love as religion
‘the death of antinoüs,’ mark doty // roberto ferri // diaries of anaïs nin // the borgias (2011-2013), dir. neil jordan // ‘holy things in this world,’ emery allen // the eternal idol (1893), auguste rodin // ‘take me to church,’ hozier // fleabag (2016-2019), phoebe waller-bridge // ‘litany in which certain things are crossed out,’ richard siken
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Me to my economics professor/advisor: Oh, btw here is my game theory paper on why divination is often a perfectly reasonable tool in decision-making… partly as an excuse to write extensively on the different forms of divination in Ancient Greece, featuring an unnecessarily detailed explanation of the history and practice of hepatoscopy + helpfully labelled pictures and diagrams of livers!
Him: Have you considered graduate school?
Me: You just want the opportunity to shit-talk me in all my “recommendation” letters, don’t you?
That best feeling where you’re like, “I love books. I wanna read all the books. I just wanna spend all my time immersed in all of the books.” And then you inhale and just get that feeling of peace and anticipation and slight anxiety but it’s okay, because you love the books and no one can take that away from you.
complicated relationships with your parents are like. you cut up fruit and bring it to my room without me asking. i can't remember the last time you told me that you were proud of me. you told me i wasn't good enough for you but i'm not even good enough for myself. your hugs feel like coming home. i can't tell you anything that happens in my life. i doubt myself every day because of something you said to me when i was eight. would you like to hear about my day? please don't ask me about my day. i miss you even though you're in the next room. i wish we didn't live together. i've never loved or resented anyone as much as i've loved and resented you. are you okay? are we okay? are we ever going to be okay?
Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out by Richard Siken
Sapere aude
Ye imma make moodboards for all my classes
yeah yeah yeah girlhood is grief and godhood and cruelty or whatever but also girlhood is your friend telling you what sex is because nobody else will, girlhood is walking you to the nurse’s office when you’re too nervous to go on your own, girlhood is the journal you kept together and hid under your mattress, girlhood is going downtown for the first time by yourselves and sneaking into the PG-13 movie and then going next door to eat french fries, girlhood is coordinating outfits to let everyone know that you’re best friends because girlhood can be love as well
"Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less".
"Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that? We must have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves. We must believe that we are gifted for something and that this thing must be attained".
"I am one of those who think like Nobel, that humanity will draw more good than evil from new discoveries".
"If I had not been taught chemical analysis by prof. Milicer and dr. Kossakowski in Warsaw, I would not have isolated radium".
"I am among those who think that science has great beauty. A scientist in his laboratory is not only a technician: he is also a child placed before natural phenomena which impress him like a fairy tale".
"Humanity also needs dreamers, for whom the disinterested development of an enterprise is so captivating that it becomes impossible for them to devote their care to their own material profit".
"You cannot hope to build a better world without improving the individuals. To that end each of us must work for his own improvement, and at the same time share a general responsibility for all humanity, our particular duty being to aid those to whom we think we can be most useful".
"I was taught that the way of progress was neither swift nor easy".
“Go and love someone exactly as they are. then, watch how they transform into the greatest truest version of themselves. when one feels seen and appreciated in their own essence, one is instantly empowered.”
— Wes Angelozzi
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