You know what? Fuck it. Just fuck it. I have suffered for over a decade, having been one of the most altruistic people I know, often actively making my life worse to help others with whatever problems they had. I'm fucking unemployed, suffer from severe mental illnesses, and just in general had a pretty shitty life. Fuck it. Fuck you. I will not spend any notable amount of money on anything except my rent, electricity, and fucking food. I won't walk/go somewhere anymore just because you lost or forgot something. I will not risk my career just because you won't get your stupid ass to ask anyone else for help but me. I'm fucking done with this shit. If I continue with this mindset and lifestyle, it'll end my life. That's not worth it. Your life actually isn't worth more than mine. And don't you tell me I'm overreacting. After what I've endured, I have all the right to react like this. Fuck off, leave me alone, talk to someone else about it. God, fuck...