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rot like a saint

the way regulus knew about the dangers of this very clearly a suicidal mission through Kreacher and yet not only did he not back out, he didn't even have any back up plans?? Or some safety measures?? like?? I have no idea what his exact reasons were for betraying Voldemort, to avenge Kreacher or just because he hates the very existence of a hocrux or to protect his family bla bla bla, but either way, he was so offended, and still, no one was forcing him to do this, he went ahead and used the same elf Voldemort tried to kill, in a way, to steal the hocrux all with the intention to get it destroyed and ofc, got himself killed. He didn't need to do any of this but did it anyways?? like why bro.

he had one goal, steal and destroy the hocrux using kreacher. he did all this out of pure spite, 100% a Walburga trait btw, he's literally her son. gosh what an interesting man you are.

also he doesn’t blame sirius, they just didn’t expect for severus to actually go there. that was the whole joke. i already talked about this but honestly, how dumb was snape in that moment???

james potter ran out to pull severus snape from the shrieking shack with one tought in mind: remus lupin.

because he didn’t believe remus should be held accountable for what might happen if he is too late to protect him but it’s fully aware that he will be.

sirius stole one of marlene’s rings and wears it on his pinky. marlene stole one of sirius’ and wears it on her thumb.

but what if marls goes out with a slytherin at some point because guess what, they’re not all blood supremacist??? but he ends up being an ass in other regards, like maybe he tries to mess around with gryffindor team’s brooms or something. and he also thinks sirius and james are complete assholes but marlene it’s a bit like that’s neither here nor there, except he picks up the fact that something might have happened between marls and sirius in the past, specially because he caught her defending him after he did something borderline illegal (there’s a bunch stuff other than the prank) but immediately breaks things off with him when he comes cleans about the brooms.

and he leaves her by saying: i hope black knows how lucky he is.

meanwhile marlene reacting is something like: bruh what just happened???

what do you think would be marlene's standing with the black family? like what she think of walburga, orion, and regulus and what they think of her?

god what a hard question!

i think she struggles with them.

i tend to think of marlene as a pureblood witch to put her in contrast with lily (muggle born) and mary (half-blood), so while her family is obviously not on the same level as the blacks, she knows a lot of them much like the rest of society.

during school and even before they get closer, she starts picking up on the subtle ways sirius tense up or slightly flinch when someone brings up his family. whenever she can she change the subject. she also imagines he struggles at times with the way he was brought up and the way gryffindors behave. she has a brother in ravenclaw and that puts sirius at ease in a way when it comes to him being the outcast of his own family, not all is lost and it might no be that big a deal for his parents.

also marlene was in school at the same time his older cousins were and even at a distance she could tell they were a force to be reckoned with. marlene has only brothers so, aside from her mother, it’s such a sight to know powerful young witches. and this translates to walburga as well. sirius turns out to be so annoyingly good at everything and without even trying that she wonders where all that natural talent comes from. they obviously care enough in some regards to making him comfortable and well educated so his talent won’t go to waste. but believe they’re misguided though, cause their trying too hard to turn him into something he’s not and things might’ve turned up differently if they acknowledged that from the beginning. but it’s a scary thought to think of sirius as, possibly, a DE or a supporter of voldemort in some capacity.

marls doesn’t share the black family beliefs and neither does sirius, but that doesn’t change the fact that, even if you stripped them down from it, they are still a powerful family. she also hates the way more traditional families put the wizards above the witches which is hard to reconcile when she thinks of walburga, a big blood supremacist, having the same power as a man. it hard to reconcile someone with opposite beliefs to your own being in some capacity able to effect change, but that doesn’t mean they shouldn’t be allowed to just cause they happen to be women, right?

i don’t think she ever gets introduced to them, but if she did, she would probably confront walburga. she’d tell her she’s just jealous because his son might turn up to be whoever he wants to be, an option she either didn’t have or didn’t felt she had. she’s also scared, because he’s a man, he’s the heir, and he’s smart and powerful enough to change the trajectory of his entire family if he wishes, something she couldn’t have done even if she had wanted to.

