I Keep Seeing Posts About Dolls And Witches And Like, It's Really Enticing. I Genuinely See Myself As

Computer robot girl who flashes fake warnings and errors just to get your attention. You look over just to see the corner of an error message pop up, but when you actually go and look, everything is fine. She's whirring and spinning like she should and there hasn't even been a device issue.

But it keeps happening. You brush it off at first, thinking it's just.. something that'll go away. You give her a restart. And it keeps happening. You fish through all her external cables, checking each inch of them to make sure they're perfect. Nothing seems wrong.

But she keeps throwing up warning signs. You cannot figure out what is wrong. But you do notice she does throw them less when you're checking her cords. You assume, of course, one of her ports might be damaged.

And then when you pry her open, finally, she gets quiet with those errors and notifications. You think it was just.. something making contact, or something. It seems fine.

She gets worse, though. She's spitting out error upon error upon error every time you try and use her. She will not let you get anything done.

Until you get into her again. Fish around in her insides and then you realize. She's totally played you. She got you hook, line, and sinker. She's putting out genuine error messages now. She's into you rooting around in her insides. That's all she wanted; your devout, sole attention.

I get the appeal of HDG because it would be great to, despite all of your flaws and issues and trauma, be loved and taken care of unconditionally in a way that our real life society struggles to/can't and that even we can't do for ourselves sometimes. As someone who is mentally ill and physically disabled I definitely see the appeal.

But like... Outside of willing florets it's basically just colonization and enslavement? It's a super fucked up piece of fiction by nature. I saw another post on here that said the Affini are akin to a Warhammer faction and like... Yeah, they're right.

DRN can be used for a lot of things, kink included, but damn reading and running it even for simple mundane tasks to help with executive dysfunction and day to day stuff is a phenomenal feeling that is both freeing and affirming.

"nobody will accept me": a diagram

you dont have to be the "acceptable" kind of otherkin. like, seriously. don't try to be something you're not just because you think you'll become more "acceptable" to the people who unfortunately just dont accept anyone who's a single inch out of their expected portrayal of the average "normal" person.

go be a creature. please.

so according to my insurance provider, uploading my consciousness to the cloud “doesn’t count as gender-affirming care.” this is such bullshit.

Undercarriage

Sometimes, I want to be a robot girl. Outside of the context of kink, I mean, which is what I largely see on this site. I mean the kinky stuff, too, but just what the ramifications of being a machine could be intrigue me a lot.

Robot girl who can temporarily disable emotions that aren't useful or socially appropriate.

Robot girl who can power off when she's overwhelmed.

Robot girl who can patch her missing knowledge about social situations and rules.

Robot girl who can change her body at will.

Robot girl who shows you her operating system because she wants you to know her. Really, really, know her.

Robot girl connected to a whole network of other robot girls so that she never feels alone.

I just want to be robot girl.

I'm not human, I'm what happens when you give a robot sapience and then mash its mechanical processors into the same shared space as 5 other dorks in a single brain.

As a robot, I do not like going to the woods as it is usually wet, full of bugs, and easy to get my hardware dirty. As a robot-dog however, yes I wanna go on walkies please please please please, ruff!

I can't phrase any of this any more coherently than I did in the group chat. Of the devil really has just been rattling around in my brain at incredible speeds