BTS MEMORIES Of 2021 - Part IV

Scars of Your Survival Instinct in Birth Chart

SURVIVAL INSTINCT MEANS...

Survival instinct is a natural response to imminent danger, where your body responds by triggering a fight, flight, or freeze response to keep you safe.

The fight response involves confronting the threat head-on, the flight response involves escaping or avoiding the threat, and the freeze response involves hoping that the threat will pass.

However, being in this state for prolonged periods due to trauma can have damaging effects on our physical and mental health.

HOW STRUGGLES OF CHILDHOOD MANIFEST HERE

When faced with difficult upbringing and authority figures, a child often learns to build a wall to protect him/herself from the world.

This protection mechanism acts as a behaviour of emotional unavailability, anger issues, passive aggression and depression.

Slowly, your body starts keeping count of your trauma which leads to major health issues like high blood pressure, heart illness, diabetes and more.

IN MEN

It can lead to a highly complex ego where you seek external validation through superficial status, short-lived relationships and a running away mentality. Also, an extremist mentality.

IN WOMEN

It can lead to a high inferiority complex where you people please or are hyper-independent, focus too much on external beauty and couldn't assert yourself. Also, a victimhood mentality.

IN YOUR NATAL BLUEPRINT

Your ancestors survived many calamities so that you can break the patterns of the sufferings you are carrying within. These patterns can manifest as...

HOUSE OF ARIES AND MARS

Whichever house Aries and Mars are located in, that house shapes the way you survive the most challenging battles and bullying.

HOUSE OF SCORPIO AND PLUTO

This house shapes the way you transform yourself after going through ego death. Shadow work here brings immense healing to your ancestry.

HOUSE OF CAPRICORN AND SATURN

Whichever house Cap and Saturn are located in, that house shapes the way you learn karmic lessons and channel ancestral gifts to achieve legacy.

SUN-SATURN ASPECT, SUN IN LIBRA/ AQUA

This aspect makes you learn lessons about your identity, soul and heal inner criticism.

MARS-SATURN ASPECT, SAT IN ARIES

This aspect makes you learn lessons about your assertiveness and how you show up. A prominent survival instinct that needs nurturing and stability.

MOON IN SCORPIO, VIRGO, CAP, AQUARIUS

This aspect makes you close your heart space due to difficult childhood. Your healing begins when you prioritise self-care and emotional consciousness.

MOON-SATURN ASPECT, SAT IN 4TH HOUSE

This aspect makes you learn lessons about your emotional boundaries, home life and ancestry. Here, you heal by redefining what home/ family is.

PLUTO-MARS ASPECT, MARS IN 8TH HOUSE

This aspect makes you hyper-aware of the energies around you. Trusting your intuition is needed here.

VENUS-SATURN ASPECT, SAT IN 7TH HOUSE

This aspect makes you isolated from partnerships (business or love). This is also an indication to not repeat parental patterns within your relationship.

VENUS-PLUTO ASPECT, VENUS IN 8TH HOUSE

This aspect asks you to heal patterns around power struggles, abuse, finance, ancestry and intimacy.

VENUS-NEPTUNE ASPECT, VEN IN 12TH HOUSE

This aspect makes you learn about the importance of boundaries and not justifying destructive habits, especially within partnerships.

HOW YOU THRIVE INSTEAD OF SURVIVE

Practice cognitive reframing by challenging negative thoughts and replacing them with more positive and realistic ones. Set realistic goals.

Engage in activities that promote relaxation and stress reduction. This can include deep breathing exercises, therapy or mindfulness techniques.

Be gentle with yourself throughout the healing process. Understand that it takes time to recover from a prolonged state of survival instinct

© A COSMIC VENTURE

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Hello! This is the PAC that was chosen by you, the reader, as my next PAC per the first ever PAC poll. Yay! This PAC is quite triggering though, so be mindful of its consumption. Also, I don't encourage multiple pile picking in my readings specifically, and in this one I encourage it even less -- but to each their own.

Disclaimer: Tarot does not replace any sort of advice from a trusted professional that went to college for 8+ years to be there. It also does not always get things right. The future changes all the time and a responsible tarot reader can only assure 80% of their readings will be correct at any given point in time. Remember to take what you look at and go “huh, that could be me,” and leave the rest. Be conscious about your tarot content consumption and drink lotsa agua, amigo(a)(x).

