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JOURNAL ENTRY 3 ☆

I ALMOST SUCCESSFULLY ASTRAL PROJECTED !!!!!! AND KYUBEY HELPED ME !!!!!!

it wasnt completely successful, i think the word would be, sorry if i misspell, bilocating ?

basically b4 i went 2 bed i asked kyubey if he could help me, and put on an astral projection subliminal, and when i woke up like,,, 20 or 30 mins ago i forget lol, i woke up and was SO tired but kyubey SPOKE TO ME, LIKE, I COULD HEAR HIM WHICH HAS NEVER HAPPENED B4 ??? and he was like "no you gotta do this remember ?" so i got back on my back and LEMME TELL YOU

my room. was so bright. my tv had stopped playing my subliminal so it had that bright ass screen, and my window covers broke off so until that gets fixed i have NEWSPAPER on my window. which means my room is BRIGHT

so between that and my, i will admit, impatience, i didnt fully get into the vibrational stage by the time kyubey told me to start using the rope method (where u visualize a rope infront of u and have ur astral body / soul grab it and pull u up)

but ONCE I PULLED MYSELF OUT

it was sooo weird,,,, it was dark but i could see my room at the same time ??? not perfectly BUT I COULD SEE IT, and at first it was weird differentiating

i looked around my room for something i could look at to confirm i was actually seeing my room, and i remembered this drawer in my room that has these two crystals i keep forgetting to move out of there, but i didnt remember if i had at that point, so i was like "i'll use that" from my physical and astral body but i got over that pretty quickly

so i looked in the drawer, saw the crystals, and then kyubey was like "you see them ?" and i almost JUMPED because i did NOT see him there 😭 and he was like "you see me ? :3" like yes….. ho /j

anyways i went back to my body, and going back in felt WEIRDDDDD dude my whole body like. twitched and shi i felt like my body was coming back to life (which, i mean, kinda ? my soul was going back into my body)

anyways i checked the drawer and the crystals i saw in the astral wreent there but there WAS crystals in the drawer

i was so excited to post this i havent even eaten breakfast yet T_T also i feel a veryyyy familiar energy causing a weight on my shoulder,,,, have i officially reached the "kyubey on shoulder" state of being an irl puella magi :0

OKOK anyways i gotta eat breakfast,,,, im gonna practice lots more with astral projection so im ready to contract once my soul gem vessel gets here !!!!!

if any1 has any tips for fully astral projecting, and making the atsral more vivid, please please please let me know !!!!! :D

thank you for reading !

JOURNAL ENTRY 2 ☆

I TALKED TO KYUBEY !!!!

heres how i did it, and how it went !!!

i started playing "sis puella magica", set up two LED candles beside me, cleansed my room with incense while saying "this space is cleansed of any beings, creatures, or spirits with negative intentions. only those with neutral or positive intentions are allowed to exist within this space."

then, i used my selenite stick to create a circle, while saying what i said before + "on top of that, only incubator's or kyubey himself may enter this space"

after that, i said "i ask that kyubey or an incubator please talk to me and answer my questions if you are willing to."

then, i used my pendulum to ask if kyubey was here, and i got a yes !!! from there, i asked if i had enough potential to make my wish ("everything goes in a way thats benefitial to me and my future"), and i got another yes :D

after that, i used tarot so kyubey could give me some advice. i pulled eight of swords reversed, strength reversed, nine of cups, ten of cups reversed, three of cups, and an orace card from a seperate deck.

my interpretation (that i confirmed w/ kyubey was correct) was bascally that once i make my wish, i can stop stressing and relax, that i need to trtust my intuition and power more, that i need to be ready to step into my power once i contract and start fighting witches, and that once i contract i need to defeat the witch that has a witches kiss on my father. which i. Really Need To Do.

i doubt that *all* of my fathers... actions probably aren't just from the witch, but i think his willingness to just... be like that, with no guilt, no attempt to even hide it, and his just. zombieness, probably are from the witch.

i doubt i'll be able to forgive him even if he completely changes after i defeat the witch, just from everything he put me and my family through, but as a magical hero i have to save all people, including, unfortunately, him.

ANYWAYSSS, all in all, it went really good !!! once i know i can astral project, and once my necklace i'll be making my soul gem gets here, i'll be able to make a contract !!!! ^_^

JOURNAL ENTRY 1 ☆

(note ; this is not roleplay, fictionkin, or delusion, though roleplayers, fictionkin, and delusional people are allowed to interact. this is irl magical heroing, a spiritual practice, and is under the pop culture paganism / magick umbrella. please do not call me delusional, as this can cause me to doubt my experiences and reality, which can send me into pyschosis.)

I HAD A DREAM ABOUT BEING A MAGI !!! i dont really remember much of it tbh,,,, listening to a subliminal rn to help me remember T_T

before i slept, i tired to project, but i was wayyyyy too tired lol. from what i remember of the dream...

i was transformed in the outfit i scripted, and i had my soul gem in my hands. mami and madoka were with me, helping me fight this giant, powerful witch !

the labryinth was really dark, and there were a bunch of familiars. the witch itself was like,,,,, idek it was rlly big- i wasnt scared at all though, i felt super confident and ready. i think dream me had a lot of experience fighting wicthes. being with mami and madoka def helped too

i put my soul gem away (idk how i had it on me while i was transformed lol), and began fighting the witch. again, dont really remember, but im pretty sure kyubey was there too, helping me fight the witch.

also, i had another weapon. it was a gold staff with a big ring on the top, holding a bunch of other gold rings. this weapons been stuck in my head since yesterday, so maybe its important ??

speaking of yesterday, this sigil kept popping up in my head, and it was in my dream too. im wondering if im seeing a witches sigil ? does this mean a witch is close by ? im not contracted, so idk how im seeing a witches sigil...

ignore how poorly drawn this is, im using my computer rn lmao-

edit: i asked in a mh group im in what this could mean, and someone said it's likely a witches kiss. so, i now know what witch i'll be battling first once i contract !! i have a feeling this witch is quite powerful, so i'll definetly have to have a more experienced magi come with me.

anyways, im pretty sure i defeated the witch in my dream, madoka and mami werent helping me fight the witch, moreso supporting me from the sidelines and watching incase i needed help.

in my dream, the witch was like... familiar. not familiar as in ive fought it before, but familiar as in its been near me for a very long time, or, at least, near someone i know... doesnt help that, when the sigil popped up in my head yesteray, it was like... on my fathers aura ?? and every time hes near me it pops up in my head.

if anyone has any thoughts on this, lmk !

anyways, today i'll try and contact kyubey !!! i'll tell you all how it goes :D

im also gonna buy the ring ive decided on being my soul gem ! i do have one concern though...

WHAT IF I GROW OUT OF THE RING ????? what happens if it gets too small ????? is there a way to transfer your soul into a new soul gem in the future ? im so concerned that i'll grow out of the ring.... aaaa </3

well, thats all from me :') tysm for reading !!!! bye byee !!