Life Update - Blog Posts

Must specify that yes, I’m still alive, I’ve been having a ton of health issues. My doctor thinks I have sleep apnea, so my hope is to get that sorted out, get my “new” laptop set up, then go back to my sporadic posting, as per usual.

So yes, I’m alive!! But I have eepy boy disease

Just fyi I got my appendix removed Sunday so I haven't been on my PC too much (I usually lay on my stomach, so it's a no-go for now), not sure when I'll be active on my blogs and stuff but yeah

Life Update - Dear Player

I totally forgot to tell you my latest storys.

Currently I have a hideout on a farm. As long as I help I can stay as long as I want to. Yesterday Milo, the young son of the farmer, told me to follow him into the barn for a surprise: Deep within the hay their cat gave birth to 4 little Kittens. I can tell by their looks that they’re already about 3 weeks old.

Good to know, because we started to worry where the cat was. Luckily she just became a mother and wanted to surprise us with a great comeback, I think.

I’m not sure if I can snap a picture. I don’t even know if you want to see it. Alternatively I have some pics of Nelly, the farmer’s dog. She’s a sweatheart.

- ST200, with cat hair everywhere

Hello, I am not dead.

I switched (temporarily) from being a student full-time to working full time (56+ hrs/week) and I gotta say I really enjoy my jobs.

H!

I'm back from the dead!

And I have things to talk about 🤭

Last month into this month has been fucking wild for me!

I was connected to a girl my age through my therapist, her name is Sam. We've really hit it off and I now consider her a friend.

Then... for some reason I felt confident enough to make a dating profile.... and

AGAINST ALL ODDS I MET SOMEONE.

Like I live in a town over an hour away from any cities.. but he only lives a half hour out of town... so not a super long drive.

Anyway, we've seen eachother in person twice but I fell so deeply in love with the guy.. and I can tell he feels the same about me... the way he looks at me.... How he talks... He is also a total romantic.. much like myself, so it's been going really good! I'm hoping we'll get to see eachother again next week.

But I never thought I'd ever get into a romantic relationship... if I'm being honest

Don't read on if you're easily triggered by mental health issues and/or sexual themes.

I never intended to be around this long... I was literally planning on ending it all shortly after my 18th birthday... But for some reason... I kept going.. and I'm super happy that I did, otherwise, I wouldn't have ever met my friend and boyfriend.

Seriously...

Things are finally going right for me after so many goddamned years of being alone, isolated unable to find any real connection and incredibly miserable because of it...

I have finally realized I am not unlikeable, I'm not worthless and I can find friends. And for the rest of 2022 and into 2023, I will work as hard as I can to not let my anxiety control me anymore

My next big leap comes in November. I will be looking for my first job!

And here comes the part where I gush about my boyfriend

I now have this dream now where I'm settling down with my boyfriend.... we move into a little apartment in one of the cities nearby (in fact that dream could very well come true... because we both want to go to the same city for college) and we settle into a peaceful domestic life together.... hopefully with cats!

Ok... but like honestly this guy is literally the one I've been dreaming of. He's very attractive and emotionally available, and he doesn't judge me for who I am! I neglected to mention here, but I have discovered that I am agender and my pronouns are they/them... I live in probably one of the most conservative provinces in Canada and to make it worse, I'm in a small town with like 4 churches of the same exact brand of extremely homophobic and transphobic Christianity... I fully expected him to lose interest in me. But no, It hasn't affected how he thinks of me. and he is very careful to respect my pronouns...

He's also very funny (which I really love in people... I can't be around someone who is super serious all the time) I mean... when I last saw him on Monday, we were at my place, playing around (in an adult sort of way) and he discovered my toys

One of them had a suction cup at the base, so he goes and sticks it on the wall a few times... then he sticks it on his forehead looks at me and says "I'm dildo man" we laugh about it together.... and he goes to pull it off his face only to discover it has suctioned pretty hard to his face, so I help him by wedging my finger under the suction cup and lifting it off...

and HE HAS A BIG ASS BRUISE RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF HIS FOREHEAD... We're still laughing our asses off... me almost pissing myself with laughter as we frantically search for way to get rid of bruises and hickeys online... we try the fork method, icing it... everything we can do, nothing works.. so we decide to just take a bath to clean up before my parents get home from a trip they were on (at this point my parents don't know we've had sex... and I wasn't exactly ready to tell them) While we're in the bath, my parents get home and my dad calls out to me... I fucking panic and we get out and dress at breakneck speed.

My parents brought home some takeout and my boyfriend stayed for dinner... he met my mom for the first time... but damn... coming downstairs after that was... super awkward... but thankfully my parents aren't the type to be bothered by that kind of thing, all they needed to know was that we used protection (which we did ofc)

It's funny though, he really gets along well with my dad.. Maybe it's their sense of humour. Or maybe the fact they are both quite talkative..

