I think I was meant to feel like this trip was in my control , like if I had any idea of what I was doing but I just get so disassociated from everything. Nothing felt in my control other than my mind and that’s the last place I’d rather be . I hate being the subject of a fantasy I’m not aware of , I hate when people expect me to feel or react a certain way . I hate when I don’t feel the way I expect to feel. It’s just all wrong , and the worst thing is…even going to that beautiful country I still feel terrible and I doubt it changed my life . It was just a reminder , everything is just a reminder
Everything is a reminder , you’re a disappointment, you’re an embarrassment, you’re a watcher , you’re an angel - Sadly still Sænger
Maybe a great way to finish this horrible break, but I just can’t find a way to see how good some things are. I’ve thought about the easy way to finish it all, a lot.
Food was good and the charcuterie board was perfect, water was cold and my nose crying as I was too. -S
I once thought learning how to play chess was impossible, little did I know a child would teach me years after
This picture was taken two weeks ago, it was the start of a hell of a journey. -S
Actually cannot stop watching this
He took me to my first concert ever. Everything was so nice, I can still feel the joy of watching Lorde live. I felt relieved without my mother’s concerns behind and the awful deadlines.
Feeling sad and hopeless after that day was already written, I just felt worse knowing I had lived nothing in my life, nothing interesting to share nor to brag. - S
Thinking about ending my life , but I can’t leave my cat alone
Halloween, Halloweenie, Bestieween …
Whatever you call it , it feels like Christmas to me.
Hello mutuals! Nice to meet you all , how do I look?
I think I have never cried that much with a movie since Everything Everywhere All At Once , I’m so serious Guardians of the Galaxy is an emotional roller coaster and that is the straightest thing I have ever said haha
This weekend was great, I almost forgot how bad I felt a month ago but I’m still fighting with the idea of being alone sometimes -S
I just had one of the lamest Sundays ever and all I want to do is to go back in time one month ago and enjoy my favorite trip ever . And tbh I had the greatest sea food I have ever eaten in my entire life.
And as a note, we crossed the entire city by bike. My semi beach body suffered but my stomach stood still
- S
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