she would think orion to be spineless for trying to dim his own son light, a son who only ever tried to make him proud despite everything. if he doesn’t want to see how special he is, it’s his lose. and no, buying him expensive stuff doesn’t compensate for any psychological abuse he might’ve done to sirius.

as to where walburga and orion stand on her is, well… they think sirius picking her might be a good sign. orion is not that impressed because he knows sirius to be much like walburga and while she change her ways and eventually fall in line with the family, he also knows sirius might turn up and do the complete opposite. so no girl it’s gonna get in the way of that.

but walburga is impressed in a small way. regulus is the one feeding her information on her (which i find funny), and marls comes across, to her, as an unapologetic witch. she is who she is and wont make concessions to make other people like her more. much like her. but she thinks she’s misguided. she could be exactly the right girl to straighten up his son, even if she isn’t , say, a greengrass, but more likely than not, she’ll be his ruin (in her eyes). also she’s blonde and i hc walburga loathing the malfoys and by association anything that reminds her of them even in the slightest way. it would be a curse for the next black heir to be blonde.

about regulus marls thinks he’s young and naive. she sees the way sirius gaze follows him around in school, specially when he starts hanging around mulciber and that sort of crowd. regulus naively thinks maybe marls would be the one the bring his brother back to him and his family, which is why he talks walburga about it.

she’s not surprised they finally disowned him. she is, however, taken aback by alphard leaving him his money. again there’s that struggle that somewhere in the family there’s actually care and concern about sirius, but they’re are too caught up in their own prejudices and stupid beliefs to be able to show up properly for their son/nephew and in someway that might be reciprocated by sirius, even if he don’t want to. you could also say that his prejudices to blood supremacist steams from his relationship with his family and it’s the reason he can’t look pass it when he thinks of them, even if he related to them as family and smart and talented humans in the first place.

during war times she’s concern how the family dynamics would translate in battle. again, she knows bellatrix to be powerfull and she knows sirius to be reckless, he becomes even more so after regulus death, which he keeps downplaying and telling her it didn’t affected him (showing that he cared, at the very least, for his brother, if not the rest of them).

all in all, she’s constantly torn between her desire for sirius to have a loving and supportive family and the implications of it and the way he turn up to be such a loyal and talented defender of what’s right despite them pushing him otherwise.

in the end, marlene knows the only way for sirius to thrive it’s to cut them out completely and is grateful for the existence of james potter, and eventually lily and harry too. while she loves her family and could never properly grasp how sirius felt towards his, she’s so glad he gets to experiment some resemble of family dynamics with his best friends.

adult blackinnon just hits different, you know?

this is all @astracoreiisblog’s fault with the idea of blackinnon adopting a little kid (see here)

but can’t stop thinking of sirius teaching harry all kind of spells and sharing his more crazy pranks despite lily/remus/regulus (who ever is the most sensible in this scenario) telling him it’s a bad idea, harry is too young, but sirius is like: what’s the matter? i knew all of it when i was his age and turned out fine (again, debatable from regulus perspective).

then suddenly harry is teaching his kid all of that stuff and it bites him in the ass. doesn’t matter if harry is younger or older, works either way.

sirius: you know, you could help me sort this stuff out?

marls: oh why would i when it’s so much fun watching you struggle

sirius: you’re a cruel woman

marls: and you are smart man, you’ll figure it out. just keep your wand out of her reach.

james potter ran out to pull severus snape from the shrieking shack with one tought in mind: remus lupin.

because he didn’t believe remus should be held accountable for what might happen if he is too late to protect him but it’s fully aware that he will be.

i like to think we all have trouble fan casting sirius black because we all agree he is too perfect to be real.

"Mary is irrelevant—" as if she wasn't part of the reason Snape and Lily broke up....