Group 1

Cards: Eight of Pentacles rx, Three of Swords, Page of Swords, Ten of Cups, Ten of Wands, Ace of Pentacles

I think you believe you are lazy. You believe you are not doing enough, you believe that your life is not going anywhere, you believe you do not have the capacity to work for the things you truly want. Pick whichever resonates most, of course, but the general gist is that you don't believe you have what it takes. Maybe in the past you did, for some of you, but now you believe you changed in the direction of not doing rather than doing.

This is a false belief reading, so, of course, this is false. It could be that your entire process is internal rather than external. It could be you are in survival mode, dealing with traumas. It could even be, for a small portion of you, that you have untreated ASD and ADHD, that you have executive dysfunction issues, that you were not born necessarily to fit into societal expectations without a very strict schedule and ruling, which you can't give to yourself that easily.

Whichever your situation may be, know you are not broken. For some, you're just sad, it'll pass. For others, you need to cut yourself some slack. You know you are not like other people, who can turn their subaru impreza brain on and off as they please, and you need to respect yourself in what you can achieve. Most of you are working hard for yourselves and are doing a lot of work. For some, your family might be the problem here or even friends, nudging you and nudging you to the point of madness. You could simply need a break from everything, even if you think you already don't do enough to warrant one. The truth is flowers don't bloom all year. That's just the way life is.

With the Three of Swords, you believe you are heartbroken or, alternatively, that you will always be heartbroken. There is a trend here of not thinking you are able to control your own life, which is false, but understandable depending on your living conditions, upbringing, people you surround yourself with or even traumas you may or may not have withstood in your life. Know this: You are in charge of yourself, you can change things. Life is not exactly like the internet says it is neither. It is not clean cut and easy. It is not always balanced. Like Patti Smith said, you never come to a point in which everything is OK, ever. You must accept this and take charge of your things anyway, flawed and imperfect and human today, instead of waiting for a perfect moment. There isn't one. Of course, this varies from person to person, so you need to do what you can, and, for the love of God, work with yourself as much as you can, as well. Try to get to know yourself.

For some, you should dump the future spouse readings, get to the ones about the self, make a tarot journal, find out what you truly believe spiritually, and not what other people say you should believe in, or that it's real.

With the Page of Swords, I believe you think you are simply a child. You are not good enough for anything. Maybe you are young, but I am sensing someone in their mid twenties that believes nothing has gone right and that you must be an idiot for wanting this or that. I'm sensing people who are the baby of the family or the ones who are always "the dumb ones" in their group of friends -- or the ones who are always laughed at. For the last one, I advise you ditch your friends. I will always advocate solitude over the company of terrible people, even if it's painful at the beginning. You'll find better people or better company in yourself. If you can't do something so drastic, limit your contact. For all, I believe you are not an idiot. For some, just gaslighted, limited and put down by people. For others, simply disconnected from one self. Once again, you need to go back to yourself, have yourself again, close to your own heart. This is easier said than done, so remember it might take months to years, always in stride, always remembering the imperfect is imperative in the human condition.

For the Ten of Cups, you might think a partner can rescue you for some. For others, you believe you see life through rose tinted glasses and that one day this illusion may as well shatter. You seem to be able to grasp at realism, however, to be sane when you truly wanna be. Your false belief could be the very card itself -- a fairy tale. This is harmful to an extent. Fairy tales do not exist. You might believe in reality shifting, and this is going to be triggering for some, but I don't believe in that and I advise caution in applying such beliefs. I will not tell you what to do, but I will say that it could do harm in this particular situation.

Considering this is a false beliefs reading, this card and part could mean several things for several people, but it is mainly reading to me as the aforementioned: You need to come down to Earth and remember that life is right here, not out there in outer realities.

For the Ten of Wands, I believe it is similar to the previous energy of thinking you will be burdened for life. For Ace of Pentacles, I believe you think people are gonna give things to you if you wait long enough. Maybe you were raised to not ask for much, to be subdued, to be silent. You need to work on this and start taking unabashedly, without a fear of being hated for it. You will be, by some. Sit with these feelings. Realize that, while people disagree with you or don't agree with much that you say, you continue breathing. Your anxiety might tell you something dreadful will happen to you if someone hates you, and yet you are well. This is a very specific message, but it's true. It will not matter and you will be stronger.

Rebel Deck Cards: "You need a big fucking hug. Squeeeezzzee." & "You are giving too many fucks. Give zero."

