God-Complex, i sense that the reason why majority of you are like this is because you have been wronged in the past many time and perhaps you let people get away with it back then until there was just a moment when you had enough. you woke up as a different person, a person with an agenda, perchance, many of you are bitter people but you are not bitter without a reason.

❦ possibly, you being bitter is what aids you to go throughout the day. without that bitterness you wouldnt have accomplished the things you have done. it could be said that your dark power would include vengefulness and a powerful will, it could be studied that many of you have been called a bitch and you never took offence to it. perchance you even agree with the claim, it makes you feel good that you make other people miserable. you feed onto negativity it is a like a power source to many of you guys, possibly people do feel bad negativity around you, and perhaps it is bad energy due to the negative generated power you consume. adding onto your dark power, it would be studied that you always have versatility and duality to dip into different personalities, which could be a reason why people think you're two-faced.

❦ howbeit, you do that to adapt into the atmosphere you're in, specifically if they're new atmospheres. ironically, some of you might even be a twin and you could be considered as the rebellious twin. moreover, to the placements im seeing for this pile is heavy mercury, virgo, gemini, scorpio, pluto, sagittarius, aquarius and libra. mainly mutable energy for this pile, degrees like 18°, 21°, 20°, 29°, 15° and the 16°.

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PILE THREE - QUEEN OF THE NIGHT

❦ this is a very devious and slick mass of people who've picked this pile. sirens, femme fatales, plutonians and lilithians gathered here. people who love the darkness, the occult, death and magic. a lot of people who practice witchcraft or anything else surrounding it picked this pile, but that is not the dark power i'll be speaking about. the dark power people who've picked this pile would have is the ability to lure others, as if a snake trapping their prey. the ability to deceit others successfully all the time and possibly having the ability to enhance your beauty, being very adaptable in your surroundings, being able to do all dark mischievous things while still being able to look like the innocent one.

❦ one of your abilities is perserverance, having the ability to wait it out, wait till someone's death or wait until someone's tired. also waiting until the person you are against forgets what they've done so you can attack and surprise them, like those thieves in the night; on one hand, i have a state of mind that many of you have to have at least one clair. this is the pile of people who are very spiritually talented and barely of you use it for a peaceful or happy thing. many of you use your gifts to seek out revenge and justice. perchance, a lot of you were pushed to a moment you had nothing but the darkness and the darkness enveloped you with a cold warmth.

❦ being nocturnal, which could aid you on succeeding on the things you've planned. many of you are secretive and intelligent. having the power to outsmart any opponent you have even if they're more knowledgable or "powerful" than you. both "knowledge is power" and "power is power" are your mottos and you know when to use them individually or you know how to use them the same time. returning to the point of you having the ability to lure others in, masses of you do have this siren affect and you like to use it on men most of the time, to play and toy with their feelings, majority of the time is when they come to you with ulterior motives but you being the cunning person you are, you outsmart them.

❦ people who've picked this pile embody darkness and malevolence. you have this dark power to read someone's mind with ease, you scare and intimidate people. eyes either holding much expression or very detached. but grin malicious or playful, some people might consider you as someone who appears or disappears very quickly, but you have this impact to be printed in someone's mind for a very long time, as if their mind is your home. having this dark ability to pick every insecurity or fear one has and use it against them.

❦ having this all-knowing energy that makes people automatically think that you're better than them, of course this'll bring nasty and envious energy but many of you wouldnt care due to you being of people who feed on negative energy. being able to do risky things for your benefit, many of you are self-righteous, selfish and arrogant but it helps you through life, you do have this light within you but you decide to cover it with a blanket and only show it to people you think are deserving of it. placements i get for this pile is mainly scorpio, aries, aquarius, virgo, pisces and leo. with dominant pluto, uranus, moon and sun, im getting a mars-venus, mars-neptune, venus-pluto, sun-pluto and jupiter-pluto aspects for people here; returning to the point of you doing risky things for your benefit, perhaps people have hurt you for your benefit and now all you do is reflect them. perhaps you project a lot, you're self-aware of the darkness and evilness that does fill up your body that it could be stated that your dark power is genuinely just darkness.

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PILE FOUR - THE REVOLUTION QUEEN

❦ here lies the provokers and the teasers, the people who think they're better than others but perhaps they even are. having the dark power to get a reaction from anyone, being able to get under anyone's skin; perchance many of you are hated because of how much distaste people get when they even say your name, or the annoyed groan that comes out of their mouths when they hear or see of your presence. i have a state of mind that you knowing that you can make people feel that way makes you feel good, knowing your power and impact on people.

