Im In Pain - Blog Posts
if anyone's fvcking him right now... i wish them a very good i hate you 😔
Are you afraid I'll forget about you?
I am. I'm terrified, actually.
I read over 450 pages of slides for just one of my midterms today and I still haven't finished the slides for that class...
NOOOOO😭😭😭
how ironic that the day i wanted to post the next chapter for TAOF was the day and time ao3 was going to be down for 10 hours 😭😭😭
Living is easy with eyes closed
Misunderstanding all you see
something about joel being terrified now that ellie is someone he loves and bill saying he wasn't scared before frank came. something about love being both a driving force and a paralytic. something about having characters like bill and frank and henry and sam come around to show different kinds of love but still paralleling their stories to joel and ellie.
CHIEF, FUNNY APRILS FOOLS PRANK-
SAY SIKE RN- SAY SIKE RN-
theres an itch i cant scratch with these two
I wanna kiss my gf so bad
BUT WE'RE LONG DISTANCE AHHHHH FUCK WHY I CAN'T I FUCKING KISS THE PERSON I LOVE FUCK YOU GEOGRAPHY AND FUCK YOU MY OLD SHITTY SCHOOL DISTRICT YOU CAUSED THIS
AHHHHHHH
Starting to re-read TCF and I noticed how every time Cale earns an ancient power, he starts calling them out like “how annoying/I wouldn’t do that”, and etc. HOWEVER, he never says anything about the Super rock because they are the same!!!! (At least until this part below 😂😭)
Me thinking about how Kim Roksoo couldn’t keep any friends throughout his school year because of the curse from the GoD. Always leaving him no matter how hard he tried to keep them.
Also thinking about how Lee Soohyuk and Choi Jungsoo also probably introduced him to basic things friends do for each other.
KRS staying in the office finishing up paper work - or whatever he did in the office while under LSH - instead of going to lunch with his teammates. CHS waiting for him to finish up even if it take him 30mins before he’s ready. Then going to lunch with him late.
Or showing up to a company dinner with all the seats full at the restaurant. Him thinking about turning around and going home only to find out LSH especially made sure a seat was saved for him even if that caused conflict elsewhere.
I can imagine him feeling all ‘warm and fuzzy’ inside. Being confused with why they were doing these things for him. (Despite ‘those things’ being basic things all people would do with their friends)
The GoD’s curse is so unimaginably cruel even diluted. It also puts into perspective how tough it must have been for KRS after LSH and CJS died. Thinking about the Soo dynamic from when they were together on EARTH 1 always makes me sad.
I think they accidentally made OPLA Sanji hot.. I mean he’s already hot, but we’re supposed to see that through his cringe.. why is he smooth with it😭🙏
the netflix adaptation sanji is so giving leon kennedy
Just watched Train to Busan and I’m still sobbing.
I got too fucking attached to this fucking character and now the fucking Manga gods decided to fuck with him and his life is in fucking shambles and breaking into tiny fucking pieces right before his and my fucking eyes and half the Fandom fucking hates him and it frustrates me to no fucking end and I need a fanfic to heal him right fucking now without being ship centered with the person who fucking destroyed him or y/n because he needs to fucking heal on his fucking own and I will not fucking accept that "Yeah his entire life fell apart but he's in love so it's ok" bullshit.
I'm also in love with his dad who has not shown in the Manga and is a horrible person because a fanfic made him hot and gave him redemption.
Fuck
Fuck-ety fuck fuck
my mouth is torn
idk how. but my entire mouth is like ripped and swollen.
my tongue hurts, my gums hurt, my cheeks hurt, my throat hurts, myMOUTH HURTS
IM FUCKING SOBBING IT HURTS SO MUCH!!?!!!????!?!?!!????
i too would leave important life decisions up to a magic 8-ball
I’m cooking I’m cooking with gas
Idk man, I was sleep deprived 💀 maybe that’s why I’m sick now…ily
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*Insert cool ass title here*
Random Kavehtham hc’s because I love and miss my husband. May have some small typos since I’m a little lathergic and slightly…off the rails and someone thought removing autocorrect was a brilliant idea
Kaveh pulls all nighters and sleeps all day
Alhaitham os aware and doesn’t say much on it. Probably uses it as an opportunity to have a “lazy day” with his bf
Won’t admit it openly, but Alhaitham looooooves to cuddle. Will just snuggle up all cutely ajjdndns (us when please, I miss you Alhaitham :()
Kaveh definitely says “I miss you” to Alhaitham, even if they are in the same room. Usually a sign that he’s feeling clingly
(this is all for now, I’m sleepy, its almakt 2am I fant tupe corrextly anymkre. Merry Rizzmas my friends!)
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the interviewers looking at each other after I just uttered my 500th uh
anyone else shit their guts out when they get nervous or am i insane
Another Kirby OC yay :D
So... I've been thinking of her for a while, and I actually never drew here until now :D
She's kind of a... uh ... floralian maybe? Idk, all that I'll say is that she's very important in Shivers' lore (another of my Kirby OCs).
You guys have any name ideas? I would LOVE to know cuz I'm not good at this 😭
(also doing reference sheets for both of them :D)
Please someone give me the link to all the extra aftg content (I’m desperate for the crumbs)
i’m finally finally reading the aftg extra content and
omg?? ive seen some people post about this before but reading it on my own is just another feeling like he was freaking out after neil got kidnapped and it hurts to read but also omg
Please tell me why I bought it would be a good idea to read The Song of Achilles and then proceeded to give it a nice little follow up with They Both Die at the End. All I know is pain
I just finished reading tsoa again-
“i was mesnt to share this countrybwith you guys and george” country with a pokycule andnguy thasbtjust there
Excellent plan as always Gabriel! 😀
What if I threw up rn
i cannot stop thinking about this lore drop atm:
so many messy thoughts about this argh.
firstly, there's so much repression in that statement. the way it's stated so factually, no feelings. he's completely dissociated himself from the trauma of it; he is aware that it happened, but it happened to a child who's no longer him.
medicine to fill the hole of family dysfunction -> using work as a fucked-up found family. the visual of bookshelves of medicine cradling him softly to sleep rather than his own mother (thoughts on wire vs cloth mother, and nature vs nurture).
chase going into the study of healing to distract himself from the pain of neglect, and because he never knew how to heal himself.
spending his formative years in a prison of books, of knowledge and facts. until one day he decided to make a home in it.
living in the permanent reminder that his father is never home, as he's locked in his father's cold and empty study. a permanent reminder of his neglect, that he is always alone.
"[life] is a series of rooms, and who we get stuck with in those rooms with adds up to what are lives are" (s3e12 one day, one room).... chase spent his childhood in that study, alone. in adulthood he's always ended up alone - abandoned by his parents, house, cameron - with his work the one constant.
it's like he's still trapped in his father's study to that day. it's like he never got over it.
I hate you.
#The holy trinity of queer agony
