Litany In Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out By Richard Siken

Oooooh I'd like to add some—

Crinkled shirts

Eye bags or red eyes

Chapped or bitten lips (?)

papers, EVERYWHERE!

But a clean desk. I said DESK, let's not talk about the room

Cold hands

No concept of time or whatsoever while studying

Internally going FERALLLLL while keeping a straight face.

"I study better at night"

Screaming into the void

things that somehow scream physicist:

some weird mixture of dark academia chique and i-found-this-in-a-dumpster fashion

being a cat person!!!

black coffee

black ballpoint pens

messy folders

whiskey??

high alcohol tolerance

having a god- and inferiority- complex at the same time

being bad at pure math?

being queer always finds it's way into the mix

daddy issues

not letting go of certain pieces of clothing

also being creative

being a daydreamer and a realist

(lots of specifics about being a female physicist)

feel free to add your own!!

And also when Edgar Allan Poe said— "Tell me every terrible thing you did, and let me love you anyway."

My favourite character: smokes, drinks, reads greek and other dead languages, keeps a latin diary, kills someone by punching their collarbone, weaves an intricate web of lies and plot to escape jail, kisses his unrequited love and then shoots himself.

Me: now I know what Wilde meant when he said 'You will always be fond of me. I represent to you all the sins you never had the courage to commit.'

complicated relationships with your parents are like. you cut up fruit and bring it to my room without me asking. i can't remember the last time you told me that you were proud of me. you told me i wasn't good enough for you but i'm not even good enough for myself. your hugs feel like coming home. i can't tell you anything that happens in my life. i doubt myself every day because of something you said to me when i was eight. would you like to hear about my day? please don't ask me about my day. i miss you even though you're in the next room. i wish we didn't live together. i've never loved or resented anyone as much as i've loved and resented you. are you okay? are we okay? are we ever going to be okay?

I am indeed a woman in STEM

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