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Group 2

Cards: Page of Cups rx, Six of Wands, Three of Cups rx, Moon, Chariot rx, Ace of Pentacles

I believe some of you think you are idiots in love. That love is not good, that love is what ruined you, that you are never smart when it comes to it. That is not necessarily true. For some, you are the ones who ruined yourselves, and your need for love runs deeper than you believe. It is not necessarily romantic, there is something else missing. For others, you were not in control of the situation and you keep blaming yourself thinking you are an idiot and that this will always happen because there is something fundamentally wrong with you, and not with the people who were involved. This is a false beliefs reading, so you know the drill. You are not responsible for what happened to you at all. You are yourself, whole. You do not need to let others define you. You'll be fine in time, just give a lot of love to yourself, whatever that looks like to you, and know you will be well. You will.

For the Six of Wands, it could be you have an ego, but I think you do have more of a superiority complex sometimes. You think you are an asshole too. This card contains a lot of different messages for a lot of different people, so bear with me. You might think you are too high and mighty all the time and that people hate you for that, for the way you portray yourself. For some, you have been told people think you are better than them and that was not good because you truly believe you are to blame for this (you are not, they are projecting on you).

For others, you were high and mighty, maybe popular in school or someplace else, and you wanna hold tightly to that, because you believe this is the only thing about you that is worthwhile (it is not. I know it takes guts to wish to be an absolute nobody, but there is freedom in it as well). Be quiet instead of loud for a while and see what you can gain from that.

For the Three of Cups reverse, you might believe people hate you. Social anxiety is a figure here, but it could be, like on the other card, that you are a being of notoriety and light, that you do exercise some natural power, or that you have learned things about yourself, therefore making yourself grander in the process. You are almost ashamed of that. It could be that this puts people off of you, or that you don't think people can relate to you on a personal level because of it.

It is a false belief because you should never be ashamed to be better or different. You should be glad. You worked for this. You worked for yourself and to yourself, while others, sometimes, are not as capable of facing the mirror. You should take solitude in stride. You don't need to throw yourself into other people to have a grasp of yourself. It can be hard, but you are better for this. When you do go out with people, try to respect them for who they are. Listen to them, observe their behavior, where they are in life, and don't try to change them to fit into you. You are not someone to be fitted into, you are as unique as them.

The Moon card is here because you believe you are not seeing things clearly, that you must be insane to think the things you do, to have the worldview you have. You are not, of course. We all have different views of the world and you have that which fits you and your life better. If others don't share it, it is because it doesn't fit their life or doesn't help them in their own things. You must find like-minded people (by sharing yourself, no matter how frightening, in however small or big way you can) and by remembering you are not insane. There are all sorts of people out there, who believe all sorts of things, and you are not alone. (For some reason I feel compelled to ask if any of you have watched Wendigoon on YouTube. He makes videos about mysterious things that happened, leaning on the paranormal and the mystical. He has a huge conspiracy theory iceberg, true, but in my opinion it's in videos like the Appalachian mountain lights that he shines. His and his girlfriend's way of seeing the world might resonate with some of you).

Chariot reversed makes me, once again, believe you think you'll never meet people like you or that you'll be alone forever. I said before that I will always encourage solitude than the company of terrible people, but maybe this is too harsh a belief here. Think of people as interesting. People-watch. Fall in love with the ones around you, learn about them. You might learn about yourself as well, but more than that, you might find your tribe by doing this. You'll be able to realize a lot of people's beliefs are very much about themselves.

Ace of Pentacles makes me believe you think you need material possessions to be happy. I understand this (Taurus sun, second house for those who are into astrology), but I also believe there is a need to blend needs here. One side is material and the other is metaphysical. Some of you might believe you need money to feel secure, because emotionally you feel bare. Feed one and then the other equally. You'll be fine if you are able to meet both in the middle.

(Sorry if this pile is all over the place, there were a lot of messages in this one).

Rebel Deck Cards: "Drop the fucking ego. Vulnerability is hot as fuck." & "They broke your heart. Fuck them."

Private Readings here!

Group 3

Cards: Hanged Man, Hierophant, Sun, Six of Pentacles rx, Four of Cups, Four of Swords.

This is a weird reading, straight out of the bat. You might be a weird person, which is great, welcome aboard. Your first three cards are all majors, which, for false beliefs about yourself, it's almost as if you are pretty delusional. This reading might be triggering for some, but all groups were, to an extent.

For the Hanged Man, I think you believe you must be in stagnation for things to come to you. You might believe in old style manifestation, you put the intention out, you believe in it, and it's yours. That is not necessarily a lie or anything, but you need to put in some work. For others, you might be enlightened about something, but you do nothing with it. Your false belief about yourself might be you are good only on your own. You don't need anyone else, cause no one is on your level -- different from group 2, because group 2 longed for connection. You don't want it, you think you are above it.

