Questioning Bpd Culture Is Going From Feeling Borderline Suicidal Due To The Amount Of Anxiety And Self-loathing

the DSM-5 defines narcissism as being characterized in part by a "need for admiration." while this is true for most of us, i think it's a bit of an oversimplification to identify every narcissist's supply needs as just "admiration."

many narcissists just want acknowledgement. supply may not just mean praise and reverence, but also simple care. not a need to be worshiped and treated as godlike, but to be spoken to and treated as an important human being.

others may not just get supply from positive attention, but also negative attention. i've heard others talk about reveling in the thought of being the subject of someone else's resentment or hatred, just because it makes them an important figure in their life.

some narcissists seek out any attention, regardless of whether it contributes to an idolizing reputation; narcissists who become self-destructive because they know it'll get people's attention.

i think most narcissists appreciate admiration, but narcissistic supply isn't just that. what all narcissists have in common is that we need more attention than most people, be it because we were deprived of it when we needed it most or because we never learned how to live without it.

regardless, none of us really have the innate ability to feel important and appreciated unless we're given as much attention we can get.

bpd culture is getting annoyed when someone tells you to not do the things that make you feel like a bad person. like you think I can control it?

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bpd culture is changing your entire personality and aesthetic based on a character you relate to or just some random person you thought was cool because you don’t know who the fuck you are

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bpd culture is your fp being the least responsive person ever and it slowly killing you

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Bpd culture is clinging onto the ideas of celebrities or fictional characters for comfort that you can't get from anyone else in your life. It's these people/characters being the only thing keeping you alive because they can't hurt you, they can't hate you, because they don't even know you or don't even exist. It's finding comfort in the fact that they can never leave you because they aren't with you in the first place. It's this desperate attachment to ideas being the only stable "relationship" in your life

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bpd culture is jerking off thinking about killing them when they forget something important

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Bpd related question:

(Ik I'm sorry, I should stop asking but...)

Can you please list bpd symptoms? Because I want to write that tracker but I forgot like half of the things which are bpd criteria and which are things everyone is experiencing...

Thank you (and sorry for bothering you)

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Sure thing, no need to apologize, you aren't bothering us!! /g

Idolizing/devaluing

Splitting

Black & white thinking

Dissociation

Paranoia or delusions

SH and related things (i think that mental self harm counts too) (i.e., replaying bad memories to upset yourself, purposely triggering yourself, etc.)

Impulsive or reckless behavior

Mood swings

Chronic emptiness & boredom

Extreme anger

Inherent sense that you're "bad" or "evil"

Those are some of the main ones i think are both worth tracking and can be relatively easier to track as opposed to other symptoms. I hope this helps some :0!!!

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suspected bpd culture is genuinely believing your cause of death will be suicide because you are aware that this disorder is slowly eating away your hope and energy to continue living, making it impossible to live normally.

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