Murder Drones Khan Angst - Blog Posts

random yap time.

i feel like when Khan was younger (probably around Uzi’s age, maybe a little older. idk, open to interpretation lol), during the time where he was still working for the humans and would definitely get physically abused by them, he learned to handle pain pretty well— and at the same time developed a high pain tolerance; basically to the point where pain just became a minor problem; for example, it wasn’t a main priority for him to cure an injury as soon as possible.

Why I bring this up is cause I find it kinda ironic that Khan probably handles an injury, no mater what severity it is, as an annoying inconvenience, while he is horrible at handling his emotional pain.

Like. C’mon. You’ve seen the guy.

Literally locks his problems behind a door, drowns in his grief of the loss of Nori by putting all of her kooky insane stuff in a closet (and that could be implying that he sometimes goes to that closet just to loathe) and using doors as an unhealthy coping mechanism in fear of failing everyone, so he could follow Nori’s wishes with her idea, and protect the colony of course. But in the end, it ended up hurting everyone who depended on him, drew him far away from his daughter, and not even realizing that he was hurting Uzi, he (in denial, mind you) thought he was doing the right thing.

But then he acts completely chill as he literally floats in the air in episode 7, very clearly signifying that he does not really fear physical danger (unless it’s a Murder Drone bc that’s a trigger for him. last time that happened, he got a PTSD panic attack infront of Uzi in the Pilot lmao /lh) plus also impling that this isn’t his first rodeo. Crazy shit like that has just become normal to him.

Which I don’t think I can pick if that is kinda funny, or just tragically saddening.

testing out expressions but with Khan and making it into angst bc why not /silly

btw, the alt text includes a transcript of the dialogue in case anyone needs it (also cos my handwriting sucks ass and most of the time unreadable 💀 /lh)

some stuff :3 mostly Khan angst

been drawing a lot of doodles on stickey notes lol

he’s supposed to look like he’s having a panic attack here lmao- /lh

(yes, that is N btw, lol) this one is more playing with the plot and testing out possible ideas/scenarios kinda thing lol. N is such a good boy, he would give literally anyone a hug. /pos

also this is not a ship or anything plz do not tag as such. /srs ( I am a fan of crack-ships, but just not the one to make them. /gen )

Probably a necessary disclaimer once again;

STFU CREEPS, THAT IS NOT UZI.

anyway,,, a little Khori fluff :3

also the full ver. below

Das it lol

now that question is out of the way, i think it's safe to post this now :3 /silly

uhhh, anyway- messily-sketched Khori angst

istg if this is out of order im gonna- /j

this is actually a snippet from a random script for a comic which i wrote privately and have never shown here and never will /lh

Would-

Would ya’ll not mind seeing severely out of context angst art?

A/N: Basically Khan this entire fic;

“I AM AT MY FU*KING LIMIT-“

(I am fr putting this man THROUGH IT- /lh /silly)

Anyway- H I. I wrote another Khori fic bc I am incapable of stopping. /lhj

Enjoy ig lol. /lh

-Ruf >:3

Hanging By A Thread

A Murder Drones Khori (Khan x Nori) fan fiction one-shot.

TRIGGER/CRINGE WARNING: light angst, swearing

Khan finally gets home after a long day— a very, very… long day. His first and only priority was to go to his room. Right now, he doesn't have the energy to want to do anything else.

Khan practically instantly drops his smile as soon as he gets into the bedroom. He took a deep breath in, and released a sharp, drawn-out sigh while slumping against the door.

Khan crossed his arms tightly against his midriff. He stared at the ceiling of the small room with his head tilted slightly upwards.

As the empty air of the room became filled only with the sounds of silence, Khan started to go through his memory files to recollect the day. He had nothing else better to do right now, anyway. Why not waste his time some more?

When he was finished with his task, Khan yet again tried to find a distraction to help ignore... less important things.

Khan sighed sharply. He sluggishly stepped over to about towards the middle of the room and sat down defeatedly at the end of the bed.

Khan stayed still.....until he couldn’t. His head started to hurt.

“Fucking hell.. why now..?!” Khan thought.

And just as soon as he thought that things couldn’t get any worse--

{{ LOW BATTERY : YOU DIDN’T SLEEP, IDIOT }}

Khan grumbled. He moved the alert to the side. He ignores it. Like always.

“Ugggghhh…. You frickin’ idiot....” Khan held his face in his hands, noticeably slurring his speech.

First, random body aches, then it turns out that he’s running on low power. No wonder he feels like sh-

Knock, Knock.

The sudden noise made Khan feel like his core nearly jumped out of his chest.

Khan sighed. He stood up and lazily shuffled to the door.

It was revealed that Nori was patiently waiting on the other side. Khan immediately perked up when he saw that it was her.

“Oh-! Uh- Hey, Nori.” Khan said stiffly.

Nori had a calm smile on her face.

“Hey. You alright..?” She asked.

“U-Uh-!! G-Great!! Doing good!” Khan stammered while struggling to keep eye contact.

Nori raised an unamused eyebrow.

