I Tried To Go To Femboy Hooters But It Was Just This Guy There And He'd Only Talk About The Horrors Of

snake found a singular boob on the floor

text and a silly doodle from yesterday below

i did line of action yesterday as well but didn't post.

i like the 10 minutes breakdancing guy (even although the shoulder is bad) and especially his pants; i mostly draw naked people bc it lets me see the anatomy better and yesterday while working on a small passion project it became obvious that i don't know what do pants look like lol. so this sketch was also my pants practice, in a way.

the longest sketch isn't much of upgrade from the 10 minute one, but that's ok i guess.

in a yt video there was an advice to do both practice and passion projects. i'd like to redraw one post i've seen here, which requires to practice faces, poses from imagination (or reference) and drawing specific characters. the first character i decided to draw is kazuhira miller from mgsv, and i was anxious bc i care about that character and would like to do him justice and draw him good. i opened a reference - the concept arts (full body and face) and the 3d model - and tried drawing the same things for now. i still have noticeable skill issue just drawing people (and faces especially), so even copying the exact same thing wasn't perfect, but i kinda like how the small doodle of his head (the one in the middle) came out and am posting ot below just as a small celebration. after this exercise i understood that i should as well practice drawing clothes and shoes (and mb guns if i will decide to be thorough). overall it went better than i expected.

fancying about archiving mgs art i did before

[multiple ships involved!]

i don't think it's false sense of accomplishment at all.

yes, history will see him as villain, but, for example, at the start of metal gear 2: solid snake (iirc) it is said that there are no more nukes left in the world other than in zanzibarland, and while not explicitly stated so, i think dd's nuclear disarmament efforts in mgsv contributed to that - at least there is a cinematic in mgsv for total nuclear disarmament, which makes it canon enough for me. that's a big accomplishment that matters, imo.

it's really futile with the water reservoir and, mb, the child soldiers, since we don't know whether they got a chance at "normal" life (and it was miller's idea anyway) and know the fate of liquid snake and kids transferred to outer heaven later.

in shining lights mission he prevented a dangerous infection outbreak. like with many other things, it can be argued that he is responsible for it happening to begin with.

for me personally it is an interesting question how much of all of that did big boss - both ishmael and ahab - really want and how much was he being guided and/or manipulated to do, or left no choice. but i think the thing with playing as venom snake is doing the right thing at every given moment, even when war has already changed and is for money and revenge instead of making world a better place like the boss or ishmael wanted. but venom snake loved the legend of big boss the hero before becoming venom snake and my guess is he continued to do so and was happy or at least accepted the chance to contribute to it and become its co-creator. he contributed to the reason to live of his staff and completed impressive missions, and while that might seem shallow and lacking a bigger purpose, to me effort and passion in itself are never meaningless.

one can say that he has no lever and everything was decided for him, and that makes sense. but also it would be easier to give up or mess everything up; he needed effort and willpower to keep the tram moving, even if there was only one path - whether willingly or not and happy or not seems to be up to the player to decide.

also lmao, there was never a "good" option and non lethal metal gear gameplay is a joke. in mgs3 bosses even explode anyway, i think the only difference is difficulty and a little trophy to let the player feel like a good boy/girl/them. it is a game about supernatural cyber war and the very essence of all of your efforts (warring) is inevitably bound to people being killed. the closest to genuine non lethal i know is total stealth in mgs1 where at least the genome soldiers you sneak past are not even bombed in the end.

Venom's arc explained in a picture from the player's perspective

Playing MGSV:TPP you have 2 choices:

You can be good or bad. You can kill, destroy, use and do everything in your power to be the worst person alive. You can be kind, you can save animals, kids, soldiers, grow a family and be a respectable man.

There's actually no choice. There's no two-tracks. The ending is the same. History will see you as a villain. You are a villain. You are, currently, the perfect depiction of the most wanted and most evil man alive, according to the world.

You have no lever. You cannot stop this from happening. Either close your eyes or watch, the ending will be the same. Your life will end in misery. The only relief? Boss will pat your shoulder and let you die with a false sense of accomplishment. Congrats. That's the panthom pain everybody talks about.

it sure was venom snake in the operation intrude n313 bc the man could run. i think he's at least as fast as the running man from mg2, who claims to be the fastest mercenary in the world

tried to copy kazuhira miller from references to learn to draw him for future shenanigans

looking at yesterday's drawings after getting some sleep. hilarious (good)

the guy who is so cool (i have no idea who is he)

he's sooooo cool.

personal notes (mood) to previous post under cut

i am awake for 27+ hours (willingly), had a good day at work and it's doing wonders to my mood despite a sad and lowkey bizarre event earlier today. might draw more or go to sleep, idk will see how it'll go. feels a bit wrong but except that one event the day is really nice and i am both willing and able to do more. it is usually a bit stressful to draw new stuff, especially character i like and would like to portray good, but this one was just fun. i wish all-nighters weren't bad for health and incompatible with normal schedule