Today Felt Like It Would Never End.

[research life]

Spending the day reviewing my readings + finishing my assignments for the next week 🫶🏻🩷 Very productive but tiring! 🤞🏻🍰

Studying isn't about grades, it's about falling in love with a subject.

I've officially started my last year of college and have never felt more excited. These years have been a process of learning to love learning new things, but i think I've finally started fully appreciating the opportunity to study subjects that not only interest me, but will also help me in my life and career post-university.

I'm grateful to have professors that are passionate about the courses they teach, I'm grateful for the friends that are just as dedicated to learning as I am, with whom I can always discuss interesting details and debatable theories.

It's a new year and I'm grateful to become a new me.

Update:

I did fall asleep in Starbucks :')

After a super short (unintended) nap, i decided to go home and sleep properly (meaning a longer nap).

Not my most productive day, but it went better than i expected productivity-wise.

9/05/22

Did not sleep at all last night.

I have an early exam the day after tomorrow early in the morning, so I am trying to fix my sleep schedule. Sleep would be wonderful, but desperate times require for desperate measures. Went on a long walk to clear my mind, and now i am studying in a Starbucks, enjoying the chill music in the background. Ordered an iced chai latte for the first time (usually i get it hot) and it is heavenly.

Hope I won't fall asleep while in public :)

8/100 days of productivity

Quick sketch, needs a lot of work :)

Draw a dress a god/ess would wear!

Rules to not feel like shit:

sleep. for fuck's sake just sleep.

take care of your health! u can't study while being in p a i n

exercise or stretch every day please please your knees need it

do not!!!!! leave things for the last fucking minute!!!!! i beg you!!!!!

Yea guess who's feeling pain everywhere and can't barely keep her eyes open but has to cram a presentation for tomorrow!!! AGAIN!!! AAAAAA

There are times when I do not choose healing. I'm stubborn. I choose self-destruction instead hoping that I will learn what it's like to have wounds again. And I learn and learn and learn again

and is your shame helpful? is it inspiring goodness and change? or is it keeping you frozen in time unable to move on and be everything you have expanded to be?

thermodynamics

And sometimes I think, maybe life is not so bad

hi. will it ever end