BPD culture is feeling like all you are is a mirror
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bpd culture is feeling so mad and upset and angry you wanna throw punches and hit stuff when your fp doesn't respond but feeling insanely guilty when they do and say they were doing something normal
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bpd culture is sending way too many asks directed to ur fp and now ur overthinking that they'll see the asks you sent and if they do its so fucking over (sorry if i sent so many asks btw lol)
You're okay
final message: i love you people who were "scary" children. i love you people who attacked other people, who hurt animals, who destroyed people's things, on purpose or on accident. i love you people who got labeled "creepy" or "problem child" or "attention-seeking" or "manipulative". i love you people who got kicked out of class or suspended often, who got kicked out of schools, who transferred before you could get kicked, who didn't understand why they got in trouble. i love you students who failed classes, who'd cry in class, who'd sleep through class, who got sent to unhelpful counselors. you weren't at fault for being a struggling child, and i love you if you struggle feeling overwhelmingly guilty for how you acted as a child, and i love you if you dont. i especially love you if you struggle to see yourself as a good person because of whatever you did as a child. i love you people who cant remember what you did, but are told it makes you bad. you are not defined by the actions of your child self, and you are able to choose who to be as you are now. if you have the capacity and interest to make amends, you can, and its also okay to not do that and just leave it all behind. i love you all the same.
BPD culture is wanting to know who your fp is talking to and if they're talking about you, and if, god forbid, they are, what they're saying, at all times, because you're so scared they're secretly telling their friends how much they hate you.
And you also want to know when they go out and with who, so you don't have to find out from other people that they went out with mutual friends and didn't invite you, so you can stop feeling like they don't want you around.
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Bpd culture is having too much love and care inside you and not knowing how to distribute any of it so you give it all to one person and get sad when they don't care about you as much as you care about them.
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thinking about how funny it is that you pay therapists and they can diagnose you with a cluster b personality disorder...literally giving you money and in exchange you're calling me manipulative orsomething...this is making me feel so pathetic wtf I paid you to degrade me *kills mys
the DSM-5 defines narcissism as being characterized in part by a "need for admiration." while this is true for most of us, i think it's a bit of an oversimplification to identify every narcissist's supply needs as just "admiration."
many narcissists just want acknowledgement. supply may not just mean praise and reverence, but also simple care. not a need to be worshiped and treated as godlike, but to be spoken to and treated as an important human being.
others may not just get supply from positive attention, but also negative attention. i've heard others talk about reveling in the thought of being the subject of someone else's resentment or hatred, just because it makes them an important figure in their life.
some narcissists seek out any attention, regardless of whether it contributes to an idolizing reputation; narcissists who become self-destructive because they know it'll get people's attention.
i think most narcissists appreciate admiration, but narcissistic supply isn't just that. what all narcissists have in common is that we need more attention than most people, be it because we were deprived of it when we needed it most or because we never learned how to live without it.
regardless, none of us really have the innate ability to feel important and appreciated unless we're given as much attention we can get.
persotypical = no personality disorder or disordered traits; persodivergent = personality disorder and/or traits.
don't count armchair diagnoses (E.G. "my mom is a complete narc!"); unless they've been professionally or self-diagnosed with a PD, they're counted as persotypical for the sake of the poll.