related to that reblog thing i was blabbin on. about experiences and envisage shifts.
i recently had my strongest shift in a while (although thats not saying much, mine are weak as hell) while in my friend's car. a song started, and when i realised it was a song i didn't like that much, i felt and saw two antennae flatten against my head in upset.
maybe a coincidence, but the song was numb little bug. like.. bug antennae. idek. of my known types, idk what it would be.
face wings, purple, watching stuff... ok so mine is a fictionkin and this might be just cause i love talking abt it butttt the watchers from evo smp might be worth looking into! the only thing im not sure of is i dont think our presence is usually calming.. i hope mine is tho :P
the watchers are like these deities that watch over different worlds (technically minecraft smps...) and their denizens, in fanart they are often depicted as figures with lots of eyes and sets of purple wings (AND FACE WINGS!!!)
if this sounds right at all i'd recommend looking through the watcherkin tag, theres not much there so it'd be pretty easy
okay so background. I've been struggling with what I am for a very very long time. I use the term "angelkin" to describe myself because it feels right and cus Idk what other term to call myself. I'm an angel, but not of any religion, and not even from Earth or an angel that protected Earth ect. if that makes sense
I have big wings. just two on my back and two on my head that can cover my eyes (HEAD WINGS PLEASE COME BACK I MISS YOU) they're big and white with blue/purple undertones yes I know exactly what my wings look like I miss them a lot. also I lived in space. I floated around nebula and stuff and kinda hung out. until NOW when SOMEONE put me HERE WHOSE IDEA WAS THIS???? anyway. I kinda of just passively watched the universe be created and stuff (I'm mad I cant watch it anymore. sometimes I stare at the sky and try really really hard to see like i saw but it doesn't work sadly. this is was fomo feels like I fear) also I'm 50% sure I was just a really bright star with wings on it. maybe a head cus I have head wings but idk what my physical body looked like besides that I had wings.
okay so here's my issues. number one is I'm pretty sure those wings might just be an everything. like I feel my wings 24/7/365 from when I was a kid to now I have had these annoying big wings and the not annoying head wings. because I've had them for so long they kinda just..transposed themselves onto all my other 'types?? like I'm a cat with wings. and a wolf with wings. just cus they never go away. (sometimes they switch like in between my raven wings and my angel wings but you get the point)
number TWO. I don't think angelkin is the right term for what I am. even though I would call myself an angel??? like I have a cute little star halo and Im a comforting presence that likes to watch and observe??? is not not angel-y enough??? if anyone reading this (thank you) knows a better label to fit than angelkin please comment it!!!
anyway the rest of this is just ranting about my type and what I look cus I love how I look..or looked I guess...
i had a comforting aura or presence? like if you were around me you would calm down. I had a little star halo that was bright and looks white but really its a whole bunch of colors similar to how stars look white but are rlly a bunch of colors. my size depended on what I wanted it to be. I could get big enough to see the entire universe or small enough to hold a planet in my hands. my wings were less for actual flying and more for propelling myself through space. if I were to be on Earth, I would float (similar to how the Angelic Warden flies and floats in Creatures of Sonaria if any of you know that game). My favourite place to stay was the Pillar of Creation. I still love them because seeing picture of them brings be much joy and comfort. also I may or may not BE them. its confusing.
anyway thank you for reading!!!
GUYS!!! any other watchers that feel like they are realm smp keepers or observer. like theyre straight up the same thing. omniscient purple beings with eye motifs. watching and pulling strings of multiple worlds. pulling people into worlds of suffering and corruption. HELLO??
also the universe works in beautiful ways. my watcher oc from like 3 years ago was named Tau. which i just learned is a greek character which the first keepers were named after!!! my name is tau ohh my god!!!!
if anyone wants like the full keeper lore , bekyamon's stream from today was her literally reading a treasure trove of lore. it just. ughhh its so watchers and evo.
waiter waiter more watchers please there has to be more of us
someday i will write out what i believe of the watchers and listeners, and my origins. i want to know what i have in common with the others.
the watchers/listeners (evo smp, life series) and their many incarnations have been added to the pile of what i think the 'type looks like, as well as a mental connection to my friend's concept of hunters.
overall, i believe i an a vessel of the many winged, many eyed beasts, moreso metaphorically and related to my alterhumanity than a spiritual thing, but it may prove to be spiritual for me.
this is weirdly deep for me but i do really love the evo gods. they are beautiful.