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womanhood and the inherent tragedy of it

I hate how the booktokification of the “unhinged woman” genre has completely reduced the concept of female rage to just “girlboss” without taking seriously how important it is to unequivocally portray female rage.

Throughout the history of literature, we’ve been given countless instances of women in despair and in sadness but save for a few writers (take Euripides, for example), we’ve rarely ever been given angry women who aren’t the villains or the foil for the perfect poised passive princess. Female rage has constantly been subdued and erased or warped into “she’s just batshit crazy” in pretty much every society.

And now that publishing and media marketing has reduced women showing rage in books to the “white hypersexual girlboss with a knife”, instead of uplifting the way women are allowed to have more dimension and sympathy in their visible anger than ever in literature, the media still isn’t taking this subgenre seriously.

The Tragedy of the Monster Lady

1. Ocean Vuong | 2. love Slowly Kills by Adrian Borda | 3. Anne Carson, from “The Fall of Rome: A Traveller’s Guide.” | 4. Julia Ducournau & Agathe Rousselle Talk ‘Titane’ And Violent Women In Cinema | 5. Monster (1994-2001) Naoki Urasawa | 6. Thus Spoke Zarathustra - Friedrich Nietzsche | 7. Mary Shelley ― Frankenstein; or, The Modern Prometheus | 8. Henry Miller, from a letter to Anaïs Nin, featured in "A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953″ | 9. William Shakespeare — Macbeth | 10. Henry Miller, from a letter to Anaïs Nin, featured in “A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953″ | 11. "Vesuvius" Amber Spark | 12. “The Forbidden Wish" Jessica Khoury | 13. Faster, Pussycat! Kill! Kill! (Russ Meyer, 1965) | 14. "11/11" Devi Mccallion | 15. Mahtem Shiferraw, Fuschia | 16. Rick Yancey, The Curse of the Wendigo | 17. Kristin Cashore, Graceling | 18. killer, pheobe bridgers | 19. Marie Howe, “After the Movie” | 20. La Faim by Félix Labisse | 21. Alberto Moravia, The Woman of Rome | 22. martha gellhorn, selected letters | 23. raw (2016) | 24. David Foster Wallace, Infinite Jest | 25. Lily Chatterjee (attrib.) | 26. The Dark Knight (2008) dir. Christopher Nolan | 27. Joey Comeau, A Softer World (#642) | 28. Cormac McCarthy, All the Pretty Horses | 29. carmen maria machado, in the dream house | 30. nicole lyons | 31. wintersong, s. jae-jones | 32. nicole homer, “underbelly” | 33. Only Angels Have Wings, Nicole Dollangange | 34. Carol Ann Duffy, Medusa | 35. Khalil Gibran | 36. ocean vuong | 37. Ice Nine Kills, The Nature of the Beast | 38. Octavio Paz, tr. by Elizabeth Bishop, The Collected Poems, 1957-1987 | 39. Rabindranath Tagore (1861 - 1941) | 40.Adrienne Rich, from Diving into the Wreck; “The phenomenology of anger” | 41. Franz Wright, from his collection God’s Silence | 42. Euripides, Medea | 43. Journal of Katherine Mansfield - Katherine Mansfield. | 44. the archer by taylor swift | 45. Kingdom Animalia by Aracelis Girmay (2011) | 46. Toni Morrison, Sula | 47. "As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks" by Susan Sontag | 48. Björk - Bachelorette

The Tragedy of the Monster Lady

1. Ocean Vuong | 2. love Slowly Kills by Adrian Borda | 3. Anne Carson, from “The Fall of Rome: A Traveller’s Guide.” | 4. Julia Ducournau & Agathe Rousselle Talk ‘Titane’ And Violent Women In Cinema | 5. Monster (1994-2001) Naoki Urasawa | 6. Thus Spoke Zarathustra - Friedrich Nietzsche | 7. Mary Shelley ― Frankenstein; or, The Modern Prometheus | 8. Henry Miller, from a letter to Anaïs Nin, featured in "A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953″ | 9. William Shakespeare — Macbeth | 10. Henry Miller, from a letter to Anaïs Nin, featured in “A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953″ | 11. "Vesuvius" Amber Spark | 12. “The Forbidden Wish" Jessica Khoury | 13. Faster, Pussycat! Kill! Kill! (Russ Meyer, 1965) | 14. "11/11" Devi Mccallion | 15. Mahtem Shiferraw, Fuschia | 16. Rick Yancey, The Curse of the Wendigo | 17. Kristin Cashore, Graceling | 18. killer, pheobe bridgers | 19. Marie Howe, “After the Movie” | 20. La Faim by Félix Labisse | 21. Alberto Moravia, The Woman of Rome | 22. martha gellhorn, selected letters | 23. raw (2016) | 24. David Foster Wallace, Infinite Jest | 25. Lily Chatterjee (attrib.) | 26. The Dark Knight (2008) dir. Christopher Nolan | 27. Joey Comeau, A Softer World (#642) | 28. Cormac McCarthy, All the Pretty Horses | 29. carmen maria machado, in the dream house | 30. nicole lyons | 31. wintersong, s. jae-jones | 32. nicole homer, “underbelly” | 33. Only Angels Have Wings, Nicole Dollangange | 34. Carol Ann Duffy, Medusa | 35. Khalil Gibran | 36. ocean vuong | 37. Ice Nine Kills, The Nature of the Beast | 38. Octavio Paz, tr. by Elizabeth Bishop, The Collected Poems, 1957-1987 | 39. Rabindranath Tagore (1861 - 1941) | 40.Adrienne Rich, from Diving into the Wreck; “The phenomenology of anger” | 41. Franz Wright, from his collection God’s Silence | 42. Euripides, Medea | 43. Journal of Katherine Mansfield - Katherine Mansfield. | 44. the archer by taylor swift | 45. Kingdom Animalia by Aracelis Girmay (2011) | 46. Toni Morrison, Sula | 47. "As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks" by Susan Sontag | 48. Björk - Bachelorette

