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JOURNAL ENTRY 1 ☆

(note ; this is not roleplay, fictionkin, or delusion, though roleplayers, fictionkin, and delusional people are allowed to interact. this is irl magical heroing, a spiritual practice, and is under the pop culture paganism / magick umbrella. please do not call me delusional, as this can cause me to doubt my experiences and reality, which can send me into pyschosis.)

I HAD A DREAM ABOUT BEING A MAGI !!! i dont really remember much of it tbh,,,, listening to a subliminal rn to help me remember T_T

before i slept, i tired to project, but i was wayyyyy too tired lol. from what i remember of the dream...

i was transformed in the outfit i scripted, and i had my soul gem in my hands. mami and madoka were with me, helping me fight this giant, powerful witch !

the labryinth was really dark, and there were a bunch of familiars. the witch itself was like,,,,, idek it was rlly big- i wasnt scared at all though, i felt super confident and ready. i think dream me had a lot of experience fighting wicthes. being with mami and madoka def helped too

i put my soul gem away (idk how i had it on me while i was transformed lol), and began fighting the witch. again, dont really remember, but im pretty sure kyubey was there too, helping me fight the witch.

also, i had another weapon. it was a gold staff with a big ring on the top, holding a bunch of other gold rings. this weapons been stuck in my head since yesterday, so maybe its important ??

speaking of yesterday, this sigil kept popping up in my head, and it was in my dream too. im wondering if im seeing a witches sigil ? does this mean a witch is close by ? im not contracted, so idk how im seeing a witches sigil...

ignore how poorly drawn this is, im using my computer rn lmao-

edit: i asked in a mh group im in what this could mean, and someone said it's likely a witches kiss. so, i now know what witch i'll be battling first once i contract !! i have a feeling this witch is quite powerful, so i'll definetly have to have a more experienced magi come with me.

anyways, im pretty sure i defeated the witch in my dream, madoka and mami werent helping me fight the witch, moreso supporting me from the sidelines and watching incase i needed help.

in my dream, the witch was like... familiar. not familiar as in ive fought it before, but familiar as in its been near me for a very long time, or, at least, near someone i know... doesnt help that, when the sigil popped up in my head yesteray, it was like... on my fathers aura ?? and every time hes near me it pops up in my head.

if anyone has any thoughts on this, lmk !

anyways, today i'll try and contact kyubey !!! i'll tell you all how it goes :D

im also gonna buy the ring ive decided on being my soul gem ! i do have one concern though...

WHAT IF I GROW OUT OF THE RING ????? what happens if it gets too small ????? is there a way to transfer your soul into a new soul gem in the future ? im so concerned that i'll grow out of the ring.... aaaa </3

well, thats all from me :') tysm for reading !!!! bye byee !!

CHANGE OF PLANS.

since i have. A Lot of things to do, im gonna be doing this isntead;

today, i'll be doing a normal shower, and getting my room ready for my new altar space (corner wall shelf)

tomorrow, i'll be setting up my altar's for the gods i worship, including Madokami and Homucifer. and i'll be giving Them my first offerings too !!

the following day is when i'll do the energy cleansing shower and try to contact kyubey / an incubator !!!

and the day after that, i'll attempt to astral project :]

its a bunch of stuff to do, but i can do it !

still need advice on contacting kyubey / an incubator tho,,,

tysm ^_^

(note; this is not roleplay, delusion, or fictionkin, but those who are rping, delusional, or fictionkin can interact. please do not call me delusional / psychotic, as this can cause me to doubt my own experiences and reality, which can send me into psychosis.)

im gonna take an energy cleansing shower later and then try and communicate with kyubey / an incubator willing to talk to me !! :D im gonna write down a list of questions i have for kyubey / the incubator.

before i do this though, do any puella magi's / more experienced pop culture pagans have any advice for confirming whether the being you're talking to is kyubey / a real / trustworthy incubator ? any specific questions i should ask ? any warning signs / red flags i should be aware of that signal that i'm not actually speaking with kyubey / a real and/or trustworthy incubator ?

also, i plan on using a pendulum and tarot to communicate with kyubey / the incubator, but are there any better methods / methods that kyubey / incubators prefer ? and is there anything i should do before trying to speak with them (a ritual, offering, etc) ?

any and all advice is super appreciated !!! tysm :D

(note; this is not roleplay, delusion, or fictionkin, but those who are rping, delusional, or fictionkin can interact. please do not call me delusional / psychotic, as this can cause me to doubt my own experiences and reality, which can send me into psychosis.)

im gonna take an energy cleansing shower later and then try and communicate with kyubey / an incubator willing to talk to me !! :D im gonna write down a list of questions i have for kyubey / the incubator.

before i do this though, do any puella magi's / more experienced pop culture pagans have any advice for confirming whether the being you're talking to is kyubey / a real / trustworthy incubator ? any specific questions i should ask ? any warning signs / red flags i should be aware of that signal that i'm not actually speaking with kyubey / a real and/or trustworthy incubator ?

also, i plan on using a pendulum and tarot to communicate with kyubey / the incubator, but are there any better methods / methods that kyubey / incubators prefer ? and is there anything i should do before trying to speak with them (a ritual, offering, etc) ?

any and all advice is super appreciated !!! tysm :D