R.A.B. ✧

some blackinnon headcanons

- they don’t use terms of endearment on each other. i believe sirius use them in a sardonic way, like if he calls you “darling” you are in trouble for sure. for marls, she’s the type to call little kids “sweetheart” when they come up to her with their troubles.

- sirius call her mckinnon most of the time in front of others o public situations and marlene/marls in private o delicate situations. for marlene is sirius most of the time, unless she’s trying to make a point, then she calls him black.

- marlene is not as confident as sirius but knows how to play at her strengths. quidditch it’s a big thing for her during school, but later on it’s also incantations so she is very good at certain types of magic. she’s particularly good at conjuring shielding charms. i like to think of it as a projection of her own heart.

- that last one also plays a part when sirius thinks of her after finding out she died. he can’t help but think if it were any other curse but the killing one, she might’ve survived.

- in general, marls has a bit of trouble with defense magic. she can protect and deflect easily, but attacks are more difficult for her. it’s not until she’s confronted with DE attacking people in front of her that she gets better at it. she’s better at doing things for others than herself in that sense (then again, marlene might’ve died protecting her parents or brothers).

- sirius is good at everything as we know, he’s annoying like that.

- marlene is really tall for a girl, almost the same height as most boys which is annoying cause she likes taller guys. enters: sirius black, annoyingly tall for everyone except for marlene.

- marlene doesn’t looks like it, but sirius is often times amaze at how strong she is. she doesn’t hold back either, how else could she be a good beater otherwise? also, has impecable aim.

- marlene gets better at healing charms, potentially even considering becoming a healer. not because she wants to, but because someone has to. it also has to do with the fact that sirius doesn’t particularly care for his own injuries, doesn’t seem to grasp the concept of being unable to defend anyone properly unless he’s in top shape. honestly marls doesn’t care either, so sirius has to learn a few charms to heal her too in the end. it’s the only way they allow for it to happen, by way of taking care of each other.

- sirius was the first to realize they were something worthwhile. he’s not really the type of guy to pour his heart out, but at some point he does ‘cause his running out of ways of showing marlene he’s not going anywhere. probably the most frightening thing he ever did in that regard.

- marlene is not exactly the prettiest girl in school, but she’s the type of girl annoyingly label as “one of the guys” except said guys actually wants to go out with her. it’s more her vibe than anything else.

- visually they are the complete opposite: dark/light hair/eyes, sharp/soft features (i have a whole stupid canon of the blacks actually being black that could also work here, but i’ll keep it that way for now) also marlene hair is long when sirius is short and vice verse.

- marls doesn’t like to read much and sirius doesn’t nap often, but on the rare occasions that happens, sirius lays on her chest and marls read above his head.

- they both get kinda lost without a sense of purpose so whenever they feel the other may be as risk of spiraling, they come up with crazy plans or invent something they need the help of the other. they know is a lie, but play along anyway. it helps.

this it’s freakin insane, i swear the other day i was thinking of sirius as an unspeakable and here you are with unspeakables blackinnon like wtf??! and yes they are the most dependable out of all their friends (guess being childless comes in handy sometimes lol)

looooove remus as writer! and ofc gilderoy gifted her with a sign copy 😂

and no, they couldn’t fckn leave her! she sound so adorable 🥰

also i don’t know why when i read warless my stupid brain went: oh apocalyptic! and i now thanks to that i can’t stop thinking of blackinnon caring for every small kid they find along the way to the point it looks like they running an orphanage and all of their friends being like: i thought you didn’t want kids and them being so offended by it, as if they didn’t love all their friends kids as their own or were heartless enough to leave poor innocent children fending for themselves (i mean ofc all their friend would be on board with caring for the kids, it was just a comment on passing but marlene took it to heart).