—female rage

? // medusa by caravaggio // gregory radionov // artemisia gentileschi // monstrous flesh: on women’s bodies in horror by rebecca harknis-cross // carrie (1976) // corruption by camille norton // midsommar (2019) // helen of troy does countertop dancing by margaret atwood // medusa in her throne by reza sedhi

Request: Queer love as something holy. Being alienated from religion and finding your own way of worship.

Jorge Luis Borges, The Meeting in a Dream

Taylor Swift, False God

Ziggy Marley, Love Is My Religion

Frank Ocean, Bad Religion

Stephen Adly Guirgis, The Last Days of Judas Iscariot

Jake Wesley Rogers, Jacob from the Bible

John Keats to Fanny Brawne, 13th October 1819

Cardi B ft. Megan Thee Stallion, WAP

Semler, Bethlehem

Wrabel, The Village

Tosca, Ho Amato Tutto

Madeline Miller, The Song of Achilles

Fall Out Boy, Church

Lord Alfred Douglas, Two Loves

Semler, Bethlehem

William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet

Lana del Rey, Tulsa Jesus Freak

Hozier, Take Me To Church

Mary Lambert, She Keeps Me Warm

Tyler Glenn, Midnight

Sappho (attrib.)

Wrabel, The Village

The Aces, Lovin’ Is Bible

Jake Wesley Rogers, Jacob from the Bible

Louis Tomlinson, Only The Brave

Lana del Rey, Religion

Richard Siken, Litany in Which Certain Things are Crossed Out

this beauty and blood defies god

"Vesuvius" Amber Sparks // Carrie (1976) // "The Forbidden Wish" Jessica Khoury // Ginger Snaps (2000) // "Feminine Incarnate" Alexa Thorn // Sharp Objects (2018) // Belladonna of Sadness (1973) // The Witch (2015) // "The Virgin Suicides" Jeffrey Eugenides

Psyche Revived by Cupid’s Kiss by Antonio Canova

by Sappho

Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out by Richard Siken

To Fanny Brawne (13 October, 1819), John Keats

The Kiss, 1907 by Gustav Klimt

The Meeting in a Dream, Jorge Luis Borges

Holy Things in This World, Emery Allen

You Are Jeff by Richard Siken

Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out by Richard Siken

quiver lover

love letter to fanny brawne, john keats

Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out, Richard Siken // sage, OnlyOneOf // religion (u can lay your hands on me), Shura // cover for MONTERO (Call Me By Your Name), Lil Nas X & The Creation of Adam, Michelangelo // Saying Your Names, Richard Siken // God In Jeans, Ryan Beatty // In Bed, The Kiss, Henri de Toulouse-Lautrec // Take Me to Church, Hozier // Heaven On Earth, The Platters // Still Don’t Know My Name, Labrinth // photo of Lily Elsie and Adrienne Augarde & Rachel at the Well, Giacomo del Po // As an Experiment, Kerry Banazek // Worship, Years & Years // John Keats

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Proclus once said:

"This therefore, is mathematics: she reminds you of the invisible forms of the soul; she gives life to her own discoveries; she awakens the mind and purifies the intellect; she brings to light our intrinsic ideas; she abolishes oblivion and ignorance which are ours by birth ..."

