Alterhumans - Blog Posts

Hi Tumblr. My girlfriend keeps leaning over me and whispering

"Sug (her nickname for me) à la mode"

Before gently biting my arm. Should I be worried?

Hghh I should go check on my FH settlements

roaming around the Commonwealth Far Harbor 48/?

"Daddy issues? Well, duh, how would I be the coyote cowboy I am today if I had a stable relationship with my father?"

I say as my therapist slowly nods her head and scribbles something down on her clipboard.

Questioning being fictionkin??? I have been for a little over a year now. However, I feel like despite how much I've looked into it and thought about it, I still don't know???

I can't tell if it's an actual part of my identity or if it's just because I worked on adapting this character for such a long time that he's just basically become me. I've used him as a way to work through things for so long, whether having conversations with him just to voice issues out loud, writing my own trauma through him, or just pretending to be him for comfort. Granted at times with the last scenario it's been a more unpleasant feeling, but sometimes just having the idea of his presence beside me is reassuring. He's like a friend I can always rely on, and if he needed a place to stay, I'd offer my own without a moment of hesitation.

I don't know if I'd consider myself to be him, but it feels like more than just a favorite character. He isn't quite me, but he isn't quite not me. Does any of this make sense? I am genuinely looking for advice if anyone has any.

Hey, I get most of my wolf shifts in the winter. I also have a playlist I only listen to in the winter that helps me feel more wolfish. Here ya go.

In case anyone is interested, I made a side blog for my Minecraft hearthome so I can just bark about it over there.

@dandelions-crossing

Feel free to follow! I'll hopefully be able to post more on it soon.

Hanging out with my girlfriend annnnnd my pack for therianthropy day? Don't mind if I do >:3

(I'm going to make them go howl at the moon with me)

New tail :3

My girlfriend got it and the bells for me. I love it.

Thinking about the lore of angels in Para Sanar. What do you mean a God can ascend someone they feel is close to them and make it to where they are to spend the rest of eternity working for and worshiping this deity? Like, even after the angel dies. They're always reborn and remember their job after either meeting their god again or meeting another angel.

It's very sweet when you look at it through the family lens. Angels are some of the closest things the Gods have to family. This one person is destined to stay by your side, forever, no matter what. You're literally bound together as the God gives a part of themself away.

But then there's also the sad way of looking at it. Sometimes angels don't realize what they are being given or that they even have been made an angel. It's a huge rule for Gods that they have to make sure 100% that the person they're ascending understands and wants to become an angel. Otherwise, you've just trapped someone in an endless cycle of following after you until either the world ends or the God dies. Even then, if a God dies, it's like a part of the angel did, too. Being away from their God prompts intense waves of grief and longing. It never ends. That has to be exhausting.

Anyways. I love me and my friends funky minecraft lore, have a nice day.

One thing I don't like about it getting colder is that the back of my neck prickles like my fur wants to escape, but it can't. It itches >:

I just want my winter coat damn it

I don't think you understand

THIS!? *pointing at my partners beautiful face* This is perfect. THIS is what I think about as I lay down to sleep. This is... A masterpiece. Some may even say the greatest creature ever made. Some is me. I'm saying that.

I love you, and I'm going to explode

Hell yeah im T4T 😎💪 (therian 4 therian)

mb chat they were annoying.

Alr which one of y'all was it?

Fellow creatures—I feel some of you will appreciate this.

My uncle and aunt took me to a nearby forest for a hike. It was very very nice, and I had a great time. I saw a lot of fun things along the way. Also they told me about how I have a great uncle who was like a gay stoner pastor when he was alive and I think that’s wicked.

Life is good. Life is really, really good. I love my boyfriend, I love my friends, I love my family. Just been feeling good about the ppl around me lately.

I know i have said it before but I GOTTA SAY IT AGAIN 💀🙏

(Again, this is meant in a more lighthearted/humor way, if something actually bothered me THAT much i would try to give it no attention so-)

But those folks that say stuff like "Trust me you don't."

"You would NOT want that"

When ANYONE says just ANYTHING about wanting to be an animal or creature or live in a fantasy world go on my nerves 😭

I just saw another video where someone talked about how they wished we had dragons, super powers, zombies, vampires etc. And like, hell yeah!?

Half if not all of the comments were "But we have Wifi!"

