late millennial. multishipper reader. exclusively blackinnon writer (atm). sp/en.
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i don’t trust ai because arthur weasley told me to never trust anything that can think for itself if you can’t see where it keeps its brain
when remus says that sirius always got the women, i have always read it as someone who was simultaneously amused by it and personally wronged by it, not on purpose ofc, but like maybe there was a girl he liked that had a major crush on sirius, the friend he loves but couldn’t help but feel he always had it way easier than him on lots of things.
the whole prank situation to me didn’t change significantly the marauders dynamic, but i do think it played a role in snape worst memory where we see remus getting uncomfortable with the whole situation. so there might be something in there that steams from the prank (so for me yeah, there’s is an after the prank but that’s not the point here).
back to the prank:
remus probably wrestled every month with the guilt of him turning into a dark and dangerous creature and what it would mean if he got loose near some many wizards. so him confronting the idea that he could have killed snape wasn’t news to him. if anything proved that snape it’s utterly stupid ‘cause what do you mean you got directions to confirm your long held suspicion of one of your classmates being a werewolve, something your completely sure at that point, and you still went to find him during a full moon? what, did snape expected to be the first wizard ever to tame a werewolve?? did he seriously didn’t get the fucking joke???
if anything, remus is more shaken up about james. and james it’s a little too (but not for long) because it’s implied that he got face to face with remus in his werewolve form fully aware of the risks and he didn’t fucking knew if he was getting away alive out of it (or maybe i’m being dramatic and he just pulled severus out of the tunnel lol like honestly how hard does one have to try to earn a medal for services to the school, riddle only told on hagrid, it wasn’t like he was actively saving a student).
anyway, whatever james did, he did it to protect remus, not snape or even sirius, who might have gotten into trouble as well and as we all know, he’s no stranger to getting detention.
also, did severus honestly thought he was the only one in the whole school to be aware of the situation??? are you fucking kidding me??? your suppose to be smart.
so no, that particular moment didn’t put any strain into remus relationships with his friends, not even sirius.
i mean, are we forgetting that snape tried to out remus during PoA and even then remus took the piss on him with the whole map situation?? my man doesn’t care about snape’s feelings. he’s a marauder.
i have this au in my mind where marlene and sirius break up and marls is desperate to get rid of the feeling of sirius on her body.
she needs to physically move on, so she starts dating. and while she doesn’t sleep with every guy she goes out with, that’s her main intention.
so she hooks up with the guy who’s a bad kisser and she knows it’s gonna be bad in the sack and he is, but it’s fine because at least is not sirius.
then she goes out with the guy who only fucks her and doesn’t care for her at all and again, it’s fine, because is not sirius.
then she manages to find a more stable partner over time that’s sort of good but not really and it’s fine anyway, because is not sirius.
but then, she goes with a guy with whom she finally opens up about. they talk for hours before jumping in bed and it’s going well enough, until she realizes it feels too familiar, too comfortable, too achingly tender and she can’t quite shake the feeling off. so when it ends, she can’t get away from the guy and the situation fast enough.
and suddenly she feels grief for the first time because either she’ll never feel anything good again in her life or else she will be forever haunted by the memory of sirius mark on her when she finally does.
James didn't mature for Lily It's too overused and melodramatic the way everyone says he grew up for her. War was raging outside of Hogwarts by the time he was at least 14-15 and became more prominent when he was 16-17. His parents dying was when he was around 17-18-19, and they might've gotten drastically sick and admitted to St. Mungos when James was still in Hogwarts. There was also a war going on, traitors and death eaters everywhere, along with choosing to support Remus financially and Sirius running away. I hate when people go 'he-matured-for-a-girl-who-barley-tolerated-him'. I also hate when people, anyone, says James constantly harassed her, stalked her and asked her out. That. Is. Not. Canon. Dating Lily probably wasn't even one of James' thoughts, so there's no way he would change most of his public personality just for her.
Head Girl and Head Boy, November 11, 1978.
there’s definitely infinite scenarios depending on so many things, but yeah, they do part ways and they do find their way back to each other.
now, how long that last? lets say marlene lives long enough only to lose sirius through the veil and we’re back at square one: fucking doomed 🫠
there is no escaping the curse.
