Outsiders Smp - Blog Posts
have ur food
shshhhhhh im not a twitter user idk what ur on about okay ,,
"Get your swords out, Get your swords out. I'm the only one fighting this war."
LYRICS FROM KNIFE IN THE COFFEE BY CAR SEAT HEADREST
exposing myself as an outsiders fan whoops
Grunge Krowfang? Grunge Krowfang.
This piece actually has some of my top favorite things to draw so it was kindve great ngl
Inktober 2024 Day 16: Grungy
Base Lining & Sketch:
hey guys!! I'm back. i have a message for everyone. RESPECT PEOPLE'S BOUNDARIES!!!!! I saw a fanfic on AO3 where the author said that they don't care if they cross boundaries and that it's "not their problem if people don't like certain things". THIS IS NOT OK!!!! IT'S NOT YOUR CHARACTER AND YOU DON'T GET A SAY IN WHAT YOU'RE ALLOWED TO DO WITH THEM OR NOT!!!! IF A CONTENT CREATOR SAYS THAT SHIPPING AND NSFW ARE NOT OK, RESPECT THAT!!!! DON'T DO IT ANYWAYS JUST BECAUSE "they will probably never see it". THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT IT DOESN'T EXIST!!!! EVEN IF THE CREATOR NEVER SEES IT, THAT DOESN'T INVALIDATE THEIR FEELINGS OR BOUNDARIES!!!! DON'T MISGENDER PEOPLE BECAUSE YOU'RE "uncomfortable with the it/it's pronouns" OR "neopronouns are weird and difficult to use in writing so I won't use them"!!! IT'S NOT YOUR IDENTITY AND YOU DON'T GET TO TELL PEOPLE WHAT PRONOUNS THEY CAN AND CAN'T USE!!!! JUST BE A DECENT HUMAN BEING AND RESPECT PEOPLE!!!
so i had an idea for an AO3 fic. Modern superhero/villan/superpowers AU where Owen, Krow, and Apo are roommates. Owen has the power of metal manipulation, Apo can control plants, and Krow has two powers; one being the ability to control and travel through shadows and be able to hide its demon features [horns, claws, tail] which most people assume the opposite of; that it’s second power is to turn into a demon. Apo is a vigilante, Owen is a hero, and Krow is kind of a morally grey character; it helps people in need but also does small crimes like theft and arson on abandoned buildings; the hero organization classifies it as a vigilante tho. they all try (and fail) to hide their identities from each other, so it’s very comical how sus one of them can act and the other two are way too tired to notice. more later, is getting late. byeeee o/
Sometimes you just forget colors exist when watching Sillvia’s pov and watching anyone else’s video is like a cannon firing mas amounts of confetti at your face all at once.
YESSSSS LIKE RAAHHHH
ok but why did they have to make him look so pretty while he was committing those atrocities
AWWWWHHHHH HE LOOKS SOOOO CUTTEEEEEE RAAAAHHHHH I LOVE HIMMMMMMMMMM
Idk guys I think he just needs some sleep
(Owen commission from the lovely @rozugold!)
// Tooth and Nail stream spoilers
So that was quite a lore stream wasn't it?
Just dear god
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(Long tambling below and more nonsense thoughts)
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On one hand, STILL A POSSIBILITY FOR C!OWEN AND C!MAGIC TO RIP MY HEART OUT AND DESTROY MY EMOTIONS THANK GOD
FINALE PART ONE IN EIGHT DAYS LET'S FUCKING GOOOOO
But my god
c!Owen killed them all, he really, he actually got away with all of them. He isolated them all and watched them all die, made sure that no one would ever find them. And just god, he actually killed them all.
He has done it.
He destroyed his home, bashing in crates and the fencing. Scattering all his things and letting vines overgrow. He had no home, there was no home. He let his thoughts consume him, laughing as he spiralled down and down and down and down.
