the weather is getting cold and the earth begins to smell wet yayay
Tomorrow I have to return to being a functional human in society, I hope I don't bite anyone in the process.
ALSO I'M GOING TO HAVE A FULL SHOWER YAYAAYYYAY I haven't washed my hair in like a week- (quite valid for a person who barely has a functioning brain in my opinion)
I want to paint my nails black again, change my piercings, get my jewelry and outfit ready for tomorrow.
After that I draw all night and sleep less than two hours because tomorrow I will probably have to be awake since 4:30 a.m. to have time for everything.
I feel quite personal to me how I have finally started to settle down and getting comfy with my blog, fun fact, when I was a child I tried to have a diary style blog but after a week I totally forgot it existed lol.
Anyways, xoxo to internet people.
I really love when people hang pretty dresses on their bedroom walls so I wanted to do that too ^^
we win tonight chat
"Don't over share your information on the internet, much less your identity! It can be dangerous!!!!"
But, but, but- my approval from anonymous, my approval from people I don't know 🥺🥺
Me when they start the sentence with "my" when they refer to me
I haven't slept a wink all night and the person I most hope to stay up with is already asleep. Time to make selfsihp art to ignore all my problems
In every interaction with someone I really like I can't help but express a possessive/stalker feeling
damn, I wish a was normal and not a fucking little creep craving for a meaningful relationship
I want to thrift a monitor and cute things
(↑ has no money to spend)
I would like to say yes, it's a joke as I took Yume as the name of my Oc, self insert, persona, whatever you want to call it because I chose randomly any Japanese word
But I would be lying very, very badly; the thing is, if you know Ace Attorney (YES MY F/O IS FROM ACE ATTORNEY) , you know that the characters' names are almost always puns. What inspired me for this non-pun and just the word itself??? Well, I've realized that people who have been very important to me are very likely to dream about me, like- absolutely all of them have dreamed about me more than once. The most interesting was that one of them dreamed about me without having met me, he simply dreamed that he called me by my name and that he was at my side. (Could it have been a coincidence? Yes, but it's definitely a funny one)
That's why I chose literally "dream", so yeah!!1!1! My description is right, you know me from a dream!!!
The real reason my ED didn't continue to be active is not because it magically healed.
If it were up to me, I'd probably be a bone by now, but mother always "worries" about me, so I simply had to suppress that way of wanting to destroy me.
And something similar is happening with the fact of sh.
I honestly think I feel like I'm sinking deeper if I don't have a way to get the pain out that my brain is making me feel.