Today I woke up at 10am, had breakfast, organized my backpack and all of my active folders (aka college classes, therapy, recovery, and NAMI), had lunch, took a shower, and spoke to my mom by phone. I realize I am actively avoiding reading more of my ACA textbook. I did this going-back-to-college backasswards but hopefully, I won’t be too scarred by this semester. I still need to complete the disability services paperwork for my psychiatrist to sign off and the work history for my SSI/SSDI paperwork. These are my reminders to self. I’m too keyed up from my cryfest last night to sit down and write in my paper journal. 9 Jan 2017
Things I wish my support team would do in times of crisis:
Question my motives i.e. “Why do you think it’s a good idea to start school after five years and especially so soon after being hospitalized?”
Remind me to look at the bigger picture: “What is next semester’s book budget in addition to this semester’s budget?”
Use ‘I’ statements: “I understand the situation to be that you want to go back to school using your GI Bill because you do not want to be a financial burden on your loved ones.”
Remind me that things will be okay and that life will be different in five minutes! This is my personal mantra and I forget it when I am in meltdown “snotty from crying so hard” mode.
9 Jan 2017
Same tree, just a different branch
on referring to a secondary department coworker by another coworker who works in the same department as said coworker | 31 DEC 2016
A rainbow symbolizes hope.. hope for a balance between the sunshine and the rain.
17 NOV 2016
I’ll attempt a tumblr on life now I’ve been diagnosed. It’s taken a while to understand what exactly is my diagnosis due to the length of time it’s taken me to get back to me. The discharge paperwork just mentioned psychosis but nothing else related to schizophrenia or schizophreniform.
I’m not sure if that is the experience most people go through in civilian hospitals or if that’s just the special treatment that veterans receive. 7 JAN 2017