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Currently watching Carrie and I’m at the prom scene. Lowkey even though I know shit goes down, it makes me wish I went to my high school’s prom.

It’s probably for the better that I didn’t go, though. I was a lonely bitch who cried at homecoming due to having no friends(At least ones near me).

Friendships are such a hassle honestly but I’m so desperate to feel normal that I’d do anything for a sense of human connection.

Omg I’m already halfway to 1,000 it’s only been over a week or so since I’ve been here😭

Thank you guys though! Seriously! I don’t think I’ve ever felt this welcome and validated in a community before!🥹

Slowly coming to terms with the fact that I am physically incapable of doing anything anymore.

I physically am struggling to do so much as wake up and do simple mundane tasks like brushing my teeth, doing my hair and taking a fucking shower.

I’m debating on just saying fuck it and stop putting effort into my college work. It’s not like I’m going to pass anyways because no matter how hard I fucking try and push myself, I’m met with the same dead end results. I didn’t even want to go to college anyways. I’m only sticking around for the money, and I’m not sure if it’s even worth losing my sanity for.

What happened to me? I used to be such a good person and so happy and optimistic… if there even was a point that I was like that. Now I can’t even bother mustering up the energy to do so much as text someone or do something that I like, which is ironic because I’m the most self indulgent person I know.

Idk just… let me rest.. maybe for a million years and pray that no one will be alive by then so that I don’t have anymore responsibilities or worries to put up with… I’m so fucking tired.

heyaaa jirais!! 🖤🪽 i wanna make another tag game but before that, i would like to find more landmine mutuals (⁠つ⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)⁠つ

interact with this post if you wanna be moots and also if you wanna be spammed with likes/reblogs!! 🩷🩷🩷

Ok someone approved and so I will deliver<3

Just to give a bit of a color code:

🩷=Fem Aligned

🩶=Gender Neutral

💙=Masc Aligned

Also WARNING FOR KNIVES & THEMES OF ORGANS/MEAT.

Ok here’s the extensive list. Enjoy the cringe.

🩶)Ang/Angel/Angelself

🩷)Doll/Dollself

🩶)Bun/Bunself

🩷)Dar/Ling/Darling/Darlingself

🩶)Pix/Pixel/Pixelself

🩶)Rawr/Rawrself

🩶)Glitch/Glitchself

🩶)Spark/Sparkle/Sparkleself

💙)Grey/Greyself

💙)Grime/Grimeself

🩶)Guts/Gutself

💙)Mor/Morbid/Morbidself

🩶)👼/👼self

🩶)🐱/🐱self

🩶)🐺/🐺self

🩷)🥀/🥀self

🩷)🍓/🍓self

🩷)🎀/🎀self

💙)🥩/🥩self

🩶)🔪/🔪self

🩶)🦴/🦴self

🩶)🫀/🫀self

🩶)⛓️/⛓️self

🩶)👾/👾self

Feel free to steal any of them lol

Some notes about the neopronouns I use.

•The emojiself pronouns are online specific. No, I don’t plan on forcing anyone to use them or any neopronouns on this list.(Though it would be nice to be called an angel or darling for once…)

•Some of the neos I use are inspired by various interests I have(Virtual media, Horror, Scenekid culture, etc.). My xenogender identity and my interests kinda go hand in hand the same way my kins do.

•This list may end up changing with time. More may be added, some may go. In the end this is all for personal expression and fun and I wouldn’t take it too seriously.

In conclusion, yolo.

I’m feeling extra daring today should I show off my list of Neopronouns?

I WANT JIRAI FRIENDDSSS!!! Reblog this if you wanna be cute landmine friends ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡

I took this not expecting much out of it and to get a lower score because I feel like whatever trauma I have is milder or even nonexistent in some areas.(Even though it literally changed my brain chemistry forever but we don’t talk about that..)

Imagine my surprise.

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WOOOOO LETS LOOK AT OUR CHILDHOODS

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I made an art blog for stuff that I feel like showing off that are arts and crafts related.

So far there’s nothing on it but I’m gonna be posting some stuff there eventually.

I think it’s also generally gonna be a geekier blog than this one idk yet 🤷‍♀️

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People ask me “what are your future plans?” And I will say “I’m taking it slow and time will tell what my future will have in store”, but actually that’s just an excuse because if I said that I don’t think there’s a future for me and I’ll probably be dead before I can decide on a proper decision, I’ll most likely get criticized for it.

I just realized that I probably will look stupid af in the DearMyLove clothes I got once they get here.

I don’t have any cute looking shoes that can match with the clothes. I did make a wish list and put mary janes on them but that’s for December.

Wtf kind of shoes am I gonna wear with it? Fucking crocs? Converse sneakers? Open-toe sandals?

I know Jirai is more of a lifestyle than a fashion subculture so this shouldn’t matter that much, but DAMMIT I really don’t wanna look like a complete mess in clothes I spent so much on.(ToT)