for the love of me, i cannot imagine marlene and sirius with kids. it fits neither of them imo. they're good with kids, it's not like they don't like them. i just think they wouldn't want one. but in some of my aus, either modern au, warless au, or both live in the canon world, i can see them adopting this specif girl (i will insert pic) and i have so many variants and stories on how they meet her. and she's so fun, sassy, full of love, and their parenting method (?) is treating her like an adult. not with the responsibility, more like treating her as an equal? she calls marlene "lena" or "mum" and she is calls sirius "prongs" or "dad"

sometimes you write things for the plot, the drama, the twist. other times you write because you need someone to do it.

the reason i hc blackinnon, but specifically marlene, dealing with a miscarriage fully aware of how sensitive of a matter it is:

we often hear from women who actively want to become mothers dealing with this situation and it’s a heartbreaking one. no matter who you are, it’s shakes you from every fundamental pillar in your life. in a way, it feels like biology failed you o you fail at it. and in hurst like hell and you get discourage and you go through the motions and you mourn whatever it is you have to mourn (that would depend on your beliefs).

but i don’t think we talk enough about the women who find themselves in that situation and go through the same emotions but, at the end of it, they find relief that it hadn’t happen. women who only in that moment come to the realization that they don’t want to become mothers.

conflicting emotions can and often times coincides within the spam of a singular situation. and frequently women who go through that don’t speak up out of respect for the others. and that can bring shame. shame that you dare to be grateful for such an unfortunate situation because we are expected to only share and live in the sadness of it.

i could talk about how the situation reflects on blackinnon, but my whole views on in it, much like any other person who ships any pair or likes any character, it’s than it can be a good outlet to shine a light on something that often times goes unnoticed.

i’m sorry if this post come across as insensitive to anyone, but it’s hard for me to be as eloquent as i would like to be in anything other than my native language, which isn’t english.

would love to read those stories!!!

i agree with kids not fitting with them, if they are not together i can see them being wonderful step-parents, although the option of a miscarriage as to reinforce (more on the reader than in them)/confronts them with the notion that it’s enough with the two of them, like yes, there are families that actually aspire to be that small!! they have other dreams!! plus marlene has her own family and sirius has the potters, they are happy and content as they are and little kids would love to hear from them! imagine blackinnon telling little harry what adventures they get up to, little harry would probably want to grow up to be like them 😂

for the love of me, i cannot imagine marlene and sirius with kids. it fits neither of them imo. they're good with kids, it's not like they don't like them. i just think they wouldn't want one. but in some of my aus, either modern au, warless au, or both live in the canon world, i can see them adopting this specif girl (i will insert pic) and i have so many variants and stories on how they meet her. and she's so fun, sassy, full of love, and their parenting method (?) is treating her like an adult. not with the responsibility, more like treating her as an equal? she calls marlene "lena" or "mum" and she is calls sirius "prongs" or "dad"

i have fully lost myself in this fantasy because i can’t stop thinking of blackinnon doing an intensely passionate and explosive choreography during a time they have not yet realized how they feel about each other or maybe in the throes of denial and finishing the whole thing breathlessly near each other like ughhh.

i have watched too many videos.

(also can’t stop thinking that i view blackinnon as dancers and jily more like figure skaters, like the whole visual contrast of breaking down moves or fully stopping at times to the continuous flow of the ice?? honestly it’s a visual thing for me that differentiates so good those two pairs)

i’ve been consuming too much ballet series/films/videos to the point i’m like crap, i need to write the whole thing know.

specially when i come across moments where i think that’s so blackinnon/marlene/sirius coded 🫠

when ppl say James is oblivious to someone flirting but I know him for the cocky shit he is who thinks everyone is flirting with him.

i’ve been consuming too much ballet series/films/videos to the point i’m like crap, i need to write the whole thing know.

specially when i come across moments where i think that’s so blackinnon/marlene/sirius coded 🫠

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Sirius isn't an attention seeker, he's an attention atttractor, he does not have to do anything to get attention, c'mon guys, get it right 🙄

this suits them so well (i’m definitely thinking band au here 😂)

marlene mckinnon and sirius black adrenaline junkies.

having sirius not liking lucius malfoy after this is just too funny to me.

