Text And A Silly Doodle From Yesterday Below

mgsv if it looked epic

Metal Gear Solid V: The Phantom Pain (2015)

raiden rehabilitation sequel where he hangs out with otacon and sunny a lot and now he's jack the ripper bc he pirates cool movies so all the poor 3rd world countries kids can watch them for free

face practice during lunch break. the indian looking man is my emotional support model for face practice as it is much easier to draw him for some reason.

the personal features and exaggerated expressions still look wrong but at least now the emotion looks similar enough. we're getting there

when snake takes miller's hand to get on the chopper in the end of ground zeroes, i wonder if he remembered the time he took the boss's hand on the bridge. back then, his world was crumbling because she was defecting, and he accepted the hand only to be broken (literally broken bones first and metaphorically in the operation snake eater in general). in ground zeroes, his world is probably crumbling again together with the oil rig, and a person who is close to him extends their hand to help him up. i wonder if he thought of it briefly before placing his trust in that person again, both times not having much choice anyway. i wonder, if he could go back in time, both to virtuous mission and ground zeroes, and if he had some other option, would he still accept the hand. both times he did it led to major changes in life and getting hurt.

ironically, the man who was a double agent stayed loyal to him in the next 9 years, and the woman who was immaculate kept her loyalties too but he felt betrayed.

i wish there was a way to put reblog under cut instead of having gajillion long ass mgs related text posts on my page

30 minute warmup. i like how that one 1 minute doodle came out, and partly the final 10 minute thing (i paused it and took my time)

my impressions about the new nosferatu movie (spoilers ahead)

first of all, i see it as a movie about a woman who didn't get enough love and appreciation from society and whose wishes weren't prioritised by her husband (and society in general) as much as she liked, so she got herself a powerful demonic lover whose sole purpose for being in this world is to please her and he is ready to sail the sea in a coffin and kill entire city with plague to get her to willingly (as much as possible considering aforementioned things) consent to be with him, and dies a hero saving everyone when no one else could, rather than lives a life of a person disregarded and deemed hysterical and of secondary importance. she is the most informed and in control in this situation (the doctor finds out a lot too but she already knows everything he knows), as opposed to before the plague, when her worries were disregarded and she was considered hysterical. her wishes and her role in defeating the nosferatu seem to be different from a typical male oriented fantasy, so i wasn't the assumed target audience and the most relatable character was friedrich harding who was unable to adapt to the irrational and occult stuff, got exhausted and died lol, but i still enjoyed the movie. i am not a woman and only know about feminine traditions in horror genre from youtube videos on "wicker mag" channel and podcasts by the same person, so sorry if i am misinterpreting it.

second thing is the vampire metaphor. rather than being an image of a feudalism related class fears, in this movie (in the first half of ot) nosferatu rather seems to embody immigrants related fear. i am not xenophobic and haven't moved out of my country of origin myself but i assume that this correlates with some real and popular fears: a guy goes to a foreign country that is considered less civilised and is frightened by local customs, he then meets a person who he must invite to become his neighbour, and is even more terrified by him. despite the count being not fond of local scary customs too, it's not hard to imagine the guy might think now that there's a reason behind them. after arriving to the other country where everything seems to be going well, the immigrant then immediately contaminates it with plague and tries his best to have sex with the guy's wife. looks like exaggerated real fears about immigrants that i don't personally have or approve of but that might be popular enough to be reflected in a movie.

third, the cat was in the room during the final epic hot kamikaze sex, very funny, i laughed aloud in the cinema.

fourth, ellen hutter reminded me about real person behaviour. when a person was unable to get the love they need and safe reliable relationship, and it has effect on them (in the movie it was her summoning the demon) which helps to cope at first but becomes not fun later, and when they finally meet a person who loves them and wants to be with them, they get very close (like the movie character wanted her husband to disregard work and chill with her) and the next moment they push them away (like she said she's unworthy of his love bc she sinned or smth). it's a cruel irony, people being unable to maintain a relationship with no complications precisely as a consequence of needing it very much and that need being unfulfilled for a long time. this was probably the scariest part of the movie for me personally bc although young husband tried better than me he failed anyway, either being unable to protect his wife or being a less preferable partner for her than the vampire depending on how you interpret her decision.

fifth, epic of nosferatu to disregard the impending sunrise to get his partner off for the 9999th time. and funny that there is a scene of him literally bouncing on a man's pelvis (clothed) and moaning. it is also amusing that in this movie nosferatu seems to be an incubus (yet the ladies sitting next to me seemed to find him unattractive lol - although i'm sure there are people who disagree)

also could anyone tell me what lilac means in the movie? thomas hutter brought a bouquet to ellen hutter in the beginning, nosferatu said ellen's hair lock smells like it and the doctor put it on the bed in the end. is there some symbolism in this flower?

i hope this post was interesting, feel free to engage in any form, share your own thoughts or criticise or correct me

there is a fan made christmas metal gear game and you should try it!

i was looking for christmas cards from metal gear social and instead found the fan made game merry gear solid: secret santa. it is available for free and only takes ~15 minutes to complete, has cool voice acting, funny codec calls, simple controls (arrows, shift, control and mouse) and few fun mechanics like candy cane instead of cigs, gift box (full of bombs!) and a (non digital) camera that is like stun grenade x claymore x c4. in this game, you are playing as santa claus (code name solid santa) and due to tightened security have to infiltrate the house to deliver presents instead of the traditional way. of course, a plot twist awaits at the end, and an even bigger one in the after credits call!

please give it a try, download available at http://www.superfundungeonrun.com/?page_id=297 . you can also look up walkthrough on youtube but why rid yourself of the experience of playing it yourself? i have read the plot summary before playing it and spoiled everything but still had a lot of fun, and hope that you will too!

there is a sequel that i want to play as well!