But damn.....

This guy is special.. and I hope we last for years, decades... life even...

And done.. Sorry about all that.. just had to write this all down somewhere.. It's really hard to contain my happiness right now.

Life Update

Hey, everyone! I want to apologize for the lack of writing and interactions. In short, life has kicked my ass since October. Between falling out with one of my best friends over the dumbest thing, deciding to go No Contact with half my family after a revelation during Thanksgiving dinner, spraining my knee, and dealing with Strep A... to say I've been running on low steam is an understatement. I'm just now sending out my end-of-the-year cards cause if I wasn't sick, I was too tired to finish them and drop them off at the post office. But I refuse to be embarrassed by it.

But I'm happy to say that I'll be posting two Mandalorian fics soon. I'll be posting a sneak peek of both tonight to get my ass motivated to polish the fics and actually post them on here and AO3. Thanks for sticking around, everyone! I'm getting my shit together.

Also special shout-out to @yourcoolauntie for the messages I still need to respond to and for including me in your posts. I can't begin to express how much I appreciate you.

Life Update + Fics

Hello, everyone! I am not dead! I am so sorry for the lack of responses in my inbox and fics, but I haven't had the energy to do a whole lot outside of work. August was not kind to me and I'm just starting to come out of recovery, but I want everyone to know that I will be participating in Kinktober along with dropping a fic by the weekend so please stay tuned! And thank you to those who have reblogged and commented on my posts and followed me!! I'll catch up in a few days, thank you for being patient with me!!

Long story short, in August:

I had a LOT of travel drama

my Airbnb hosts turned into absolute psychopaths trying to get me to pay for a lamp I didn't break on top of damaging their

kitchen when I didn't and it took 2 weeks to resolve this going back and forth with them to where I had to get Airbnb involved and had them blocked on there and I had to block their numbers as well from texting and calling me

my diseases started to flare up again to where I had to up my medication and I'm afraid they still aren't helping as much as I needed them to

all specialists in my area are booked at least 4 months out so I have to consider either finding help hours away or moving (which I want to do but I'm still saving up before I make that commitment)

my best friend who I have known since high school decided to end our friendship in a really traumatic way all because I put my foot down regarding one of my boundaries and she took that personally. Traumatic as in not only she blocked me on all platforms including Pinterest and Venmo, but she also got her husband, parents, sister, and a mutual friend to all block me instead of talking to me and ending our friendship on a note that we were both worthy of rather than whatever the fuck this was. Reminder: we're in our 30s. So this completely blindsided me on the last day of August while I was at work on break.

I feel like I'm missing something but that's the gist. I'm being vague but if anyone wants more details, just DM me and I can tell you what happened in more depth for clarity or I might just make a post about it later depending on how I'm feeling but yeah it's been a lot. I'll respond to everyone in the next few days, thank you again for your patience. I love you all!! Be safe!! Look forward to some beautiful and horny fics coming your way!!

4.28-5.3

This week has been great honestly. I started back on my cut and focusing more on my weightlifting and cardio (peep the cute gym fit). I’ve been fairly productive study wise, just didn’t take pictures.

My boyfriend came up to visit me this weekend and we went hiking on Saturday and went to the gym. Side note: Emily Henry is probably my favorite romcom author and I’m getting a little sad that I’ve read all her books already lol.

~life update~

the past few days i've been really rough. i went out to dinner to celebrate one of my bestie's 21'st bday which was really fun. the beef short rib was super good. however, i started feeling really bad when I got home and i went to the dr the next morning. i tested negative for covid, flu, and strep so really no idea what's going on there but i got some lovely antibiotics so that's helping a bit. they did a throat culture to test for epstein-barr virus (mono) so answers soon?

i'm supposed to be taking the network+ certification tomorrow so we'll see if that happens but probably not. I can't even sit up straight bc of a killer headache. going to try and knock out some studying today for the holiday and tomorrow.

March Update: I’ve been super busy with staying on top of things at school, so I haven’t really been able to work on art stuff. I’ve been planning out some stuff for my comic, Aspen’s Sanctuary, so I should be posting stuff about that soon. Here’s some DnD designs I’ve had laying around.

October Update

School's been keeping me busy lately, as well as dissociation making it hard to focus. I haven't been able to keep up with Inktober, although I did make an Instagram since I finally have a smart phone. Just search Tetrin Trancy or tetrintrancy if you want to find it. You'll actually see my face for once. I'm using Insta for personal and Tumblr for art. I hope to catch up on drawing this weekend.

Winter Break Update

Hello! It has been two weeks and a lot has happened. I started going to therapy and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Christmas happened, I got Pokemon Moon and Professor Layton and the Azran Legacy. I haven’t been able to post because I only have access to Tumblr when I have access to a school computer. I’ll be posting new art soon. Probably something Homestuck or Steven Universe related.