He wanted it all to end, he wouldn't accept anything other than one of them to die after this. He was tired and if it ended with him, so be it, but he couldn't let himself live and Krow live as well. He wanted an ending of some sort to a war that ended long ago that he KEEPS FIGHTING WHEN HE DOESN'T NEED TO AND I-
*sobs*
And just that little part where we heard his father's voice, and he jumped back (probably hit himself), gooooodddd lord I feel unwell about that part. Dear god.
And yet
Puddy
He didn't kill Puddy, he still cares he cares maybe I dunno he just-
He told Puddy to stay in the second clearing and he didn't butcher him like we thought. Didn't offer up Puddy to Guts. He didn't discard all his attachments, he let Puddy go and live on in the ruins of another clearing. And told the little piglet who had been his sole comfort, who saw his little mistakes, hear his little poems and rants and pains. A companion who saw Owen in those long hours of writing down a will that no one will probably read. To them, Owen told the little piglet that he shielded from Krow's dagger, he told Puddy to stay away...
He didn't discard all his attachments.
I don't know how to feel anymore.
I'm fucking inconsolable just my god.
On one hand, c!Owen has always been on this road, a path in which he can't return from, he has been on it since he turned away from c!Apo, who he grieved and cried over, who haunted him for years in cherished memories. He was doomed when he told the tiefling to run back and he sealed his fate by ending Apokuna. The one person that carried more weight in his mind than anyone else had before he remembered.
And for Rasbi, he didn't even give a chance.
She never stood a chance.
And I don't know how much weight Graecie's words would hold. If she even wakes up in time, if she sees Owen and learns how much he has changed. If she will care enough to reach out after learning all he has done.
And Magic.
He used Magic and in the end, he betrayed her trust and he used her to kill. And she was never meant to be the one to save him, she would not be able to, I don't think.
I don't think there is anyone that could change his mind, on one walking in the maze or existing beyond its confines that could make him want to be redeemed. No one that could make him leave the hill collapsing on itself, step away from that ledgd, a cage filling up and drowning him.
I don't think anyone could convince him to save himself.
They wouldn't forgive him anyways, for good reason after all. He killed the demons and he deceived them all, he did the worst of them all really. Why save the monster that hurt them so much, who would only remind them and hurt them because he blinds himself and would deny he had done wrong.
Too much wrong.
He can't be saved and he won't allow himself to be saved.
I know
I know
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But I am a fucking fool holding out, and even if Puddy is doomed to the maze burning them all, I don't care. Owen loves that goddamn pet and I can't help but see the Owen that loved once when he told Krow to leave him with Puddy. And I want him to stop, god I want him to want to change even if he sealed his fate and would be hated forever. I WANT HIM TO HEAL STILL I WANT HIM TO BREAK THE CYCLE
AND I HATE THAT I CAN'T SEE HIM DOING THAT
But still I want him to and I am clinging onto hope like a drunk fool.
I want the Owen that hesitated to hurt, the one that wanted them all to thrive, the one that would reassure his friends, who was a protector.
I want the Owen that cared back.
The one that cared to live
The one that wanted to return home.
I miss him, goodness I miss him.
Because as much as I cheered on Owen and looked on for all he has done, he doesn't do it because he enjoys it, despite what he says.
He has hurt others and he lets himself stay hurt.
Killing Krow, the last of the demons in the clearing won't give him the peace he thinks it will let him have.
Even if he somehow hides it any longer, even if narratively someone wasn't going to probably find out what he has done, it will eat himself up inside.
It is a hollow victory that means nothing.
It was never was going to give him that closure he chased after for so long.
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The closure he will never give himself, staying as he is. He was never going to get a happy ending, staying as he was.
And really that is what it comes down to, changing, recognizing truly what is done and the emptiness and that he sealed any chance of forgiveness from anyone left that cared.
It is the closest a person can get to being irredeemable. By refusing to change, over and over.
And would it matter, when there is no time left to change?