“YYYYeahhhhh.... I don't think you’re even sure about that, buddy.” She cracked a cheeky smirk.

Khan blushed. Partially flustered but mostly embarrassed.

If he truly wanted to fool Nori, Khan would have to think of something better than whatever the hell that was.

“You gonna let me in the room now orrrr…?” Nori teased.

“Oh! Uh, y-yeah, s-sorry.” Khan chuckled awkwardly.

Nori stepped past while the door behind her closed.

“Now.” Nori began. “You wanna tell me what’s up with you?”

Khan forced a smile.

“What do you mean? Nothing's up!”

Like always, Nori was not buying anything.

Khan dropped his façade. “Ugh.. f-fine… if you wanna know so badly, I’m not doing very well right now, okay?” He sounded defensive.

Nori tisked. “Mmm-hmm. Exactly what I’m talkin’ about.” She teased.

Khan scoffed.

“Nori, please… I’m not in the mood right now.. just leave me alone.”

Khan turned around with his arms crossed over his chest and walked a few steps away.

A short moment of silence followed.

Nori chuckled softly. She walked up to Khan and hugged him from behind.

“No need to go full-edge on me, big man. You know you don’t have to be ‘ the tough guy ’ around me.” She said.

Khan tried to take a breath in, but instead, it hitched. He put a hand over his mouth.

Well, shit. He did not mean to make that sound…

“And you said you were doing just fine, huh?” Nori said.

Khan blushed. Ashamed, but he paid no attention to Nori’s teasing.

“N-Nori, I-I c-can’t j-just—“

“It’s okay. I don’t mind.” Nori cut Khan off—knowing exactly what he was going to say without even finishing his sentence.

Khan felt the lump form in his throat. He finally gave in and released his tears— not even sobbing, just.. allowing them to flow.

Khan sighed.

“I-I’m sorry I just…I’ve been… really stressed out lately… cause I’m really busy and....”

His voice cracked.

“I’ve been.. feeling so tired… but.... sleep doesn’t feel like it’s helping.. a-anymore.... and.... I-I don’t know what to do....”

Nori lifted her head.

“It sounds like to me that you’re feeling a little burnt out.” She said, “You’ve been focusing on nothing but your work, why not focus on yourself for a little while? You deserve a break. Don't cha think?”

Khan sniffed. “I… I guess so, but… I can’t...”

Nori raised a brow. “Why not?” She asked.

“Cause I… I-I dunno.. I just… It’s important and.... there are people counting on me.. a-and I don’t even have the time for myself.” Khan replied.

“You’re thinking too hard, dummy.” Nori chuckled softly. She gave Khan one last gentle squeeze before pulling away.

“Some days are just harder than others… And that’s okay!” Nori added. She stepped in front of Khan.

“Hows’ about this?” Nori began.

“You take it easy for the rest of the day, and tomorrow you can take the day off.”

Khan flinched. “B-But I-!!”

“No buts!!” Nori interrupted. “Your well-being is more important! Got that..?” Her tone softened a bit on those last two words.

“Okay.” Khan sighed.

“Good.” Nori smiled. “Now would ya stop crying already??!”

Nori wiped underneath Khan’s eyes.

“Sorry, Sorry! I can’t help it sometimes.” Khan chuckled awkwardly.

Nori raised a playful brow and held a slight, cocky smirk on her face.

Fin~

mostly messy- 💀 /lh sketches of Khan having a rough time. + Khori and some comfort.

The first two images are a comic sequence.

( Putting a cut here bc the post is getting kinda long. )

Saying it once again bc I do not want to get accused of being an incest shipper or some shit;

THESE TWO IMAGES BELOW ARE KHAN AND NORI. NOT UZI.

That’s all I got for now lol- 💀 /lh

oh, you thought i was done with the angst? W R O N G ‼️‼️‼️ /silly /lh

uhh, anyway- Khan lookin sad and trying to self-soothe cause shore /silly

This is like- EXACTLY how I see Khan’s character.

This is the number one thing that I’m planning on touching on in my post-canon continuation for his character arc.

Rebloggin this even tho I already commented on this lol-

Soooo.... Khan headcanon/thingy here

Since everything dangerous is over on copper nine, no dissesembly drones, no planet eating god, no abusive asshole humans, no constant stress of a whole colony on his shoulders, his wife comes back from the fucking DEAD, his daughter is alive/ok(physically) after fighting literal god

Now that he can relax, do you think that, all of the stress & grief of just, everything, hits him all at once?

How would everyone else react to this, he already could barely hold himself together and everyone could see it, now he's not hiding it at all. He's going through a grieving process of someone who was a live the whole time he thought she was dead

All of the PTSD + anxiety + etc piles on to him at once and he just, can't function

Just a thought I wanted to get out there lol

Sadge.

[ Original sketch under the cut. ]

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Don’t mind me just gonna cutely put Khori angst here- /silly

(That is not Uzi btw, you weirdos 💀💀💀)

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Yes, I did completely forgor to add “#3” to the third panel- 💀