Now I Understand What The Origin Meaning From

Ini adalah doa sholat Istikharah yang belakangan ini semakin rajin saya buka-hafalkan dan saat pikiran kosong saya berusaha untuk membuka ayat ini.

Alhamdullilah berkat gagal nerkali-kali, berkat kecewa kepada dunia berkali-kali, sekarang saya paham kalau Allah ingin sekali dilobatkan dalam setiap langkah, dalam setiap keputusan, dalam keadaan hati yang bingung, Allah ingin sekali dilibatkan, melalui sholat istikharah, melalui doa istikharah

Alhamdullilah ya Allah, hamba sangat bersyukur mengapa hamba pernah gagal, hamba sangat bersyukur sampai pada titik ini sekarang, hamba sangat bersyukur mengapa hamba pernah marah , putus asa dan juga bersedih

Sekarang semua proses ini terasa nikmat, semua proses itu merasa hal yang perlu saya syukuri,

Karenanya Hamba seperti memulai dan mengenalmu kembali.

Alhamdullilah,

Faizenisaa, 18 Desember 2019

Surat Untuk Erlangga ( disclaimer : the name was not the real name)

When I told you how I should growing into strong and tough woaman Er, This new year opening was so extravagant for me because as you know that so many accidents was happened and succeeded make me surprised. And the worse ones that all of that was a BAD NEWS for me.

Chiefly I heard that my unfairness boss in my office tried to hold me in that unwanted situation. Next suddenly my neighbor-cat was attacked by motorcycle, and then I heard that YOU KNOW WHO going mecca with "her", and lately was yesterday that was my toughest day. I heard 2 bad news first is about your leaving and second. My eyes was an extraordinarily so I should follow the most expensive and more procedures to fix my eyes. That really make me sad and down yan.

But, on ther side I felt so shame with you. How was you so tough and strong through of your l brengsek things, you was become my real teacher Er, how to controls my soul and emotion. Once I remembered that I was has a best friend who that real has a very beautiful soul. All i said thank you.

Last paragraph, I hope that your future life will better and full of His blessings. And I wish that of your hardships can lead you and your family in a better place in akhirat Aminn. see you kak Erlangga ❤️

Saya menangis ketika membaca kisah bagaimana Rosulluloh SAW di penghujung usianya. Masya Allah beliau adalah hamba Allah SWT yang begitu dicintai oleh umat-nya,

Mari kita senentiasa bersholawat kebaga baginda Nabi Muhammad SAW agar dihari kebangkitan nanti kita dapat mendapat syawa'atnya aminn

Hanya butuh Al-Quran

I've been strunggling with "mental health" case because of over thingking and worrying something and someone too much. Lately i realize that it was so bad.

To against all my pressure, i prefered "wasting" my time with window shopping, going into books store, sitting in the middle of fast-food restaurant alone, escape in the beach behind my house, and others unproductive activity. I merely doing those routine, day by day I know that " there are activities that more productive than all above that you can do and start now". But, need a more time to courage myself , speak it out.

Recently, I just knew that, all civilizations round this age, has had same problem. Perharp people around me againts theirs but, they just pretending to be strong. Is not bad as long as you know the consequency. Both of them was so hard.

I realized that i make a big mistake by wasted my precious time, when last day I went into book strore corner to search some novels, with all various genre novels, i dont know I felt like " it just fiction, your life more fascinating than this novel" until i found a book from Wirda Mansur. With title ( btw, correct me if Im wrong) " Be Strong Be Calm Be Grateful". I read that book in 30 minutes and for almost 150 pages i made one conclusion " with all motovation , self - improvement, novels book, yoo meed Quran to console you. You dont need to escape with others, all you need has been written in Al - Quran. Read it as often as You could, and Allah will guarante your life.

Ya Allah ya Tayyib...

Ya Allah ya Tayyib..

Ya Allah ya Rohman ..

Ya Allah ya Rahimm..

Siapkan hamba dengan rahmat, karuniamu yang menanti hamba, dan jika harus patah hati, buatlah hamba agar selalu kuat dan ikhlas , dan berilah hamba senantiasa kebaikanmu ya Allah, aminn

Banyak sekali godaannya ya saat kita pengen bangey kembali pada Allah SWT. Astagfirullohalazdimmm 😟😟😟😣

How I describe of my enemy

Now , this year i turn to 21th year old. But today my best enemy officially got 22th in her life .yeah i think that she was be my enemy since 10 year ago . Hey , would you heard me , why she could become my enemy ? Yeah . Its simply , because of she always stand for me with different way, always made me think a lot of thing that occupied while i should make many decision. She always drive me in a positive thinking while i'm in a unfair condition. Oh you , i hate when you walk into comfort zone while others was running along road to reach her or his dream . Oh you , i hate when they come yo you and yelling at you , making some bad sound about you while you just smile and never crying . Oh and i hate you a lot while you've very brilliant brain but i could not you your ambition , while me , my ambition was bigger then my intelligence :( But now you we're in the top of part of our journey to as soon as possible to get our bachelor of engineering. Now , i see you you could made your intelligent but come your big ambition but , i suer you could make anything easy . Hope this year become yours. Sincerely , Bbf KRF

Wandering the love of Allah set #18ramadhan

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