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Do not go to my grave and weep you are so annoying
"You can't be a lurker on tumblr." Yes, you absolutely can. I've been quietly reblogging things since 2014 and I haven't interacted with anyone in years.
This is how I feel 100% of the time
Also, I found out today that Scream Street got a second season in 2020?!?!? That show changed my life’s trajectory. no joke. So rip my exams that start tomorrow! This is all I’m going to be thinking about for the next month T-T
"Hey so would you mind telling me about Puppet Hist-"
Me, leaning against the wall with a flirty smirk on my face: "hey good looking, what's cooking?"
The steel factory:
My friend: Yeah my parents would kill me if I ever got a tattoo.
Me: Girl, my parents would be concerned if I didn’t.
One time I was sitting under a tree drawing when a huge ball of squirrel shit fell into my notebook. True story.
I really hope that zoomer becomes the generally accepted term for gen-z because the idea that the name for gen-z originated from a meme would be very fitting.
I’ve been going through a bit of a dark time lately.
I doubt anyone on here really cares, and it’s probably gonna sound like a first world problem, but I need to vent about it. I’ve struggled with a lot in my life. Abuse, assault, depression, anxiety, eating disorders, financial hardship, bullying, etc. Things are just finally starting to be okay at least as far as what’s going on in my life. The depression and anxiety and stuff are still there but that’s to be expected. Here’s my problem, I’m scared that I won’t be able to live my dream. Like I said, I know it sounds like a first world problem, but hear me out. My dream is to make music. I don’t care whether or not I’m a celebrity, in fact, I’d prefer not to be. But I do want to help people. I want to give people a reason to live with my music just like other people gave me a reason to live with theirs. For a long time I didn’t think I was good enough to make music. However, I recently got a whole lot of positive feedback. I shared my music with some people at the hospital I was in a few weeks back and they freaked out. They were so supportive of me and really wanted me to pursue music. They really thought I had a shot. They thought I was amazing. It was incredible to have all those people supporting me and it really made me realize that I can do this. The problem is that I don’t have the means. I don’t have the kind of money to get recording equipment that’ll record my voice the way that it sounds in person instead of cutting out all of the power in my voice and making it sound average. I don’t have a soft voice. I don’t have a voice that can be accurately represented with an iPhone mic. Those mics try to cut out echo and background noise which is really detrimental to someone who has a voice like mine. I know it sounds really stupid but it’s really been a struggle for me. I’m terrified of becoming average. Don’t get me wrong, we need people to work in offices and be nurses and construction workers and teachers and everything else in between. But that’s not for me. It’s not who I am. I don’t think I could ever be that person. I think I’d probably kill myself if I was forced to. Anyway, if you’ve made it this far, thanks for reading my rant. I really appreciate you caring enough to do so. Thank you.
Why do so many lyft/Uber drivers ask, “so where we heading today?” Like, you know where we’re heading. It literally tells you. Why are you forcing human interaction?
I just realized that I’m going to be spending over nine years of my life bleeding. And people say women aren’t strong. I’m sorry but if that isn’t the most badass thing you’ve ever heard idk what the hell is.
older sibling privilege is finding this bit of the special hilarious while your younger sibling watches it without cracking a smile once
Oh my fucking God yes. People don’t understand chronic pain and it sucks.
chronic pain
note: this is ok to reblog, even if you don’t experience chronic pain!
Am I the only one who’s considered getting off my meds in case of the zombie apocalypse?
Happy Friday the 13th!
There’s gonna be a full harvest moon tonight too! The moon is gonna be red! THIS WON’T HAPPEN AGAIN UNTIL AUGUST OF 2049! AHHHHHHH!
hey!!! stop being such a bully to yourself
Get to Know Me
Are you a morning or night person?
Morning person
Are you afraid of the dark?
Only outside
Are you an extrovert or introvert?
Introvert
Are you double jointed?
Nope
Are you left or right handed?
Right
Are you more of a tidy person or a messy one?
Messy
Are you usually on time or late?
On time
Are you ticklish?
Yes
Can you roll your tongue?
Yep
Can you ice skate?
I dunno. They closed the ice skating rink years ago and I haven’t skated since I was a kid.
Can you wiggle your ears?
Nope
Coffee or tea?
Neither
Cookies, cake, or doughnuts?
Cookies. Chocolate chip specifically.
Have you ever participated in a talent show?
Yes
Have you ever gone to prom?
Yup
Did you/do you like school?
Hell no
Do you believe in ghosts?
I don’t know
Do you bite your nails?
Yes
Do you consider yourself a good cook?
I mean, I don’t cook much but I’m definitely not a bad cook.
Do you enjoy dancing?
Yes
Do you enjoy DIY or crafts?
Yep
Do you forgive easily?
Yes. Probably too easily.
Do you have a nickname?
Nope
Do you have any allergies?
Nope
Do you have any phobias?
I’m extremely afraid of the supernatural which is odd because I think it’s cool
Do you have any piercings or tattoos?
Just my ears so far
Do you want children?
Yep
Do you have pets?
Yep. A cat named Gallifrey.
Do you have any siblings?
Yes. Two younger brothers.
Do you prefer dogs or cats?
Cats
Do you prefer Mac or PC?
Mac
Do you prefer the beach or the mountains?
The beach
Do you prefer baths or showers?
That’s difficult. Probably baths but only for relaxation purposes.
Do you sing in the shower?
Surprisingly not really
Do you smoke?
Nope
Do you speak more than one language?
Nope. I wish.
Do you still have your wisdom teeth?
I’m a lucky duck who was born without them because I’m a genetic beast.
Do you still watch cartoons?
Yup
Do you/have you played any sports?
Used to play soccer and I did gymnastics for a while but I have since lost all athletic ability.
Does your name have a special meaning?
