Feeling Sad - Blog Posts
beware, this is a vent-ish
do you ever feel so much anxiety & empty yearning for something, but you cannot grasp the concept of what it is so you just end up crying hysterically. I swear I’m going crazy.
(not in a cringe way)
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Me: Maybe I'm not as oppressed as I think I am. Maybe I am validated even offline. After all I do live in one of the top 10 safest countries.
Boy in my music tech class: BEING GAY IS WRONG AND HITLER WAS RIGHT FOR PUTTING HOMOS IN THE HOLOCAUST
Me: There it is.
The tears trickle down my cheek
And slither down my neck,
Pooling in the crevice of my collarbone
Until they begin the overflow.
~ceramic-feelings
Dogs are raised to love, not to be loved. Sometimes I wonder if that's how children are raised too. Raised to ask for a hug from that hand that struck them, raised to think it's their own fault when daddy doesn't come back. Children are just dogs, and some children stay dogs until they are put down.
Feeling pretty sad today, grief is a very hard thing to cope with.
Dark Matter
I am in the parking lot Breathing hard My breath traced by floodlight
The night is hooded I have lost the stars I have lost my car keys
I sit on the tar Lost in space
-Skye
Parking Lot, 2018
Suing my parents.
I'm suing my parents for giving birth to me without my consent.
i actually love how real this feels? i was never allowed to watch cartoons as a kid but i think i wouldve loved this *realness* and genuine voice as a child yknow? the unintentional stutter not being cut out, the breathing, the 'hm?'- things that you don't have in these modern day kids shows. it kinda makes me sad watching it now.
Obviously this is an adorable bit but I'm so struck by how different this is from so many little kid shows today like.......the muted colors. no background noise. no sound effects. you can literally hear Jim Henson breathing between his lines. Ernie is talking very slowly, meandering, letting the kids digest the info. it's a full minute before you get the payoff of it all. man