I Want You To Make Me Feels Things I’ve Never Felt Before. I Want To Know What Its Like To Be Loved

Slipping into old familiar ways

That will take me to the same places

Places I don't want to be at

Places that hold my hand right into hell

I watch it happen from the outside

And I let it

Because I don't know another way

...

30.12.21

Fuck a break up.

Have you ever had a parent not want you?

Shit hurts as hell.

I’m so fucking sick of being treated like shit over and over again simply for existing it wasn’t my choice and I’m really doing my best

I think this is something I’m going to struggle with for the rest of my life

- Brokenness

I’m thinking of reasons why I liked you. It’s because I didn’t think bad about myself when I was talking to you, I didn’t have the urge to cut when I felt your touch on my skin, when I saw your smile and heard your laugh I felt like everything was going to be okay. You were the perfect distraction and now I have nothing…

~ via @missblack22

Everyone I've ever known has left me,

I've been left and abandoned and neglected

Like a hurt stray puppy on the side of the road

Was I not good enough? Or did they just never realise? Did I do something? They don't have to stay obviously. No one does. But why?

I don't blame them. I don't. I wouldn't stay for me either.

Can I just be enough for someone? Please. Can someone just stay? I don't know how much more abandonment I can take.