Sort of. I was named after my mom’s best friend.
Have you ever been hospitalized?
Yes. On numerous occasions. More times than I can count.
Have you ever been on a diet?
Yep
Have you ever been to a concert?
Yep. Three. Unless you count the thing my parents took me to as a kid that had a live Christian band performance. Then it would be four.
Have you ever gone camping?
Yup
Have you ever met any celebrities?
Yep. Amanda Palmer.
Have you ever skipped class?
Nope.
Have you ever won a prize?
Yep.
Have you ever had braces?
No. I need them but there’s no way I’m getting them at this age.
Have you ever broken a bone?
Nope. I did bruise my tailbone walking down steps in stilettos though.
How tall are you?
5’9” Yeah I know. Pretty tall for a girl.
If money were no object what would you buy?
A recording studio and all necessary equipment
If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
Probably Sweden man. Sweden is a pretty cool place.
Were you ever a Girl or Boy Scout?
Nope.
What country do you live in?
The good ol’ U.S of A
Did you move a lot as a kid?
Nope. Just twice.
What did you want to be when you were younger?
Man I wanted to be a lot of things. For a while I wanted to be the tooth fairy. I also apparently didn’t eat chicken nuggets for three months because I thought being a vegetarian was a career. True story.
What do you do on a typical Friday night?
Lounge around at home
What is one food that you refuse to eat?
I hate any sort of sea food
What is one thing on your bucket list?
Finally go to a Disney theme park
What is one item you can’t live without?
A guitar
What is your shoe size?
Size 8
What’s one movie you’ve watched repeatedly?
Captain Marvel
Do you have an iPhone or Android?
iPhone
Are you a procrastinator?
Yep
What’s one of your pet peeves?
People not closing doors when they leave
What’s one of your favorite songs?
Face Down by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
What’s the most expensive thing you own?
My electric guitar. It’s a Danelectro Danoblaster Innuendo. They don’t make them anymore and it’s between 300 and 400 buckaroos. Plus it belonged to John Scalzi. He’s a sci-fi writer who’s currently working on a movie with Tom Hanks. So I imagine it will go up in value.
What’s one thing you can’t leave the house without?
My phone duh
What’s your best physical feature?
I really like my hair
What’s your Chinese zodiac?
Goat
Who’s one of your celebrity crushes?
Tom Holland
What’s your dream car?
I dunno. I’m not really a car person. I’d kinda like an old Volvo Station wagon but with new parts and stuff so it drives well.
What’s your favorite animal?
Dolphins
What’s one of your favorite books?
Gone by Michael Grant
What’s your favorite color?
Red
What’s your favorite dessert?
My mom’s homemade brownies
What’s your favorite drink?
I’m a huge fan of virgin margaritas.
What’s your favorite foreign food?
Churros
What’s your favorite modern technology?
My phone. Specifically the ability to listen to any music, anywhere, anytime.
What’s your favorite hobby?
Making music
What’s one of your favorite movies?
Titanic
What’s your favorite chain restaurant?
Papa Johns
What’s your favorite sandwich?
Just your basic PB&J
What’s your favorite season?
Fall. Spring is pretty but I don’t do heat well.
What’s your favorite book series?
Harry Potter
What’s your favorite TV series?
Doctor Who
What’s your favorite snack?
Popcorn
What’s your favorite sport to watch?
Does Olympic figure skating count?
What’s your favorite breakfast food?
French toast
What’s one of your favorite bands?
Joy Division. I like so many bands though. It’s quite hard to pick one.
What’s your longest relationship so far?
Ten months. But part of that was kinda on again off again.
What’s your lucky number?
Don’t have one
What’s your star sign?
Aries
What’s your sexual orientation?
Pansexual
What color are your eyes?
Brown
What’s your favorite music genre?
Rock. Specifically experimental rock.
What’s your favorite holiday?
Christmas
Have you ever dyed your hair?
Yep. I’ve had it blue, mint green, and blonde. I’ve also had it with purple tips and pink tips.
Who’s your favorite fictional character?
That’s really rough. Probably Hermione Granger.
My dad: Mike Birbiglia has a new comedy special. Wanna watch it?
Me: Yeah sure!
My dad: Wait I feel like we’ve already seen this one. Who’s the other one who’s a man-child?
Me: John Mulaney?
My dad: Yeah, him.
I stopped taking my birth control and my cramps are killing me. I forgot about cramps being so bad.
I had three shots today and my arms hurt like hell.
P.S. Vaccinate your kids motherfuckers!
PSA:
If you’ve never met someone with OCD before it can be confusing when you first hangout with them. It can be really rough for the person with OCD to have people questioning them about why they’re doing something or why they’re asking you to do something you think is weird. It’s okay to ask questions about the disorder and their compulsions or whatever, but it’s not okay to question the disorder itself, and it’s definitely not okay to ask the person if they’re joking.
A lot of people see OCD as a disorder revolving around organization, color coordination, etc. This can be part of it for some people, but for many people that is not the case. And for people who do obsess over those things, it’s not quirky. It’s not being a clean freak. It’s a disorder that takes time out of their life and is constantly nagging at them.
For most people, however, that isn’t part of it. I’m one of the messiest people you will ever meet and in no way fit the stereotype. That doesn’t make my disorder any less torturous or valid. So please, be understanding of the disorder and respectful of how difficult it can be for those struggling with it.
So when I turn the ac dial in your car back and forth eight times, be patient with me. When I turn to look at something and then have to do a full 360 a couple times, be patient with me. If I ask you to please stir your straw six times counterclockwise, be patient with me.
It may be difficult to understand, but please try your best to be accommodating. It may be a bit rough for you; it may get in the way sometimes. If you ever get aggravated at our compulsions, please try to remember how hard it is for us. We hate it too.
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