❦ having this dark power to control other's emotions, pathokinesis is what they call it. aside from all the negative thoughts people could have of you, you could be described as some sort of charmer. knowing your way with words, knowing how to get someone riled up, knowing how to get someone sad or knowing how to get someone horny. making someone's knees shake because of how you word sentences, it could be stated that it does sound like mind manipulation, but, this is different, this is the manipulation of someone's mental state.

❦ having the potential to make someone leave the room with glee or despair. you could be described as someone who's a little wicked, evil with without a cause, being mischievous just for the fun of it, it makes you laugh knowing how brittle and frail human emotion's are, that to others it could be studied that you are not human but a mean sorceress. having the dark ability to prey on others just because you can; maybe you do this to make yourself feel better about yourself and it works. perhaps inside that cold and hard body of yours, if pierced with the sharpest weapon the world could wield and that tip of the weapon could touch your heart, they would be able to feel the sad and insecure feelings that rush through your body.

❦ but it's not your fault, the world has made you this way and so you must make the world feel how you've felt, and you're great at it. another nocturnal pile, maybe you're the people who cant even sleep, back rested against the bed as you stare up at the ceiling, hands either beside your body or against your stomach as you imagine all the things you could do. revenge, being a dark power of yours. knowing what you could do to others makes you smile, skin made out of tough steel, having the power to get through anything.

❦ maybe you've been called insane, but it didnt hurt you, you've been told worse that almost nothing could hurt you. maybe you've been called crazy, a bitch, a psycho, all the rude words under the sun and you've accepted them. you've been looked at as if your whole existence was taboo, perhaps you were someone who wasnt accepted in this life time, being a lone wolf, maybe some of you even have a short amount of friends, but you might not talk to them all the time. being a hermit, needing alone time to regenerate. accepting loneliness as it accepted you, you might even find it better with it just staying that way. seeing pisces placements for this pile, heavy 12h placements, neptune placements, cancer, scorpio placements, 11h and 8h placements. heavy aquarius and uranus energy perhaps even sagittarius. prominent lilith and pluto dominant too.

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how i revised my boyfriend’s mother’s death

a little backstory

— for the sake of privacy, we’re gonna say my boyfriend’s mother’s name is kay

kay’s “death” was caused by a car accident (wasn’t her fault) and she later passed in the hospital. this all happened in new york, and my boyfriend and i live in georgia. but about a 2 days after we found out, we flew out there.

my bf and his mom were super close so that loss was a lot on him. he started burying himself in the gym, sleep, work etc & eventually he became really depressed. he would not get up out of bed and i could not take that. that was when i decided to revise her death, and this was like a week after she passed.

the moment i learned she was dead, i naturally entered the state of loss. so, i simply and quickly went over what state of mind i was currently in, and what state of mind i needed to be in.

now y’all know i love meditating <3 so ofc i meditated. the one i used is by edward art, i believe i’ve mentioned it before. but here’s the link 😌💘

so yeah after this meditation i had completely satisfied my imagination, i had a great feeling of serenity, and i was in the state of the wish fulfilled. + i let go of any need to control the 3d.

— reminder: don’t look at your 3d as something to change. things change when they change in consciousness/imagination. if you wanna manifest something, don’t point out your current circumstance as something that you need to change. be cool and fulfill it in imagination;)

— also sn: my boyfriend knows about the law but he doesn’t necessarily study or consciously use it. so, i didn’t tell him i was revising his mom’s death.

— and i had to continue to act like his mom was actually dead when i was around him, even tho at this point kay was 100% alive in imagination.

so in the morning, i would wake up and assume the state of fulfillment. throughout the day, when i would go check on my boyfriend, he always expressed his feelings, how i could help, and new ways he was trying to cope. honestly, seeing him so hurt and confused hurt me. and throughout this, one of the few things i always reminded myself was that, i’m not my emotions and i’m my thoughts, and neither of those things matter (in terms of manifesting).

another thing i always reminded myself of was the fact that i’m god, BUT i’m also human. so, the ‘god me’ was relaxed & satisfied. the god in me also didn’t have a hurting boyfriend with a dead mom. but the ‘human me’ did and he needed my comfort.

so that’s what i did, i comforted him because he was grieving the death of his mother. so what? i’m human, and i have human decency so ima comfort my baby.

HOWEVER, i didn’t attach myself to that (accept it). i didn’t look at me comforting him as “his mom’s dead and that’s final”, i just did it because he’s my bf and he’s hurt. but i still maintained fulfillment in imagination.