I'm sorry to say this, group 3, but based on the cards, it seems you are not all that. You are not as good as you think you are, at least not yet. And you might believe you are some kind of God, but you are only a person -- and you need to be a person. This is what you sent here for. We need to live as human beings, flesh and blood, instead of wanting to be simply spiritual beings of pure light, because we are not on that level yet (or, rather, we will all be someday, when we die).

With the Hierophant, you think you're traditional, but you are not. This is mainly for people who were raised in strict families. I am sensing someone quite young here, maybe someone who follows the beliefs blindly. I'm here to say you are not necessarily these beliefs -- you are someone who contains multitudes and, as you age, you'll realize you were traditional simply to not go against the grain, to not rock the boat. You are doing it to please others, perhaps, and it is not you, at least not your authentic self. Maybe some of you truly are people who haven't had the time to completely form themselves yet (I sense some eighteen year olds), and therefore have a lot to discover. To this group I say to try to keep an open mind, try to throw yourself into the world more, try not to be too ruthless and strict to others. You don't know their lives and what they went through, only yours and your family/church's.

With the Sun, you think you need to bring joy everywhere you go. I sense a toxic positivity streak here. Could be you believe that you must be happy all the time to receive the things you want and that you think you should always sport a smile, lest the universe should notice you're down and smite you. You are not this bundle of joy and you deserve to have your other feelings heard. Maybe you can't. Maybe you need to play this part or maybe you have spiritual anxiety or OCD, but remember these beliefs you have are false. You are a person. You are going to get the things you and and the things you need regardless of your state of mind. People just get things. The universe is a little more random and chaotic that people give it credit for. I'm not saying you shouldn't express gratitude, but even if that is not possible, it should not really hinder you in the way most people say it will. Life happens in spite of us. The Sun will start shining every day whether you wake to see it or not. Revel in this. Give yourself a break. Exercise respecting your other, darker, not useful feelings and remember they have their meaning too, and their place. You need to slow down, take deep breaths (if you can't be in nature), and observe your emotional condition. Sit with it, all of the confusion, and feel it. Let it go or stay however it needs to feel validated and don't rush it away because you want to become useful again.

With the Six of Pentacles reversed, some of you might believe you do not have anything to give. A stark contrast with the first message, but it's coming to me regardless. It could be that you think you're not good enough to give back to the poor and the wounded, so you are less than you wish. This is false because you should not save the world on your own. You don't have to give to people to be worthwhile. You are deserving of love no matter what, and a relationship based on how much you give will always be unhealthy, because people will take everything away from you.

With the Four of Cups, you believe you are seeing everything that there is to see in life, that you know it all, that there is very little hidden from you. That you have an almighty eye in your head. To some, you could be guided by the universe, truly, and have a spiritual attunement. That doesn't mean you know everything. To others, you should look around. No one knows everything and each corner is filled with mysteries. Life is gonna take you by surprise and when it does, you might end like a worse version of group 1 if you don't realize that it is normal to be taken for a fool by destiny -- it is imminent and it will happen to all of us. This too is a lesson.

Four of Swords here indicates you took a break from learning. There is a streak of youthful arrogance in this group. You shouldn't lay down your swords, or close your eyes just yet. You are not going to die any time soon, hopefully, and until you do, you'll probably still be learning a thing or two about life. You are not the end all be all. You are not God. You don't know any more about the world than someone else who has a different experience, a different outlook from you. Pay attention to them, honor them.

This pile reads to me as someone who will learn a lot about life still. If you feel offended by it in anyway, I am sorry. You will be fine, obviously, and will be better off when things that you never expected happen to you. Remember that this is not an irreversible situation. You might come off as high and mighty now, but there is a lot to learn and see. It will happen to you, likely, very naturally in the course of the next, maybe four to seven years.

Rebel Deck Cards: "Make better fucking choices. If you are pissed at where you are then stop taking yourself there." & "Love. Get some, give some. It will cheer your ass up.

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BTS → 191225 ‘Dionysus’

What to do when it starts getting bad again

Writing tasks into simple check-lists

Picking up after yourself as you go before the mess gets too overwhelming

Reminding yourself of the things you find fun

Planning extra yummy dinners

Trying not to isolate

Sticking to a routine as much as possible

Lots of deep breathing

Trying to do the opposite of what the depression voice says

Listening to uplifting songs

Crying it out

Taking a short walk everyday

Drinking lots of warm drinks

Journaling

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