Wait But Like... I Wanted It Homemade By Darrel Curtis Himself 💔 *dramatic Sigh*

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NO STEVE IM SORRY I FORGOT UR BIRTHDAY IM SO SORRY NO

sigh should I actually finish my silly drawing of Anya or js implode?

Is Tumblr interested in Italian Brainrot?

I need to discuss the Tung Tung Tung Tung Tung Tung Tung Tung Sahur and Ballerina Capputina ship

“what if kids identify with something and it ends up just being a phase-?” good. stop teaching and expecting kids (and adults honestly) to formulate permanent traits and ideas of themselves. everything in life is a phase. that doesn’t make it any less legitimate while you experience it. let people explore themselves and know it’s okay if what you think about yourself changes.

AWWW I LOVE LARRY WITH MY WHOLE HEART OML

Most interesting things tumblr has so far advertised to me:

anxiety reducing therapy fleshlight (I do not have a dick)

an app for reading the Torah (I am not jewish)

emotional support group for divorced men in a city I've never lived in (I'm not even married yet)

the alledged secrets of divination from cowrie shells in Sudanese culture (I have never been to Sudan, nor been particularly interested in divination)

Christian fashion streetwear (I am not a christian nor do I wear streetwear)

offers of online therapy for divorced men (where are they getting this??)

how to hire a dating coach (????)

mental health support for first responders (I am not a first responder, I dropped out of nursing school because I couldn't handle it)

a service to book your journey to Mecca (I am not muslim)

coaching for how to build your personal brand on OnlyFans (?!?!?!)

did you just cough on my open wound???

Early morning flight means early morning ramblings

I think Pony at one point or another definitely feels anxiety over Johnny’s last message to ‘stay gold’. Because he grows older and he’s still a greaser. And things happen to people like Mark and Bryon, and he wonders how he can stay gold with all this tragedy that seems to follow him.

And he goes to college, and maybe he drinks too much too fast. And as the world spins around him he wonders whether Johnny feels disappointed in him because how can being drunk be staying gold.

And of course Johnny wouldn’t think less of him, not with Two-Bit as one of his friends. But Johnny isn’t here and all Pony has left of him is the words he left behind. A promise to stay gold even though growing older makes him feel like the gold is slipping through his fingers. Dawn giving way to a day he’s not sure he can make it through.

“Pony was being dramatic!” “Darry only hit him once!” “You’re telling me Darry never hit him before?” “Johnny gets hit everyday at home and doesn’t complain!”

Shush. Just, stop for a minute. I personally think that Pony’s reaction to getting slapped was justified, and it angers me a little sometimes when people chalk it down to just him being a brat. Ponyboy already thinks Darry doesn’t want him around, Darry’s constantly on Pony for every little thing, being hard on him to keep him from getting taken away. Hitting him is one thing that would get Pony taken away faster than anything else, in doing this, Darry’s accidentally sending Ponyboy a message: He doesn’t just not want him around, he wants to get rid of him as quickly as possible. 

“Oh but Darry probably hit him a lot when they were kids!” EXACTLY. When. They. Were. KIDS. Darry 100% slugged Pony a couple times bc he was being a little shit, but Darry’s stuck halfway between being a father and a brother. He’s not just Pony’s brother anymore, he’s his guardian. Pony explicitly says that no one in his family hit each other, including their parents. Pony says Darry looks exactly like their dad, in that moment, Pony can’t imagine his father hitting him. If his parents had still been alive and his father had hit him instead of Darry, Pony would’ve had the same reaction. Pony’s in shock, when someone is hurt they go into fight or flight, Pony is a track star, and also kinda scrawny. (no offense Pony) He’s gonna choose to run instead of try to fight back. Because in his mind, if Darry hit him once, who’s to say he isn’t gonna do it again?

Now onto Johnny, yes Johnny has it way, way worse at home than Pony does. But he’s also used to it, it’s sad, but true. Johnny’s used to being hit by his parents, Pony isn’t. The first hits are always the worst. We see that in Tex and The Outsiders. There’s no doubt in my mind that Johnny acted like Pony did when he was younger, when he wasn’t so used to his parents hitting him. If Darry continued to hit Pony, Pony would eventually start to act like Johnny. Learn to take it. I also don’t think that Johnny was mad/annoyed with Pony for acting like he did. Maybe Johnny was a little jealous when Pony used to complain that Darry hated him. But that was before Darry hit him, Johnny’s probably a little mad at Darry too, being honest. Darry’s supposed to be the one holding them together. The one refuge most greasers on the East side have. Johnny probably knew deep down that Darry was scared and most likely felt bad and won’t do it again. But you still don’t hit people when you’re scared. Johnny has never been hit out of fear, every time his parents beat on him it’s out of anger. You hit out of anger, you fight back out of fear. 

So no, Pony didn’t deserve to be slapped. He wasn’t asking for it. They lost their parents less than a year ago. Darry is 20 years old for fuck’s sake! I bet some of you reading this right now are either older than that or only a year or two younger. 20 is arguably still a kid, and 20 should not be the age to take on two jobs, maintaining a house, and taking care of two teenagers, plus 4 other teens and oh, I don’t know, almost everyone in eastern Tulsa? That’s too much to ask of anyone. Even if Pony was being a little shit (which he usually is, but in the argument that night I would say Darry kind of instigated it more, at least in the book/movie) that still doesn’t mean he deserved the hit, or shove, in the movie’s case. 

Thank you for coming to my ted talk, I really needed to just put that out there. I’m seeing so many people ratting on Pony for the way he acted, especially comparing him to the way Johnny is treated at home. Which isn’t fair in my opinion. Thank u for listening! 💜

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