i hc walburga disliking the malfoys. the only other family that is socially considered their equals. but she knows how they managed to establish themselves in wizarding society, particularly in regards to money and properties, doing business with dirty muggles.

it wasn’t arranged but there was an understanding that the two families would be brought closer in the form of an union between walburga and abraxas, but she’d rather died before letting that happens.

she does everything in her power to let abraxas know exactly how she feels about him.

in the end, when the blacks and the malfoys finally merged, she felt that narcissa got handed the short end of the stick.

i hc walburga disliking the malfoys. the only other family that is socially considered their equals. but she knows how they managed to establish themselves in wizarding society, particularly in regards to money and properties, doing business with dirty muggles.

it wasn’t arranged but there was an understanding that the two families would be brought closer in the form of an union between walburga and abraxas, but she’d rather died before letting that happens.

she does everything in her power to let abraxas know exactly how she feels about him.

in the end, when the blacks and the malfoys finally merged, she felt that narcissa got handed the short end of the stick.

Hi! I’ve been reading some “Sirius Lives” AUs lately and they got me thinking about how his response to trauma is characterized in canon/fanon.

From what I’ve seen, Sirius in fanon is generally portrayed as someone who finds it very difficult to recover from trauma and who takes a long time to adjust to life post-Azkaban or post-OotP (in AUs where he survives the book). A lot of it is based off his behaviour in OotP, where his depression persists across the year and includes “fits of sullens”, retreats to Buckbeak’s room, etc.

But I find it pretty ridiculous (not to mention unfair) when Sirius’s depression in OotP is used to generalize his “typical” behaviour + coping methods. Sirius can’t recover in Grimmauld Place, because being stuck in Grimmauld Place is exactly the source of his trauma in the first place – it’s the house itself which is a living trigger for him (literally, given his mother’s portrait and Kreacher). It’s like asking him to heal from Azkaban while still being imprisoned in Azkaban, or asking Harry to heal from his experience with the Dursleys while being actively stuck with the Dursleys at Privet Drive.

I think a better example of how Sirius copes with trauma is his state after PoA. He was in a human rights violation prison for twelve years after losing his best friends and being wrongly framed for murder. After he escaped, his year-long murder plot culminated in an explosive night where he was severely injured, nearly got the Dementor’s Kiss twice, had multiple emotionally charged interactions, and was then forced to flee for his life after losing his shot at freedom. That’s…terrifying to even think about, tbh.

And yet, in less than a month’s time, we see that Sirius had not only managed to successfully go into hiding with Buckbeak, he had also staged a sighting to draw security away from Hogwarts, updated himself on the wizarding world, and begun a “cheerful” correspondence with his godson. It’s also implied that he was enjoying himself in tropical paradise.

A few more months after that, this is how Harry describes him:

“Sirius looked different from Harry’s memory of him. When they had said good-bye, Sirius’s face had been gaunt and sunken, surrounded by a quantity of long, black, matted hair — but the hair was short and clean now, Sirius’s face was fuller, and he looked younger, much more like the only photograph Harry had of him, which had been taken at the Potters’ wedding.”

He seems to have been doing really well? It seems that Sirius was able to move on with his life very quickly and with relative ease. And this is despite the fact that he was a hunted fugitive who had to cope with the knowledge that almost the entire wizarding community hated him. He didn’t even seem to have had a wand.

Later on in the book, when Sirius comes back to Hogsmeade, he lives in a cave and has barely any human-to-human interactions (apart from the trio) for months. But again, he seems extraordinarily well-adjusted. He converses with the trio, sends Harry regular letters, gives him advice and comfort, etc.

