OCD Symptom I Struggle With But Don't See Talked About A Lot: Inability To Trust Your Own Memory And/or

Fellow borderlines who actually caved and went crazy and angry on their fp was it worth it cuz I wanna.

Heh heh heh 😈

i have tourettes where I say sudden funny things but never any slurs because I am good boy 😇 I have OCD but not the one that makes me really concerned about piss and shit but the movie one that makes me line things up properly nice and neat because I am a good boy 😇 I have bipolar but not the one that makes me act embarrassingly in public because I am on the highest point of a downward curving emotional pendulum swing, but the one that makes me creative af via safely utilizing my tendency towards extreme emotions in my art (because I am a good boy 😇) I have autism but it's the one like from the movies where I'm good at math or being a detective, and not the one that makes other people hate me so bad they want to kill me because I am annoying to them. because I am a good boy 😇 I have schizophrenia too but I also don't, because somehow in the cultural lexicon no one who has schizophrenia is a good boy and there is rarely a stylistic bullshit depiction of the condition, but I'm still a good boy 😇 society knows this. society knows this.

questioning bpd culture is going from feeling borderline suicidal due to the amount of anxiety and self-loathing you're experiencing to being completely fine the next day

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“are you mad at me?” “do you still like me?” “are you sure you’re not mad at me?”

Okay so are we gonna take this to the bedroom or should I fuck the sense and reassurance back into you right here?

the DSM-5 defines narcissism as being characterized in part by a "need for admiration." while this is true for most of us, i think it's a bit of an oversimplification to identify every narcissist's supply needs as just "admiration."

many narcissists just want acknowledgement. supply may not just mean praise and reverence, but also simple care. not a need to be worshiped and treated as godlike, but to be spoken to and treated as an important human being.

others may not just get supply from positive attention, but also negative attention. i've heard others talk about reveling in the thought of being the subject of someone else's resentment or hatred, just because it makes them an important figure in their life.

some narcissists seek out any attention, regardless of whether it contributes to an idolizing reputation; narcissists who become self-destructive because they know it'll get people's attention.

i think most narcissists appreciate admiration, but narcissistic supply isn't just that. what all narcissists have in common is that we need more attention than most people, be it because we were deprived of it when we needed it most or because we never learned how to live without it.

regardless, none of us really have the innate ability to feel important and appreciated unless we're given as much attention we can get.

bpd culture is asking your fp ‘do you still like me’ or ‘are you okay’ for the fifth time

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bpd culture is jerking off thinking about killing them when they forget something important

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thinking about how funny it is that you pay therapists and they can diagnose you with a cluster b personality disorder...literally giving you money and in exchange you're calling me manipulative orsomething...this is making me feel so pathetic wtf I paid you to degrade me *kills mys