I have so many favorite hc for blackinnon, but my all-time favorite is Sirius having a bad feeling the night Marlene dies and telling her not to go home, to spend the night in his house, to stay together-- but Marlene thinks he is being paranoid and goes to visit her home, and ends up dying there with her family. I just love the idea that Sirius lives with the regret that only if he insisted more, maybe that wouldn't have happened.
uhhh interesting, cause mostly i picture her surviving in a scenario where they win the war without losing the potters. but…
judging by the letter harry found in sirius bedroom, the mckinnon’s died near harry’s birthday. so between their death and the potters are only a few month apart and in war times there’s no much time to stop and grieve. they are only allow to feel everything and actually process what happened, what they lost, after voldemort gets wiped out.
100% marlene wouldn’t have let sirius do anything stupid. at best she saves him, at worst she joins him. she’s the witness that saves him from imprisonment (she turns to dumbledore who turn to the minister blablabla he gets a fair trial, they win).
so while they trying to help each other in their griefs, because they are so young and haven’t have enough time and space to breath, i don’t think they had fully figured out every aspects of their relationship, meaning they might no be solid enough for them to endure what it means losing everything they once cared of. harry, despite everything, still goes with the durleys for his own protection.
so yeah, i think their worst character traits come to play and they cannot reconcile who they are as individuals let alone as a couple. they care for each other, ofc. in the end i think it their only option if they ever aspired to keep on each other lives.
there are certain things that you can only ever learn on your own. only distance can make understand what happened. they do evolve. they do manage to get their heads above water. and possibly reunite somewhere in the future, maybe with the whole thing of voldemort coming back, harry being in danger. he finally gets two people who knew his parents and are able to tell him all kind of stories he longed to hear.
harry, in the end, brings them together and this time, they make it.
I have so many favorite hc for blackinnon, but my all-time favorite is Sirius having a bad feeling the night Marlene dies and telling her not to go home, to spend the night in his house, to stay together-- but Marlene thinks he is being paranoid and goes to visit her home, and ends up dying there with her family. I just love the idea that Sirius lives with the regret that only if he insisted more, maybe that wouldn't have happened.
this is exactly why i think they would’ve have drifted apart if she would’ve survived. even best case scenario where sirius isn’t related to her not being with her family, sirius doesn’t fully get it. he might have mourn who his brother might’ve turn up to be in different circumstances after he died, but it’s not the same. it’s no enough to reach to marls in the depths of her grief. and it’s not their fault ughhh.
I have so many favorite hc for blackinnon, but my all-time favorite is Sirius having a bad feeling the night Marlene dies and telling her not to go home, to spend the night in his house, to stay together-- but Marlene thinks he is being paranoid and goes to visit her home, and ends up dying there with her family. I just love the idea that Sirius lives with the regret that only if he insisted more, maybe that wouldn't have happened.
i’m afraid those of us who like blackinnon have been cursed too
I have so many favorite hc for blackinnon, but my all-time favorite is Sirius having a bad feeling the night Marlene dies and telling her not to go home, to spend the night in his house, to stay together-- but Marlene thinks he is being paranoid and goes to visit her home, and ends up dying there with her family. I just love the idea that Sirius lives with the regret that only if he insisted more, maybe that wouldn't have happened.
omg waiiiit marlene mckinnon laughing her head off ‘cause no way it’s true what girls say about sirius black being a smooth talker when the poor guy only manages to give her half ass compliments that sound too brash to be intented as flirting.
sirius: i wish you could’ve come with us tonight
marlene: …
sirius: you’re so… easy
marlene: ah, just what any lady wants to hear
sirius panicking: no, that’s not… that’s not want i meant!
honestly i agree with everything.
all this fluff overload unlocked a scene i picture in my mind a while back. astra might get her fluffly one shot after all (though i’ll have to work hard not to turn into angst cause that’s my weakness 😬)
Sirius will literally have his hand in Marlene's back pocket at all times. They're standing casually talking to their friends and he slips his hand into the pocket of her jeans. He's standing so close to her that nobody notices he's doing it. It's simutaneously the most innocent and most erotic thing
also BONUS: when they finally figure things out is so easy for them to merge their life together, they don’t even have to question it. ofc both of them wanted to travel the world in sirius’ bike and try every extreme muggle sport possible.
people saying blackinnon won’t work because they too similar without realizing what that involves. here’s the person that holds the key to turn you into the best version of yourself meanwhile you fight against it so hard. you think you’re fighting them but actually your fighting yourself and no matter how complicated or toxic it might feel at times, the person your yelling at it’s the same person that won’t disappear on you cause they see you. they see the real you under all the layers and yet they also love of your flaws. and by loving them they get to love themselves. they start to believe there might actually be a place in the world they belong to. they’re not lost, they’re not a disgrace (ahem sirius black im looking at you). someone loves you so hard that they stay, for as long as it takes, for you to realize you’re already worth something.