Outsiders smp, but it's a modern au where they all work at a supermall
brain this is a terrible time to say that in light of recent events that Achilles Come Down by Gang of Youths is a c!Owen but you're awfully correct
i'm fuckin not okay bestie hey these songs are banger oh my god I'm never recovering from this never no never i'll die grieving this and there is no way I'll sleep well with this on my memory scarring me forever I can't believe you why can't we have good things
in lieu of a midroll ad i will preform the duty of a wiki that outsiders smp doesnt have
acho - he/they - streams at [ggAcho] on twitch and does not have permanently saved vods yet, currently all of their streams are in “past broadcast“ limbo on their twitch
apokuna - he/they - streams at [apokuna] on twitch and doesn’t have permanently saved vods, same as acho but some vods Have been lost
bekyamon - she/her - streams at [bekyamon] on twitch and doesnt have permanently saved vods i believe but do have edited 20ish minute episodes on youtube [bekyamon]
graecie - she/her - streams at [graecie] on twitch and has saved vods on [GraecieVods] and also has edited episodes at [graecie] on youtube
gutsluvr - they/them - streams at [gutsluvr] on twitch and does not have permanently saved vods as far as i can find
justayngel - she/her - streams at [justayngel] on twitch and has no saved vods
krowfang - he/it - streams at [krowfang] on twitch and has no permanently saved vods, we are suffering
kyle - he/him - streams at [kyleeff] on twitch and has no saved vods
magic - she/her - streams at [magicsings] on twitch and has no permanently saved vods
mohwee - he/him??? he’s the first one ive not found a pronoun check for??? - streams at [mohweelive] on twitch and has no permanently saved vods
oeca - he/him - streams at [oeca] on twitch and has no permanently saved vods
ori - he/they - streams at [orilovestea] on twitch and has vods at [ori vods] on youtube but theres only two of them and neither are outsiders PLEASE
owen - he/him - streams at [owengejuicetv] on twitch and has vods ALSO on twitch saved in highlights a la philza BUT he’s also got edited episodes at [owengejuicetv] on youtube
rasbi - she/her - streams at [rasbi] on twitch and has vods at [rasbi vods] on youtube but theres only two of them, this time both outsiders
red - he/him???? another one without pronoun check! - streams at [reddoons] on twitch and has no permanently saved vods but has some edited episodes at [reddoons] on youtube
sillvia - genderfluid they/them - streams at [sillviatv] on twitch and has vods at [sillvia vods] on youtube
soup - she/her - streams at [soupforeloise] on twitch and has no permanently saved vods but does have two edited episodes at [soupforeloise] on youtube
spidey - she/her - streams at [spideyarmy] on twitch and has no permanently saved vods, does have two edited episodes at [spideyarmy] on youtube
squidney - she/her - streams at [squidney80] on twitch and has vods at [squidney80vods] on youtube, as well as some edited episodes at [squidney80] on youtube
tldr: perishable vods acho, apo, guts, ayngel, krow, kyle, magic, mohwee, oeca, ori
conserved content bek*, graecie, owen, rasbi**, red*, sillvia, soup*, spidey*, squidney
* edited episodes that i dont how how up to date they are ** very minimal vods
EDIT: graecie vods located thanks to @taco-theblob!
I've had this AU in drafts for a long, long time. It's functionally a world I've been really wanting to build up properly and share, but so far it's only stayed on dms and small mentions to friends.
It's a super hero au that I've proxy named "State of Faces", for it was originally going to take place in an entire state but I fixed it onto a city now. I have two versions: Discord friends edition and the real reason I made it, The MCYT edition
The MCYT edition is what I'm very invested on!
Another Apo bc I love him!
Tw! Gore!
The sketch looked better 😔
Outsiders Owen! I drew this off a reference of myself!
!gory!
Sorry that I haven't posted anything other than reblogs in a while! Here!
Apo from outsiders smp!