Andr3yvishn3vsky - Andrey! ★

Having a serious disease is just like:

"Oh, that's just an illness and I don't need to feel guilty because of it, because I can't control it"

And then:

"FUCK, HOW MUCH I HATE MYSELF, I CAN'T DO BASIC THINGS, I'M ALWAYS ISOLATED, MY DISEASE JUST BECAME A MEME, WHY DO I HAVE IT??? JUST WHY?? IS THAT I DESERVE??? WHY I SHOULD I LOVE MYSELF WHILE EVERY FUCKING SECOND I'M WASTING AWAY??!"

ALT ADAM MURRAY HAS A PAD ON HIS FACE...?!!!???!!!😱😱😱😱

I wanna try weeds to be honest, and idc that I'm just 13, I know that I'll k!ll myself, so, I could smoke for as long as I need to. But... I haven't got money for it... I wanna be law abiding, but I feel like I'm gonna comm!t soon...

No. My epilepsy is NOT a disability. Why though? Because it doesn't prevent me from doing ANYTHING. It doesn't affect me all the time. Yeah, someone could say "B-but seizures are a disability!!!" Yeah, they could be. But, have you read the criteria to get disability with epilepsy? No? Okay, I'll list.

– Frequency of seizures. If they are too intense and happening too often (for example a few times per day.)

– Decrease in intelligence.

– Mental issues.

– Impaired ability to move.

– Developmental disorders.

So, that's why epilepsy doesn't make you automatically disabled, it just makes you ill. So, I prefer to use the term "sick, but able-bodied." Instead of disabled. Y'all should accept that disability is a status given by law. So, if you're getting money for your disability, and you have this status in your documents – you're disabled. Or at least if your disease is affecting you most of the time like POTS, fibromyalgia, arthritis etc. you're disabled.

But even if chronically ill means being disabled... I still prefer to be called able-bodied. I'm not disabled. So I don't deserve to be called disabled. Leave space for someone else, not me.

I'm waiting to be hated for my opinion. I don't mind anymore. I don't want to call myself disabled and bury myself in my illness. If I'd be hated for that, but I'd still be able bodied, I don't mind. You can call me like you want, and call yourself a disabled if you have epilepsy, because I'm talking about MY CASE not YOURS.

Thanks for reading. Stay healthy.

Sometimes, I think that it'd be better, if I'd be a man. I could look like I want, I wouldn't have boobs, and periods, and people would see in me personality, not just boobs and vagina. I hate fact of being girl. I hate fact of that people will refer to me as she/her even when I told them to refer me as they/them/it/its.

I was about to jump off the window right now, but remembered that I'm living on the 3rd floor, so even if I jump, I'll survive. But this window is almost telling me to commit su!c!de!!

I still don't get why so many people like Cesar. Like... Isn't he just a bland image? We literally know nothing about him, except the fact that he's friends with Mark and he's well... Somewhere. Literally, everything we saw is his alternate! Although people still like him and believe that he has a "canon" personality. Hell, even Thatcher is better than him! Even though, I'm not a fan of Thatcher. I dislike him, but even like that Thatcher has more personality than Cesar

I hate tremor, just... why does my hand shaking without a reason for month? Plus people start to think that I'm nervous, and some of them don't care that it can be connected with another reason, and that it's an disease... Btw, I'm a bit scared of what might it be. It can be problems with nervous system, mental health or even brain! This makes me a bit sad, I guess I'll stop here:(

Metro reading experience

Metro 2033: wow what a ride. Let's check what else is there. Metro 2034: Metro 2035: anyway.

Fuck it. As someone who was born in Russia, I fucking despise the all angry and alcoholic russian stereotype. No, not all russians drink vodka. No, we don't have constant winter. No, we aren't angry 24/7. And no, most of us don't have the "typical" russian accent. I'm tired of "russian" characters who are just a walking stereotype.

I just needed to say this, thank you.