— i talk about this more in depth here. but basically the post acknowledges that yes, you’re god, but you’re also still human and you have a human life to respond to. so do that, respond to your life (when necessary) while simultaneously fulfilling the inner man.

as long as you continue to return to the state and fulfill SELF, you will manifest whatever it is you’ve fulfilled.

when it manifested

the night before it manifested, my bfs dad asked everyone (the family) over for brunch. just so everyone could be together during rough times and whatnot.

the next morning when we woke up, my bf.. it was like he completely reverted; he just went back to his regular self. i made sure to take a mental note of it.

as we were driving to his dads house he was acting very normal. all that pain, hurt, etc was not there. his whole energy was different. then what really got me was when we had got to a red light. he said “i already know my moms threw down, i wonder what she cooked”……….and i’m like, i know i’m not trippin. just went along with it and agreed with him cause what was i supposed to do lol😭?

so we pull up to the house and get to the door, and one of his brothers opened it. as we’re saying hi and walking further into the house we start smelling food and my bf goes “YUP! I KNEW IT!!”

then he walks into the kitchen and says “hey ma watchu in here cooking? it smells good”……. and his mom was literally standing there smiling before she gave him a hug.

this all happened naturally by the way. it was like… she never died😂😂 the power of revision yall!

anyways the whole afternoon went by like nothing ever happened.

i honestly thought it was pretty funny. knowing how they used to interact with each other while they were grieving kay’s death vs now was hilarious. and what makes it funnier is they never knew and never will 😂😂😂

so there y’all have it, how i revised my boyfriend’s mother’s death. sorry i made y’all wait so long:) i literally got so demotivated while trying to type this.

feel free to ask questions cause ik yall got some😩😂 love y’all 🫶🏾

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Placements that give sex appeal (need to have multiple of these to generate a strong sexual presence) {some are repeated}:

Chart Ruler in the 1st, 2nd, 5th or 8th House or conjunct Lilith or North Node

Pluto/North Node conjunct personal planets or in the angular Houses or 2nd/5th/8th Houses

1st/2nd/5th/8th House Stelliums

Vesta conjunct the North Node, conjunct the Ascendant or in the 1st House, conjunct Sun/Moon/Venus/Mars or in the 2nd/5th/8th/10th House

Venus-Mars aspects (especially conjunct/trine/square/quindecile/quincunx/quintile/sesquiquadrate)

Venus/Mars/Pluto/Uranus/Lilith/Eros in the 1st/2nd/5th/8th House or in aspect to the Ascendant/Midheaven

Having a sexy asteroid (Lilith {all 5; 5th one is on Astro.com}/Eros/Eris/Salome/Lameia/Circe/Ishtar/Nymphe/Cupido/Sappho/Esther/Yarilo/Sirene/Messalina/Medusa/Athene/Adonis/Apollo/Aphrodite/Kaali/Astarte/Fox/Kitty/Herodias/Galatea/Kallisto/Amanda/Hathor/Casanova/Bacchus/Lust in Angular Houses, conjunct an angle or angular ruler(s), in a strong aspect to the Ascendant, in the 2nd House, conjunct personal planets or conjunct the North Node especially Lilith/Salome/Eros/Sirene/Messalina/Lameia/Nymphe/Lust/Medusa/Aphrodite

Any but multiple sexy asteroids in strong aspect to the Great Attractor, Galactic Centre & Super Galactic Center

Mars/Aries in Angular Houses or in the 2nd, 5th & 8th Houses

Lilith in the 1st/4th/7th/10th/11th Houses & conjunct personal planets

3rd House Ruler(s)/Mercury in the 8th it strongly aspecting 8th House Ruler(s)

Having Capricorn/Saturn or Aquarius/Uranus in the 8th House

Prominent Juno or Juno/Venus aspects

Rising or Midheaven in the fixed Decan of a sign

Lilith/Eros/Venus/Mars/Pluto/Aries/Taurus/Scorpio Dominance

Moon-Mars aspects or Moon in the 1st, Mars in the 4th, Moon in Aries, Mars in Cancer

5th/8th House Ruler(s) in the 1st/2nd/4th/5th/7th/8th/10th or 12th House conjunct Ascendant

Scorpio/Pluto in the 1st/2nd/4th/5th/7th/8th/10th Houses

Fixed Dominance

1st/2nd/4th/5th/8th/10th/11th House rulers in strong aspect to one another {aspects listed next to Venus-Mars aspects}

Personal Planets in Aries/Taurus/Libra/Scorpio or in the Decans

2nd/8th House Ruler Decan(s) Dominance

Having any Rising with multiple of these combinations but especially Water Risings & Earth Risings & Libra Rising

Prominent Lilith/Mars/Eros/NorthNode/Vesta/Juno in the Natal Chart, Ascendant Persona Chart, Chart Ruler(s) Persona Chart, 5th/8th House Ruler(s) Persona Chart, Midheaven Persona Chart or North Node Persona Chart