Man I love maths

quiver lover

—the male gaze

the robber bride by margaret atwood // the virgin suicides (1999) // at test of objectification theory: the effect of the male gaze on appearance concerns in college women by rachel m. calogero // ex machina (2015) // a woman’s beauty by susan sontag // lolita (1997) // shame is an ocean, swim across by mary lambert // fleabag // fleabag: the scriptures by phoebe waller-bridge

love as religion

‘the death of antinoüs,’ mark doty // roberto ferri // diaries of anaïs nin // the borgias (2011-2013), dir. neil jordan // ‘holy things in this world,’ emery allen // the eternal idol (1893), auguste rodin // ‘take me to church,’ hozier // fleabag (2016-2019), phoebe waller-bridge // ‘litany in which certain things are crossed out,’ richard siken

love as violence

‘i will tell this story to the sun until you remember that you are the sun,’ erin slaughter // roberto ferri // crimson peak (2013) dir. guillermo del toro // the borgias (2011-2013) dir. neil jordan // hiroshima mon amour (1959), marguerite duras // hiroshima mon amour (1959) dir. alain resnais // ‘boyish,’ japanese breakfast // gone girl (2014) dir. david fincher

anyways

He asked me when I fell in love with him and I knew it sounded dramatic to say the moment I saw him, so I told him this story of my grandma who had Alzheimer's- she forgot her name and the words for fruit and food, she forgot her address and how to use the washroom, all her life lost to the disease. The only thing she remembered was her son's name and when that began to fade, the one thing she always remembered was that she loved him, even in illness, even in insanity. She saw this 6 foot 2 man with a scrubby beard and she didn't know him but she said she trusted him, she asked him to hold her hand when she died. When does memory end and love begin? All I know is- she loved him before she remembered him.

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire

I actually think eldest daughters should be allowed at least one instance in their entire lives to just completely lose their shit

Reblog this if you're the eldest daughter who had to mature at a really young age, were always seen as the 'quiet and unproblematic' one, were the overachiever of the family, were the so-called 'perfect child', so now you're literally terrified of doing anything wrong because you don't want to ruin your reputation and whenever you try to tell anyone about your fears or insecurities they just brush it off like "lol why would you think that you're worrying for no reason"

The eldest daughter urge to "move away from home and cut off her family"

What organic shampoo do you guys use? Personally I'm terrified that me learning life lessons without actually experiencing anything and making mistakes like a normal 21 year old is ruining any and all chances of making memories (good or bad) and living life to its fullest but I'd highly recommend Palmer's olive oil shampoo

No one talks about the transition from being the girl everyone respected too much to come forward to and the girl that everyone desires. To feel like you are never someone's first choice, just a woman they would eventually settle for. To never be the girl they passionately, intensely ache for. To be the one they're afraid to taint. The one they will compromise with. To be the girl that becomes the mother of their child, but never their love.

And suddenly, suddenly you're the girl of their desires. The one with a free spirit and reckless behaviors and self-sabotaging actions. The one that hates herself so much, she throttles her own soul to fit an ideal image of what a man yearns for. To be savage and soft, simultaneously. To gaze at a man like a siren and never admit to being hurt.

No one talks about how you slowly feel both of these girls within you amalgamate. So achingly, so abruptly, you feel yourself spiralling out of control. You jump, face first, infront of a moving train, you wrench your heart inside of your chest. You swallow the thought of not being loved. There is a perpetual knock at the base of your mind of someone burning to come out, to be heard, to be felt, to be accepted.

You either become the trophy wife, or the girl they never wed. No one talks about girls like us.

and for my next trick i will now demonstrate just how many fucked up things a girl can have wrong with her at once!!

Eldest daughter

“Your double chin is showing”

That has reached my ears while I was dealing with my clothes in a bathroom. It’s not that I am easily triggered, I am truly not though each word coming out of my mom’s mouth is like a bullet.

“I don’t mean it as a compliment, nor as an insult. It’s just what it is”

I only have one thought in my mind - backhanded. My mom is just like any other ethnic mom says what she wants because for the first time in her life she has an authority over someone. She finally gets to be the boss and find a scapegoat. Motherhood is the only space for women from traditionals and ethnic households to seek control and people who would finally listen to each of their bitchy words. Even if it means that your children, particularly your daughters, would be those people.

And such phrases come out so randomly, I frequently try to get inside her mind and comprehend what drives her sudden urges to put some salt onto my wounds.

And I truly am trying to become the mom from 11th episode of “How to get away with murder” and gravitate towards forgiveness. I truly do.

But this same womb that carried me will eventually become the cell.

Oh to be able to heal your ethnic mom, to become her, to sink into her and be one big piece like we once were. Yet I am aware of the fact that the more I sympathize the more I idealize her, and her “double chin” comments.  

But perhaps this is faith. The faith of an eldest daughter in an ethnic family. The faith that is full of generational curses and traumas that I will cut off.

I love my mom and this is why I will never be like her.

That awkward moment when you’re like “ahhh that was grooming” ????

did you know that a physicist (Boltzmann) has his equation engraved on his tombstone? what is physics, if not poetry? who are physicists, if not poets explaining the working of the universe lyrically?

please reblog this if it is okay to anonymously confess something to you.