NPD (+ bpd?) culture is loving the idea of being hated by someone only to get upset when it really happens because you're sensitive
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possible npd and bpd culture is getting tired of being nice for everyone else's sake and just wanting to be yourself fully.
i want to be mean to be mean, but i don't like the idea of upsetting my friends. (idrc in the moment but afterwards i feel bad.)
it might entail me a dick and harming people on purpose but i'm just so exhausted by everything.
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npd + bpd culture is your fp complimenting someone else in front of you and you Freaking Out over it and possibly even crashing (i’m not sure yet. all i know is i feel horrible). like am i that replaceable. fp has barely talked with me recently.
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