I think fanon wants Sirius to be, or assume that he was, a lot more affected by Azkaban than he seems to have been in canon. He is absolutely haunted and embittered by it, anyone would be, but a major plot point in PoA that he is astonishingly functional despite it. (Even in prison, he’s described as “rational”, “bored”, “cool as you please”). So if he’d lived past OotP, I don’t think it would have taken Sirius much time at all to adjust to exoneration and a life outside Grimmauld Place – I actually think it would have been a pretty swift and smooth process for him. It's like how people assume he automatically wouldn't have been equipped to be a godfather to Harry because of trauma from Azkaban ... except we see in Goblet of Fire, despite being on the run and living in caves, he actually IS perfectly equipped for the role. It’s circumstances in OotP that are the main problem, not Sirius’s own personality/capabilities (and even then, he is the adult Harry trusts the most and goes to first).

The impression I get is that Sirius has an exceptional and almost surreal level of endurance (I mean, this is explicitly canon), as well as the ability to bounce back from trauma remarkably quickly. And if he’s like this after Azkaban of all places, I think his composure would have been even better as a teenager. I often see him characterized as acting/lashing out at Hogwarts or to his friends as a response to family issues, but I really don’t think he’d do that at all. Even in Azkaban, he appears bored and unaffected by his predicament; in OotP, he retreats to the room with Buckbeak. Which doesn’t mean that people around him would be unaware of what he was going on (the wizarding community was clearly well-informed about each other, and the way Slughorn spoke of the Black family indicates that they were very well-known – I think their heir running away would been a major source of scandal/gossip), but I don’t think Sirius would seem outwardly affected by it. I see him acting cavalier/dismissive, maybe joking about it, either dealing with it privately and/or properly discussing it with only James, Remus, Peter, and later Lily. I also feel like sometimes there’s too much focus on Angst™ after his break from his family, but I mean…Sirius ran away from his abusive, prejudiced home, I think he would have felt a significant degree of relief/freedom/happiness as well, akin to Harry after he left the Dursleys.

Sorry, ik this got way too long, but what do you think??

thank you for the ask and for taking the time to write all this! no need to apologize :)

I think I at least partially agree with you in identifying the main source of Sirius's troubles in OOTP as being trapped in one of the main sources of his trauma, and in seeing him as someone who has a lot of endurance and resilience. And I think the idea that he's too affected by Azkaban to raise Harry is wrong-headed. Like, come on, he's clearly the best person for the job. I also think he can sometimes be shown as too outwardly affected by running away or whatever in marauders era fics--I think he tends to bottle things up, so I can see him lashing out when it finally gets too much. And he deflects a lot and acts like he's fine. He's not going to be having deep emotional heart to hearts, I don't think. Also you didn't mention this but one thing that stands out is that he's really not super angry about his wrongful imprisonment, and doesn't blame Remus or Dumbledore or anyone who might have prevented it, though I think he would bring up the 'remus you left me in azkaban' card when trying to wound him in an argument, but doesn't actually believe that. I think Sirius doesn't get too upset at injustices done to himself in general, he gets upset at wrongs done to other people. I do think that he would be--and is--affected by Azkaban, he just doesn't show it in 'obvious' ways. I think Sirius copes best when he has a goal to focus on. in fact, that's how he copes: finding something to focus on--he'd probably do this after running away, too, for instance maybe it's fixing up the motorbike. So in POA his goal is to capture Peter. And he's extremely single-minded in that to the point where his judgement isn't great, which is where I see Azkaban shining through--the knife incident wasn't a great idea and ended up counterproductive, or injuring Ron to get to Peter. I also think that at this point Sirius didn't have much to live for, thinking Harry hated him, and so didn't care what risks he had to take to get the task done.A and then the Srieing Shack happens, and now he has a new goal and hope for the future which he didn't have before, and so he focuses on raising Harry and avoiding arrest and he's doing a lot better with a purpose that doesn't end with someone (and probably himself too) dead. And then OOTP comes and he loses his purpose because he feels like he can't do anything for Harry and he can't do anything for the war, and also he's stuck in Grimmauld, and everything he's been pushing down comes back with a vengeance since his coping mechanism of focusing on something concrete he can do and staying active is no longer possible, and so he turns to other coping mechanisms (like alcohol).

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