Is It Osomatsu Summer Yet?

Beware of Adorable Sheep!

So a few people have asked me about this adorable Sheep!fic that I found and I decided to share the link with you guys! ^-^

http://silver-etoile.livejournal.com/201775.html#cutid1

http://silver-etoile.livejournal.com/202219.html

http://silver-etoile.livejournal.com/206438.html#cutid1

If anyone can’t open them up, let me know in my ask and I will e-mail or FB message you the downloaded one I have. ^-^

Enjoy the cuteness! ^-^

Monday Anime Line Up

I'm alive! I needed all that time off to just chill, hang with my kids and their friends, met another one named Twig and they were a lot but every one had fun so that's what mattered.🤭

Yesterday I was finally productive after three days and cleaned up my kitchen a little and made a bomb ass dinner of BBQ pork quesadillas and BBQ pork pasta with veggies. I had a lot of pork. 😋

Today I managed to get dishes done and some cleaning in the kitchen and i feel like I got rewarded by not having to work with that horrible manager all next week! I'll take that as a win! Now lets get to the anime!🤗

Zatsu Tabi: That's Journey

I love that we found out that Chika was not old enough to be part of the Sake Journey this week and that she thought Riri is not the way to go considering how drunk she got the whole time.😁

Kijin Gentoushou

So I noticed some watchers are complaining that. Jinta is not advancing the main story right now, but honestly if he was that one track minded I would have no interest in this anime at all. I think that all the demons that he is dealing with are part of the bigger story and in the end each moment will be an influence of some kind to the final encounter he will have with his Suzune. 😤

Vigilante: Boku no Hero Academia Illegals

Can I tell you how much i was dying this episode! Like my daughter was excited that Ida's older brother was there and he was just as nerdy as she expected. Also the bonus of seeing young Ida even if it was only his conversation with a tree.😆

Off to work now and this is my last night working with that manager and if I just get through this I will be alright and back in the game! Jaa ne!😊

This has got to be the most beautiful depiction that I have ever seen Kuramochi! It makes me want to write a fic about it...well when I finish the other five i am writing first.😅

Little late on sharing this, but I'm so in love with this @nume-x Kuramochi commission!~ Thank you so, so much for bringing him to life with me! You always know how to capture exactly what I imagine 💜

Don’t Do That Again?

Seriously, I do not understand. I say i had a bad day, and you don;t even ask me how my day was or how bad it was? You say to ma that I am a day late responding to you and then you tell me not to do that again like i am a fucking child? I know you will be expressing negative sentiment towards me on social media too and I can;t do anything about it except just take it. Take what you decide to give me. How is that fair?

This will never not be relevant. 

The Happy-Sads

I was having a conversation with someone important to me a few months ago and they said something I had never heard before.

We were talking about depression. More specifically- the flash-flood of bulletproof mania, and it’s inevitable descent into lengthy, paralyzing anguish- our shared condition. 

“The Happy-Sads.” they said. “That’s what my doctor calls them”.

 I rested in the hum-quiet lapse that happens every so often on the phone. 

It seemed such a simple way to put it, but it summed it all up. I hear these little pieces all the time- I think we all do- someone says something, a turn of phrase, or a sentence fragment- and it sticks. It resonates. It becomes a short story or the subject of a comic, a song title- sometimes more.

The Happy-Sads.

It felt like something larger and smaller at the same time- it made sense of everything, boiling it down to a simple phrase- and I laid down under it’s gravity. 

I remember being a boy, and the times where everything was quiet. Those were the briefest moments, and you had to catch them like comets. Then came chaos and noise- reckless, indestructible enthusiasm. That part lasted longer than the quiet, but not nearly as long as the empty.

I think it was easier for those older than me to say I was simply shy, and I wasn’t to hear the word “introverted” until I got to high school, and I didn’t hear anyone seriously talk about “depression” until I was in college- and even then it was just something you could “will away”. No one’s son or daughter was “crazy” or a “manic-depressive”. Labels. From youth to adulthood I would bounce back and forth from “very artistic” to “quiet”.

