Thinking About Ending My Life , But I Can’t Leave My Cat Alone

I told my mom getting another dog was a bad idea, well she didn’t listen which is not surprising. I love this ball of fat though. He’s so naughty yet so cute

I feel that the only thing keeping me from running away from this house is how much I’d miss them - S

Saturdays have a special meaning to me, they used to feel empty, so dark and hollow I never thought someone would fill it with so much joy and love.

He would tell you he is not perfect or talented, obviously it is not the case. He is that and so much more. Trust the process, your masterpiece awaits -S

So …what do I expect from now on. Honestly I think I should not leave the idea of being alone behind. I should not underestimate the power of being alone. I should have my own plans and my own way to success . As corny as it sounds I should do my stuff and leave whatever the world plans to do alone, they’re doing better alone away from me . I’m not mad of being left alone in a horrible city , I had no choice and it was for the better and I was tired and didn’t want to be a Man®️ and ruin someone else’s dreams again. Just let go and let me complain about my own misery and accept my shortcomings as all I have to offer

I’m still waiting for a reply, I hate when people travel they’re so annoying. Would it kill you to just talk about a movie or a show you watched and how that made you realize some deep stuff? - angry Sænger

Maybe a great way to finish this horrible break, but I just can’t find a way to see how good some things are. I’ve thought about the easy way to finish it all, a lot.

Food was good and the charcuterie board was perfect, water was cold and my nose crying as I was too. -S

I think I was meant to feel like this trip was in my control , like if I had any idea of what I was doing but I just get so disassociated from everything. Nothing felt in my control other than my mind and that’s the last place I’d rather be . I hate being the subject of a fantasy I’m not aware of , I hate when people expect me to feel or react a certain way . I hate when I don’t feel the way I expect to feel. It’s just all wrong , and the worst thing is…even going to that beautiful country I still feel terrible and I doubt it changed my life . It was just a reminder , everything is just a reminder

Everything is a reminder , you’re a disappointment, you’re an embarrassment, you’re a watcher , you’re an angel - Sadly still Sænger

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