Academic aesthetics
Long Black coats, thunder but no lightning, red wine, blood, forests in winter, a single guttering candle, latin, bones, all of history in your hands, Tchaikovsky, piles of old books, the hour before sunrise, complicated cravats, Hozier, true crime, Donna Tartt, secret diaries.
Sunshine in shallow water, white cotton, lacy dresses, champagne, the plays of Oscar Wilde, summer rain, wind rustling the pages of a book, jacket over on shoulder, Maurice, frost covering new flowers, Florence + the machine, roses, bare feet, girls school, old books about species of plant or butterflies, biological Diagrams, flowers in your hair, perfect notes.
Two top buttons undone, scribbled notes in pencil or biro, kill your darlings, untied laces, so much coffee, all nighters, crying in the library, Mozart, writing film scripts for fun, rain Storms, moorland, swimming in the dark, movie soundtracks while studying, procrastination, muddy boots, unsent letters.
Jane eyre, sunrise, cold hands, perfect handwriting, beat gen, Edgar Alan Poe, crows, small animal bones, writing essays until 2am, Vivaldi, February or November, zodiacs, loving history and art, Leonardo davinci, Tamino.
Billowing pirate sleeves, Lord Byron, theatre, violets, achilles, reading poetry aloud, bloody cheekbones, love letters, doodling in class, doc Martins, long ball dresses, gothic churches, dead poets society, sword fights back stage, wind and mist and violent Storms, tea, long journal entries, wide brimmed hats, museums.
Cotton shirts with large jumpers, celendines, maypole dancing, reading short stories, old traditions, Jane Austen, new term, beautiful notes, pastel colours, period dramas, magpies, 2005 pride and prejudice soundtrack, new leaves, cold feet, dancing.
Flower crowns, studying late while the sun is still up, full moons, parties outside, sun dresses, warm rainstorms, exam season, bare feet, ancient Greece, herb tea, singing to the radio, lying in the grass, bird song, biology textbooks, the Lord of the rings, studying outside, mystery of love by sufjan Stevens.
Foxes, dead leaves, large coats and scarves, old stone walls, steaming black tea, mist, travel journals, forgetting to study until the last minute, frankenstein, old songs, nostalgia, carrying a book everywhere, rebel rebel, the picture of dorian gray, soup, studying in the morning as the sun rises.
Long walks, misty breath, so much reading, shunning capitalist society, sad music, learning about witch hunts, philosophy, wuthering heights, mystery books, Dracula, black and white photos, transcribing music, old statues, silence.
Pin stripe jacket with jeans, Dionysus, "norse" makeup, cold sweet tea, running through the forest, mythology, I got an unconditional so I don't need to try hard, scraping the grades, shouty music, helenic polytheism, obsessive interests, reading a 500 page book in one sitting, love learning, hate the education system, vive le revolution.
them: are you ok?
me thinking about the time when I could read and study without taking a break every 10 seconds: No
please make sure that wherever you’re at in life, you don’t treat it like a transitory period. don’t waste your college years wishing to already be graduated & have a job. don’t waste your single years wishing for someone to be in love with. if/when those things come, they will come in due time and they will be good. but there is nothing like looking back and feeling empty because you wasted literal years ignoring what you had because you were hoping for something better. while it’s important to better yourself and reach for your goals, don’t neglect the present because that’s where you are now and it’s your now that determines your future.
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(Source)
When a band announces a world tour.
everything is happening 0.5 times too fast
numb
everything but a little bit to the left
Numb™
it feels like Monday the 17th at 3:31pm but also like Saturday at 4:57am
….. existing?
hahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
why are the end credits playing I didn’t even hit play
Current emotion is coma
I need to self-harm but I physically cannot move
feeling panic rising up inside but being too numb to physically react
Must Do Thing. Do Not Know What Thing Is.
N҉͏̖͇͕̥ư̷̭̪͇͉̰̱͢ͅḿ͝҉̠̬̘͇̫͇͍̘͜b̴͓͍̱̣
everythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingevery
…I should start a religion
I A M G O D
*vibrating softly* everything in the world is my fault
Numb
Existence Is Fraud
Do I still have legs?
Anyone want to join my club where we read pretentious literature, listen to dreary romantic music with classic undertones, wear tweed fall in love with an idea and idk maybe commit murder?
gentle reminders for when you relapse
- forgive yourself, it’s not your fault
- you’re doing your best and I’m proud of you
- try to do activities that match the opposite of your emotions
- see yourself from an outside perspective, like what you would say if your friend was in your situation
- focus on your health, like keeping hydrated
- if you could heal before, you can heal again
- it doesn’t feel like it, but this is only temporary
- you’re doing well, you are loved and you are growing from this
I basically have two moods: either let’s do something spontaneous and awesome, or let’s just lie down in bed all day and forget the world exists.
(via purplebuddhaquotes)