If my depression was robbing the bank, then my anxiety was waiting in the get-away car outside, masked and armed. There would be stretches that would go on for weeks where I thought I was going to Hell. These would segue into stretches where, knowing that everyone was going to die eventually and I would lose everyone I knew, I couldn’t spend more than 2 minutes in school before going home in hysterics.  I just didn’t want to lose a single moment with people I loved- moments I could never get back.

My anxiety found different ways of manifesting itself- more subdued versions as I got older, but the back and forth, the up and down, stayed the same. You couldn’t wind a watch to it, but you could see it just over the hill, and you’d wait for it to hit.

Years of it.

Then I learned to use it, to tap into it, but I was hiding, not facing.

Being a singer in a band allowed me to tap into 2 very extreme emotions, and ones I knew very well- violent happiness and theatrical despair. This worked for me for years. And the more I could use them every night, the less I had to deal with them during the day, or night afterwards. Zeroes in a bunk, zeroes in the morning, drinking coffee, watching mile-markers. 

Zeroes. Years of them.

I then decided to deal with it.

I had another conversation, again with someone important to me, but this person was life-threateningly ill. They said to me one thing that was the most important.

 “Everything is temporary. When you’re happy- it’s temporary. Sad? Temporary. Job? Temporary. Bought a house? It’s only yours until you no longer need it. “

There were two ways to look at it- happy or sad. But everything was temporary.

In your worst moments, where you are staring into the blackest hole, the razor-lined mouth of a vicious, rabid animal- when you aren’t good enough, pretty enough, thin enough, smart enough- when the worst thing inside you chooses to attack- it is temporary. Likewise, when you are in those moments of pure joy, surrounded by your loved ones, high scoring skee-ball, holding your best friends hand at a concert- it is also temporary.

And that is ok. 

It is life, and living, or the closest thing to it- but more than that there is help.

I go to therapy- my doctor and I don’t use labels, because she believes that every single person is a different case. What one person has more of, another has less of.

And in the differences, we are all the same- imbalanced, and some of us need an assist. I grew up in an era that came off the tail end of damning the notion of mental treatment, so it was a dirty phrase. Unfortunately it still is today. The labels linger, the stigma exists, and all of it keeps help further away.

This is the part where I get serious and say that if you suffer from severe depression, you should seek treatment. If no one takes you seriously- find someone that will. Knowing what I know now, I wouldn’t fear a single repercussion for taking my mental health seriously and in my hands. Nothing would stop me. Not a label, or a joke- nothing.

I hope you find comfort in this. I hope you know that a lot of people, including myself, battle the beast all the time, and we win. I have finally gotten myself to a place where I no longer face the extremes, but it takes work, every week- I get up, and I make sure I am at my session- even the days where I don’t want to be there. I would imagine you’d feel the same way sometimes, and that is ok. Maybe it’s even hard for you to take the first steps- and that’s ok too.

 I know you can.

Tuesday/Wednesday Anime Line Up

Its laundry day and man I am already tired and I only did three loads! Having a house of five is hard sometimes. It sucks too cause its gonna rain till the weekend so i can't even put anything out on the line! So much money and energy wasted going to the laundry mat.😓

i think its a sandwich night for dinner. I don't want to heat up the house with the over cause even though it is raining it is humid!🥵

Ballpark de Tsukamaete!

This episode kind of had a pretty good message in between the jokes and silliness. I feel that 99% situation every day at my job cause that 1% is so rare that when it does happen you honestly believe that it isn't happening at all. Also just as rare is when that 1% rises.😳

Ruriko has a good head on her shoulders even if it is in the clouds part of the time. Having you name misspelled in a publication is something I can sadly relate to. It kind of sucks.😩

Kanpekisugite Kawaige ga Nai to Konyakuhakisareta Seijo wa Ringoku ni Urareru

Look at the growth of our girl! Standing before the king, being emotional, telling the first prince that she is part of Parnacolta now! Ugh, my heart!😫

Then the Crown Prince getting schooled by Mia and lighting a fire under his ass? Both sisters have the power to move people! 😊

Uchuujin Mūmū

Why do I have so many mixed feelings for this damn episode? I was laughing, crying, worried, and my head hurts like when I was trying to understand what was going on in tech which was impossible cause the teacher spoke a mile and minute cause he was so excited like Kenkubashi senpai does.😵

Also rice, water, and dashi seasoning go in the pot. Pot gets put in rice cooker, plug in, push the button, 30 min later...sticky rice. That's all I need to know. Oh and don't let the cat shit in the the rice cooker. That would be hell to clean!🤣

Saikyou no Ousama, Nidome no Jinsei wa Nani wo Suru?