"But we have cars which is pretty cool"

"We have the universe!"

"You would NOT want zombies to be a thing"

I have so many questions like, What happened to joy and whimsy??

Why would you compare a dragon to a CAR?? Like i get where they're coming from like, yeah i mean it's cool humans came up with that! But it's definitely not a HTTYD situation lol

I even saw a comment saying some shit along the lines of "If you wanna be in a fight with a wild creature so badly, why don't you go to a zoo and fight a lion?"

SAME DAMN VIBES AS "If you identify as a wolf, why don't you go outside and live in the wild"

Maybe because that is impossible, not the same AT ALL, and also illegal af ⁉️ and just overall awful???

And who says it's not me who is the dragon or zombie??

"You would get killed immediately if an apocalypse happened"

Ok yeah? I wanna be a zombie on the outside anyway so? Yeah?? Please???

"You would not survive a dragon" Like i said, what if i AM the dragon lol

And like i said in the other post mentioning this, it's worse coming from other Alterhumans. Like, you're supposed to understand me, why are you saying stuff like this. Or when other Alterhumans deny your identity in the way of "Only i can be that!" The amount of times i saw someone be like "I'm a wolf, and trust me, you would not wanna be a wolf irl" I even saw some folks indicate that they would be or are stronger than you?

"I was a wolf in my past life and it was hard, you'd have to be strong and idk if you are" type ahh comments you know what i mean??

Oh like, i get it, only YOU are allowed to wish you could get your life back, because you are SO special compared to other Alterhumans 😀

It's always the same damn argument, "You'd die" "you would not want that it's awful" "what if you get hurt" "what if you suffer"

Which is funny because, what about this reality? Do people not suffer just because we don't have zombies and werwolves? So many folks including myself have or have had phsyical stuff that made or make it hard to live, why are these users acting like you only suffer physically when you live in a fantasy world 💀?

If anything, a fantasy world would be so much better?? Imagine a world like in HTTYD, ofc there would still be some kind of war, but in itself you're pretty much free from suffering, or if anything it would be EXACTLY like this reality but with dragons you're able to train?? Is that not better?

I'm sorry for the long post but i just can't wrap my head around it 😭

Flapping my wings right now. Ear wings and back wings.

Ooggh, wing shifts are wild.

I'm feeling very Swan like today.

I feel so nonhuman today, which, in general , is good. But this time, it's like actually distressing, and I'm not enjoying it. I think it may be species dysphoria, I hate this so much.

God, I do not want to be in this human body, I'm supposed to be a wolf, angel, and a god. Not human.

Why couldn't I have just been a cloud? Or a star in space. Just anything but human.

I was actually crying about it earlier, /srs I just feel so yuck right now.

I've been having near full non-human shifts. It gets to the point where I just don't believe I'm physically human until I see my reflection, and it's like I get hard-core whiplash each time.

🌟 Tribute to my conceptkins. 🌟

These are so fun to make

Feeling nefarious.

I feel like Ethereal Light, a person of the sun.

A connection to light.

Light spilling from behind clouds, that could be me.

I want to be like the Light.

I wish to be a son of the light.

Son of the sun.

Yes, I'm a Polytherian/Polykin :] I'm writing down current types! I will remove or add to the list if I awakened something.

I'm an Otherhearted

Awakened: 06/28/24

I experience phantom limbs of wings, tails, fangs, teeth, claws, and ears. Especially Phantom ears and wings.

Slight mental shifts and emotional shifts.

Confirmed Therian types:

Canines:

Dhole

Grey Wolf

Tan wolf

Bouvier des Ardennes

Yakutian Laikas

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Feline:

Bobtailed Cat

Norwegian Forest Cat (Black coat)

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Bears:

Kodiak

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(Doing research)

Unconfirmed/questioning types:

Batkin

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Otherkin:

Angel/Divine

God - light, stars, and comfort

Monster

Winged

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Conceptkin:

Light

Stars/Sun

Winter

Clouds

Music

Void

Liminal spaces

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Heartypes:

Dragon

Calico

Siberian Tiger

Bat eared fox

Great Eared Nightjar

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Fictionkin:

Sol (Sky kid, Sky: COTL)

Mae (Night In The Woods)

Selwyn Kane (Legendborn)

Shadow Milk Cookie (Crk: Cookie Run Kingdom)

It feels nice to make this list!