situationships for grown ass adults 100% toxic behavior, get your shit together people.
situationships for teenagers kinda expected to be honest. most of the time we learn by making mistakes and hurting other people, whether we meant to or not.
people saying blackinnon won’t work because they too similar without realizing what that involves. here’s the person that holds the key to turn you into the best version of yourself meanwhile you fight against it so hard. you think you’re fighting them but actually your fighting yourself and no matter how complicated or toxic it might feel at times, the person your yelling at it’s the same person that won’t disappear on you cause they see you. they see the real you under all the layers and yet they also love all of your flaws. and by loving them they get to love themselves. they start to believe there might actually be a place in the world they belong to. they’re not lost, they’re not a disgrace (ahem sirius black im looking at you). someone loves you so hard that they stay, for as long as it takes, for you to realize you’re already worth something.
starting to feel like blackinnon love child at this point cause the lack of awareness yet the easy nature of it all, the obviousness and the playing it down games, the sneaking up on them both, the way they mirror each other that every time they tell something that infuriates them about the other they might as well be yelling at their own reflection but also believing in each other so hard in a way they don’t even believe in themselves and the angst of neither of them ever expecting to lose each other in such a tragic way despite all the deaths and disappearances going on around them. ugh, i need to lay down.
STOP IT YOU TWO WITH THE FLUFF IM GOING TO EXPLODE.
also the hair tie thing, marlene gave it to him one time and he never takes it off cause it’s smells like her (always makes sure she return it to him after using it).
Sirius will literally have his hand in Marlene's back pocket at all times. They're standing casually talking to their friends and he slips his hand into the pocket of her jeans. He's standing so close to her that nobody notices he's doing it. It's simutaneously the most innocent and most erotic thing
omg unlocked memory turn hd canon now but marlene trying to play it down, selling really hard the fact that they’re “mates”, it’s cool and sirius thinking du fuck? but also, right, no big deal while simultaneously freaking out in the inside because what does it mean?? cut to the moment they start going out and marlene having the audacity to be surprise they ended up together meanwhile sirius was tryin to be so smooth about the whole situation as not to spook her. marlene was three month in when she realized the whole castle knew they were a thing and somehow she was the last to notice. (ofc everyone knew, they were always touching each other tenderly/or aggressively depending on the mood).
Sirius and Marlene's first time having sex would make them stay in bed for a full 30 minutes, out of breath, glaring at the ceiling, bc neither of them could process that it actually happened.
sirius is either really confident/very good at pretending/or doesn’t care enough for other people’s opinions so i think it’s very funny if it’s marlene the only person to ever make him act awkward. specially at blackinnon early stages.
okay but let’s consider for a moment it went BAD. seth cohen/summer robberts first time kinda bad. so they keep hooking up until they get to know each other so well, they basically are able to read each others minds. they went from staring at the ceiling in horror afraid to let the other one know they thought it sucked to them going at it non-stop.
Sirius and Marlene's first time having sex would make them stay in bed for a full 30 minutes, out of breath, glaring at the ceiling, bc neither of them could process that it actually happened.
okay so i looked into it and supposedly she and walburga were born the same year, meaning they could’ve been house mates/class mates. what happened dude? were they both rebels? did ignatius held strong pureblood beliefs unlike his nephews and possibly brother? were walburga and lucretia friends???
okay i’m sorry but why the fuck no one ever talks about lucretia black??? like she married into the prewett family, a well respected pureblood family of which we know nothing about except for fabian and gideon involvement in the order and molly marrying into a well known blood traitor family: the weasleys.
at which point in history the prewett turned blood traitors too???
like was she rebelling because they were already consider that and she loved ignatius anyway? was an arranged marriage?? did her family turn her back on her immediately? during the war? like what happened???? and how did it shape orion’s views on the world, marriage and what he wanted for himself? and the rest of her cousins? she wasn’t erased from the family tree SO WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED? 🙃
okay i’m sorry but why the fuck no one ever talks about lucretia black??? like she married into the prewett family, a well respected pureblood family of which we know nothing about except for fabian and gideon involvement in the order and molly marrying into a well known blood traitor family: the weasleys.
at which point in history the prewett turned blood traitors too???
like was she rebelling because they were already consider that and she loved ignatius anyway? was an arranged marriage?? did her family turn her back on her immediately? during the war? like what happened???? and how did it shape orion’s views on the world, marriage and what he wanted for himself? and the rest of her cousins? she wasn’t erased from the family tree SO WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED? 🙃
marlene mckinnon is the type of girl when anyone compliments her, she just agrees with them.
sirius finds that in itself insanely sexy.