Okay that was a lot in one ep but I kind of get it. I guess i will find out from my son how much it was rushed and if anything really important was left out, but I was alright with it. I honestly want to see him with his family and meeting his little sister.🥰

Your Forma

Yaya the cat was alright...well at that moment but can I say that I love that they didn't reveal who the spy is cause it gives the watcher time to make their own decisions. I have two in mind but one might be too obvious so I will sit quietly in my red dress at the dinner table unlike Reiko and wait for Kagayama to tell me the answer cause i don't wanna be called baka.😄

I might do that post I mentioned on comparing animes and how it annoys me later on. Not sure if I know exactly what I want to say without sounding like a bitchy otaku but I am working on it. Jaa ne Mina.😅

Monday Anime Line Up

Soooo I just found out that my last three posts did not post...like at all! I don't know if that was about my wifi problems or the site but...ugh, all that work just gone.😩

Its whatever. I'll just start it again today and check to make sure that the posts are there the next day. Honestly I don't check but then again I hadn't seen any activity so I should have known something was wrong.🙄

Zatsu Tabi: That's Journey

Wow! 20,000 ¥ for that bus ride? Also what is with those rooms? I did a bus ride years ago for six plus hours but it didn't look like that or cost that much!😲

My only complaint was that quick flash of food they had for dinner. I wanted to see more!😅

Kijin Gentoushou

It was nice to see the girl from the second ep again. I didn't realize that she and Offu were friends. Jinya has a rival of sorts now. I can't wait to see them clash.😎

Vigilante: Boku no Hero Academia Illegals

This episode was both amusing and informative. Poor Koichi still being called the Cruller, seriously he should have made his name not in English and Fist grandpa. I mean I could not stop laughing! 😆

Then his senpai turns out to be related to the police inspector and she is a damn walking polygraph...but for some reason it didn't work? Interesting.🤔

A Reintroduction I Guess🤔

Not sure if this is for anyone or just me but here we go.

My tumblr used to be for my Bandom writing back in the day, but back in the day it was also a cess pool here so I got out when I stopped writing after my husband passed away in 2018.😓

I did pick up writing again but this time it was anime which I started watching as a coping mechanism for his death and still use it till today. Sadly my writing has slowed down in the past few years, but I really do want to pick it up again. I guess I just need a bit of motivation but i can't figure out where to get it from. I digress though.😩

Most of SNS is a cess pool now thanks to shitty people and politicians that think they are playing a game of LIFE for real. I just need a place where I can vent my feelings without someone judging me that I just can't delete without retaliation.🙄

Not sure if this place is it but fuck it we'll give it a try. Meanwhile if anyone wants to know more about me they can check out my AniList profile. I am pretty transparent there. Also my AO3 where i write!🥰

https://anilist.co/user/DaisukeTakahiro/

https://archiveofourown.org/users/momiji_neyuki/profile

Holy Shit I Have A Tumblr

Ugh, okay, where to start. I guess I start by saying hi.

Writer's Rant

One of my anime's today is delayed so I thought I would take a moment and get something off my chest. 🤔

I have been going through my newer older writing meaning when I started writing anime fan fiction and I noticed a lot of stuff that could use improvement that I have learned over the years. I wonder if it would be smart to either re-edit all the new old fics or to repost them with the changes and maybe get a new audience for them.😬

Is that considered cheating in the writing world or have other people done this in the past. I know when i say edit I don't mean a few changes I mean something major changes to whole chapters so technically some of the fics could be considered new?😳

I mean its not like i'm doing this in order to get new readers or anything even though I feel like some of my fics were misunderstood cause they are 90% AUs cause that is how i write and I don't like to put myself into a corner of certain characters only being able to be certain types or always as wholesome and clean as the anime makes them out to be...😵

I'm lying to myself aren't I? I mean what writer does not want a chance to breathe new life into their work and gain a new audience in the process. I guess as long as I am transparent about it to the readers it isn't exactly lying...right?😶