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healthy lifestyle!

I haven't eaten anything today..and now I'm drinking my third coffee...i feel shitty aaaa

bruh it hurts

I tried to stop bl33ding for about 10 minutes...i hate this...Its like i can't control my body! Its getting too much...

Its getting bad

idk anymore i feel so shitty and empty..like a ghost...i just want to sleep and never wake up

GURLLL

cut both my thumbs within 10 minutes.

first one got betrayed by paper..second one got betrayed by trying to open a plastic box....

im so fuckin useless

Its not even funny anymore,i have no future, everybody fuckin hates me...why am i even here? im so fuckin ugly and disgusting i only make problems...all i do is rot in my bed and think about ki11ing myself...

Im so fuckin pathetic

i just relapsed....fuck i was clean so long but i can't...

I am losing myself

i feel like im not myself anymore..who tf am i? im so damn detached from reality...

WHERE I KEEP MY ANTIDEPRESSANTS

need to stay cute! (⁠づ⁠｡⁠◕⁠‿⁠‿⁠◕⁠｡⁠)⁠づ

IM PALE ASF OMG

my arm vs my sister arm😭😭help

im chronically online i dont need sun

i feel like Edward in that one scene

this is the skin of a Killer Bella...

my arm is going to fall off bahaha

I'm going home from the doctor's....They gave me an injection and my shoulder was bleeding like im getting my arm chopped off like GURL 💀😭

AAAAAAAAAAA

why are people looking mean at me...

(I look like I jumped out of a horror movie and im carrying my plushie with fake blood on it)

haha nah i enjoy the stares like yeah look my makeup took me almost two hours!

i dont know who i am

i dont feel like i have my own personality and identity..i feel empy,Always acting the way others want me to..who tf i am?

RAAAAAAAAAAAH OMGGGG

My mom bought me a book by Junji Ito for my birthday!!!!!! lovesickness!! literally my fav work from him aaaaaa

ANOTHER FIT (MAYBE I ALREADY POSTED IT? IDK)

the skirt and shirt is thrifted! amazing finds aaa

🕊️❤️ LOVE U REITA

i can't believe hes not here anymore...He was a legend and an amazing person...miss him everyday❤️❤️🕊️

....

i dont feel real at all

oh

my online friend just ki11ed himself?...He texted me...i Hope hes okay oh my god...Is it because of me? did i do something Wrong? i fucking can't

I NEED TO SHOW MY SIGMA CUTE SIDE 😈😈

NEW HAIR!!!!

i just shaved my hair...NOT LIKE BALD

just my sides! uhhh i think its called undercuts? it looks badass asf damnnn!

(my parents will kill me when they see)

God save me

i have a therapy in a hour..with the psychiatrist I hate (i have 3💀)

shes Always just yelling and being mean like stfu please or i will throw u out of the window

IM FUCKED ASF

I'm going to the doctor for a checkup and I'm acared she'll ask me to take my pants off...i have scars all over my legs im so fucking scared 😭😭😭

I HATE MY DAD SO MUCH FUCK

can he stop talking about how i will do nothing in life? how im useless? that i can't do anything? FUCK HIM

He acts like a fuckin bitch only yelling at us acting like hes some fucking king NO HES JUST A FUCKIN PUSSY NOT A FATHER

OMG IM SO HAPPY

the psychiatrist was so nice...She was talking to me like we are besties or something 😭

i have 3 psychiatrists rn 💀💀it sounds so weird but i need to because of the police or something so i have alot of help and they can see my parents are trying to help? idk...

(my mom told her im emo...and the psychiatrist asked if im self harm1ng because because alot of emo people do that💀)

OMW TO THERAPYYYYY

Wish me luck...I hope the new psychiatrist will be nice! :33 im dressed all cute ofc! (even tho the eye makeup wont survive..)

I NEED HELP PLEASE

does anyone know any male character from a game,series or something..that has an chaotic, energetic and childish-like voice?

im trying to find a voice claim for my oc the whole day but i just can't find anything!

I'm going to a new psychiatrist...

im so scared it will end up like always....them yelling at me that its my fault

BRO RAAAH

why tf do i keep hurting myself even when im okay and happy?! like im fine today but i still did it...i dont have control over my damn body

🤡🤡

i need to start taking my medications again eh i stopped,thinking i dont need it but i feel like shit,but when i take them i feel so damn empy and emotionless..

BRRUUUH

HAHA NOT ME CVTTING MYSELF AFTER POSTING HOW WONT DO IT💀

BLA BLA BLA BLE BLE BLE BLU BLU BLU

i was about to hurt myself...but then i was like fuck it! and did my cute jirai makeup and covered myself in fake blood and took cute pictures :33 (send help the fake blood wont come off?)