Can I have some blackinnon headcanons😔
sure you can! i love thinking of those two 💓
these are a few of the top of my head:
- they have similar stories for their first kiss. marls went to a party with some of mary’s muggle friends and got to play spin the bottle. james and sirius went exploring the underground one summer and ended up in a very family oriented neighborhood and crashed a birthday party. sirius kissed the birthday girl, ofc. he then got banned from visiting the potters.
- somewhere in fourth year marls kiss sirius, caught him off guard. she just wanted to know what all the fuss was about. things didn’t change much after that.
- fifth year last day of school both marls and sirius have gone through a lot (the prank, marls got into a horrible fight lily, the whole war situation getting worse) so they hook up as means to distract themselves. surely nothing would change right? WRONG.
- cut to the hogwarts express getting back to hogwarts starting sixth year and they both get all so awkward when they bump into each other. it’s embarrassing.
- marlene wrote a few times to sirius over the summer before second and third year. nothing major, nothing relevant. except for the fact those were the only letters walburga allowed for sirius to receive and respond to (aside from peter’s). sirius thinks he secretly did, but walburga knew.
- sirius showed marls around muggle london the summer before seventh year when he went to live on his own. they were together when he bought his infamous leather jacket (secondhand as the leather is always best).
- at some point during the war when things gets worse and it might seem like they will actually lose, sirius implied a proposal to marls. he never actually said the words. they were drunk (i wrote about it i think). anyway, sirius himself diss missed it as “never mind, im drunk, i’m might die soon anyway”.
- marls couldn’t stop thinking about it and hated sirius for putting the idea in her head. she had never thought about marriage, not even after lily and james married, but it’s sirius, after all. she ends up dying instead.
- this one is sad (well, even more so). i think at some point marls had a miscarriage. again, never thought about kids and i personally don’t see blackinnon as parents ever (i project way too hard onto them im afraid), but she never tells sirius about it until they found out lily’s pregnant. marls thinks it’s an horrible idea to have a kid during a war. sirius thinks it’s fine, they’re in love, it’s meant to happen. marls crumbles right there and then after picking a fight over it with sirius.
- padfoot visited marls grave way more often that he’ll care to admit.
didn’t mean to get so depressing but it’s the angst of it all that does it for me 💔
Ok, so I lied. Yup. Couldn't wait a whole week 'cause I'm unable to fully concentrate on writing the next chapters if I'm constantly picking and editing the previous one when I know, in my heart, they're ready.
The first two chapters are really short and are a bit like a teaser anyway. You can read them both here.
Y para las lectoras hispano hablantes, estaré publicando la versión en español más tarde durante el día. Intentaré actualizarla al mismo tiempo, pero es posible que en el futuro me desfase por todo el tema de posibles bromas o apodos que tenga que reajustar para coincidir con la versión en inglés.
And that's all I have to say for now, other than I hope I manage to capture your attention ;)
walburga would be caught dead before anyone ever accused her of praising a dark lord that turns out to be half-blood. the black family doesn’t have to prove themselves to anyone, they’re already well established in society. anyone knows them and knows what they stand for. sure, they share the ideas voldemort is trying to push into his followers for a new order of the world, but wouldn’t stood so low as to worship him. they’re loyal to themselves and themselves only.
but orion and walburga expected regulus to become a death eater. no they fucking didn’t. they expected, specially after what’s going on with sirius, for him to get an education, find a respectable wife, settle down, produce the next black heir and run the family business (whatever that is). regulus, meanwhile, landed in slytherin during a time all of his house mates, specially older ones, not to mention his own older cousin, are talking and praising the dark lord and how he’s gonna reward those who stand close to him. it’s a youth thing. it’s what everyone in his little bubble wants to become: a high ranking follower. and who could be higher than a black? also everyone is talking about how sirius turned out to be a big disgrace and although for their parents it’s enough with just disowning him, regulus thinks surely if i join the ranks of voldemort i could fix what my idiot brother broke, right? cause also they both think the other one it’s the idiot. the traitor.
later on regulus realizes the dark lord doesn’t care for the blacks and families like his and what they represent. but by then it’s too late and he does what he can before he dies.