The thing is, I know I can survive.
I've done it before, I can do it again.
But why should I have to?
I don't want to.
06.08.2020
I want you to make me feels things I’ve never felt before. I want to know what its like to be loved by you.
-A.d.c
Growing up neglected can mean you don’t feel like you get to be picky about who gives you attention or what kind of attention you even get, you cling onto anyone who acknowledges your existence and it can end up so painful
i am a mistake. i am a complete mistake. i am the regret that people confront. i am a complete waste of time. i ruin peoples lives without ever intending to. this is who i am.
"Nobody want you in their lives."
-voices in my head
“I’m difficult.”
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My favorite low-cal substitutes and options! All under 50 calories.
Feel free to add to this! I didn’t include everything out there :)
0 cal - herbal tea 🫖
0 cal - green tea 🍵
0 cal - water flavoring like Mio
0 cal - Diet Coke 🥤
0 cal - pretty much any diet soda
2 cal - Black Coffee ☕️
2 cal - black tea
10 cal - monster ultra (I like paradise and fiesta especially)
20 cal - other sugar free energy drinks
39 cal - shot of sake 🍶
25 cal - 1 large egg white 🍳
32 cal - 100g Strawberries (~50 cal per cup) 🍓
40 cal - 1/4 c low fat cottage cheese 🦴
42 cal - 1 kiwi 🥝
42 cal - 84 g (1 thick slice) pineapple 🍍
47 cal - 154g (1 c) watermelon 🍉
50 cal - 1/2 grapefruit 🍊
50 cal - 3 oz plain Greek yoghurt
50 cal - 2 tbsp serving powdered peanut butter 🥜
50 cal - 4 oz (120ml) low fat milk 🥛
0-10 cal - serving shirataki noodles 🍜
0-20cal - Broth 🐥
5 cal - 1 c lettuce 🥬
6 cal - 28g (1 oz) pickled onion (do this yourself! So easy! So good on everything) 🧅
7 cal - 1 c spinach 🥗
16 cal - 70g (1 c sliced) mushrooms
17 cal - 1/2 c kale
20 cal - 1 c zucchini 🥒
20 cal - 82g (1 c. cubed) eggplant 🍆
21 cal - 1 tbsp parmesan cheese 🧀
25 cal - whole tomato 🍅
25 - 148g (1 med) bell Pepper 🫑
30 cal - 78g (1 med) Carrot 🥕
30 cal - 116g (1 c) pumpkin
30-40 cal - 1/2 pack or can tuna 🐟
35 cal - 1/2 serving (1.5 oz) cod 🐠
36 cal - 1 c miso soup 🍲
37 cal - 40g shelled edamame
38 cal - 1 c Brussels sprouts
39 cal - 1/2 hard or soft boiled egg 🥚
39 cal - 1/2 serving (42g) halibut (white fish) 🐟
40 cal - 1 c arugula 🥗
40 cal - 186g (10 spears) asparagus
45 cal - 148g (1 med) broccoli 🥦
45 cal - 6 med raw oysters 🦪
45 cal - 3 oz/85g lite tofu
50 cal - 100g (1/2 small-med) sweet potato 🍠
50 cal - 1/2 corn cob 🌽
50 cal - 50g shrimp 🍤
0-8 cal - pickles 🥒
5-10 cal - 1 tbsp salsa
17 cal - 1 passion fruit (18g)
23 cal - 1 tbsp hummus
25 - serving seaweed snack
25 - 1 med bell Pepper 🫑
30 cal - 22 Organic Yogis (okay technically this is baby food but it’s just freeze dried Greek yoghurt and fruit so shut up it’s good) 🍓🍌
30 cal - 300g/1 Cucumber 🥒
35 cal - 1 cutie (small orange/tangerine) 🍊
40 cal - 1 light babybel 🧀
47 cal - 1.5 c Air popped popcorn 🍿
50 cal - 6 oven-baked parm crisps 🧀
50 cal - >1/2 c unsweetened apple sauce 🍎
50 cal - 3 dried apricots 🍑
50 cal - 15 pistachios 🌰🥜
0 cal - Diet Root Beer (I don’t care that it’s a drink! It’s so insanely sweet and it kicks the ass of my cravings. Also, my list my rules. Sue me) 🍺
5 cal - serving Sugar Free Jello 🍮
5 cal - 1 tbsp Hershey’s Sugar Free Syrup 🍫
~14 cal - WHOLE BOTTLE Too Tarts sweet sour spray candy (so a few sprays is just 0-3 cal)
20 cal - 2 tbsp Frozen Cool Whip Lite (seriously, eat this frozen) 🍨
20-50 cal - baked fruit (bake some peaches, apples, etc. and mix with Splenda, cinnamon, etc.) 🍑🍎
23 cal - fun size sweet tart pack
25 cal - no sugar added small outshine popsicles 🍧
25 cal - 1 pack smarties (American) 🍬
35 cal - swiss miss reduced calorie hot chocolate ☕️🍫
40 cal - small Outshine Popsicles 
40 cal - 5 sugar free hard candies 🍬
42 cal - 1 Hershey assorted mini 🍫
43 cal - fat free green yoghurt with sugar-free jam 🍧
46 cal - 2 regular marshmallows
48 - 8 mini Cinnamon Sugar skinny pop Rice Cakes
50 cal - 1-2 squares dark chocolate 🍫
50 cal - 2 Dum dum suckers 🍭
50 cal - ~25 sugar free jelly beans
50 cal - halo top pops (lots of flavors) 🍦
0-2 cal - any herb/spice 🌿
4 cal - 1 clove garlic 🧄
5 cal - 1 stick sugar free gum
50 cal - 1/4 container White cheddar seasoning (2 cal per 1/4 tsp) 🧀🧂
50 cal - 10 sugar free mints 🌱
Disclaimer: actual calorie counts may vary depending on serving, brand, food tracker, etc.