Offering A Virtual Hug If You Want One. Its So Horrible That Roadkill Has To Even Be A Word. Take Your
offering a virtual hug if you want one. its so horrible that roadkill has to even be a word. take your time if you need it
Tw: mentions/topics of animal death, description of gore (kinda), subjects of death, mild description of traumatic experiences, trauma art (blood and a bit of gore included)
Yesterday i saw a black cat run across the street. I knew this cat. I've seen it often running around in the bushes. I also pet it a few times.
Today around 7:40 AM it was dead. It's insides across the street all bloody. It traumatized me and I've been distressed the whole day. Couldn't focus on anything and zoomed out constantly.
Normally I don't have a problem with seeing dead things but seeing this kitten looking like it's stomach exploded gave me flashbacks of past traumas (my first 2 cats got hit by a car) and a new trauma. The whole day i was thinking about what the owners of the cat felt when their found their beloved pet like that on the street. The kitten was still very long and could've lived way longer.
But seeing this also distressed me bc i also had a dream about dead animals that night and someone trying to murder me and my family (I'm not going to describe the dream as it would be too long and probably too graphic).
I've also been thinking about death a lot recently. Not like my own death, but much rather about the death of my beloved ones. My family, friends, pets, etc. I'm not scared of my own death but I'm scared of the death of the people around me. Mainly about my pets recently because there are a lot of dead rats lying on the streets in and outside our village and a few days ago a dead dog was found in a field.
I'm so scared that moppi and Garfield could die anytime soon. They are the cats that have lived the longest with me. I've had moppi since 2017 or 2018 and Garfield around 2021 or 2022. I've bonded with them more than with my other 3 cats I've had before and I'd be lying if I'd say I don't feel some kind of guilt even though their deaths wasn't my fault. But to me it would feel like that i loved moppi and Garfield more than eddie, ignatz and örni even though i love them all equally the same.
But what also made it traumatic for me was that I've figured out how i died as a cat in my past live. One of my theriotypes is a black mainecoon cat. I never knew how i lost my life as one but i was pretty sure i was killed by a car or something (but never was 100% sure). I got flashbacks and memory shifts that were new to me (but not nice ones). Walking across the road, worrying about nothing until a big engine with bright lights hits you in seconds, not even having the time to run away or figuring out what is happening, until it all went black.
Theriantropy isn't always nice as a lot of people say. As you can see it can also be really traumatic depending on your experience
When I'm coping with something i draw it because i know the paper I'm drawing on won't and can't judge me for my feelings.
It's just scrabbled but it's not meant to be beautiful. It's meant to be meaningful.
I couldn't bring myself today to finish cat drawing requests or any of my art that includes cats. The only thing i was able to do today was draw this.
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savin this
i have finally gotten round to making the alterhuman website it is a resource to educate yourself + others, find your identity, find other resources and you can DM here to get your term added remember this is still a work in progress so feel free to DM me if you want a term added now and ive missed yours or if ive got anything wrong ^^
welcome to the campsite
click on the boarding pass to enter
(it looks a bit messy on phone but still works so i recommend using a computer)
i eep now
me and gang
Life could look like this
dog in a cat way
![[image ID: a 4 striped flag. The 1st and 4th stripes are scalloped inwards. The colors of the stripes from top to bottom are gold, tan, orange, brown. The 1st and 4th flags have a thin outline in dark gold and black respectively. /end ID]](https://64.media.tumblr.com/ea971972b91d48a5de1d60b090fff5df/590003c6e15a22ce-3a/s500x750/ea2df0f74e1a99ce6d4d9a0a9d35cce7bede3d99.png)
When one is a dog in a cat way, a dog but is actually a cat, a dog with cat traits, etc
no wrong way to use this
Coined by : Iasc
tags : @radiomogai @smilepilled @rwuffles @somniabyte
VERINCARNATE． ➷
pt: verincarnate. end pt.
DEFINITION ⠀✦⠀ when one's true form is different from the body they're currently in, or their true form is that of the body they're in but is for some reason invisible to others.
pt: definition, when one's true form is different from the body they're currently in, or their true form is that of the body they're in but is for some reason invisible to others. end pt.
TAGS． @radiomogai @alterhumanflags @sevvys @angeltism @zoeynovie @boingogender @pupcoins @monarchenwinter @the-astropaws @flutteringwings-coining @acronym-chaos @whimes． ➷
looks at my once-human but now unrecognizable hearttypes... (watchers/keepers)
(btw since mine is a ""human"" character I consider transspecies, I feel the need to clarify: go by YOUR understanding of your hearttype for this poll)
i totally get this, its nice to see it in words.
im not white which i feel like the majority of the community is.. i feel out of place
while im not what would be considered plus-size , i am also not super skinny which makes me feel like i look stupid doing quads
speaking of, im already pretty bad at quads and hate how dumb i look on fours. my body doesnt look how im supposed to at all! (dog)
the weird thing is im pretty comfortable with my body's appearance. until i want to express my nonhumanity through it... like eww im not dog enough. im not holy enough.
and thats another thing. watchers are usually interpreted as tall, slender, and greyish-white skinned. i am not even close to any of those. buhhhhhhh :(
Does anypony else feel like you're not allowed to have certain 'types or do certain things because of your appearance, like you can't help but constantly think "You're not allowed to be this because of this"
I'm not allowed to be a deer because deer are cute and I am not cute. I'm not allowed to be my kintypes because they are all pretty and I am not. I am not allowed to be this kintype because they struggle with this and I struggle with the opposite. I am not allowed to be this character because they have this body type and I do not. I am not allowed to wear gear because only pretty people are allowed to wear gear and I am the only one who is not pretty, everyone else is so beautiful it hurts. I am not allowed to wear makeup because it will never be how you really look, makeup is for pretty people which I am not. I am not allowed to learn how to dress or wear nice clothes because that's for pretty people which I am not. I am not allowed to act like my theriotypes even in private because I am not pretty enough for that it would just be shameful and embarrassing.
I want to be pretty to do and experience the things everyone else does without feeling so much shame and disgust but I don't know how, animals in the wild don't have to deal with this it's not fair
related to that reblog thing i was blabbin on. about experiences and envisage shifts.
i recently had my strongest shift in a while (although thats not saying much, mine are weak as hell) while in my friend's car. a song started, and when i realised it was a song i didn't like that much, i felt and saw two antennae flatten against my head in upset.
maybe a coincidence, but the song was numb little bug. like.. bug antennae. idek. of my known types, idk what it would be.
So uh im questioning deitykin…
Either that or some form of plantkin. But most definetly deitykin.
I have a strong feeling of nature connection when the flowers bloom and such, but it always goes away when autumn rolls around. I also just get such a strong connection to nature and wildlife? Its very very strange.
So heres me questioning if i might be nature connected deitykin, or if i just love nature so so much (it could also be tied to my other identities so we’ll see :0)
this is so fire
Self indulgent fluttershy post
Feraveli and otherpaw are two terms that I really enjoy. I think they help break therians out of the stereotypes that tend to be placed on us without getting rid of something that (I personally see) is a part of our culture.
Doing quads and wearing maskes, and dressing in certain aesthetics doesn't make us therians even if it is something that we tend to do and mean a great deal to a lot of us. And these terms also gives outsiders a chance to enjoy what they want without getting tangled up in the therian community.
Feraveli
An individual who enjoys the aesthetic of (sometimes specific) animals and nature.
Otherpaw
Someone who enjoys to dress up and roleplay as an animal(s)
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