Just Finished Mag 195: I Know I Can't Be The Only Person To Have Asked This But Are All Blind People

Agnes Montague is sitting in the coffee shop again. Same table, same black coffee, same routine. She wraps her hand around the mug, feeling the heat bloom under her palm. It’s better than burning people, than having them as a sacrifice to prove her warmth. She’s grown out of those fits of anger, and now she sees herself as more of her destiny than the flame borne from it. That’s what it is to be the light in the lightless flame. She wants to be kind but she can’t. She’s a creation with a purpose, and that purpose isn’t kindness.

Everyone else in this shop is human. Completely human. They were born in hospitals, probably, and not within someone else’s – her mother’s – sacrificial funeral pyre. Everyone else in this shop has friends. Everyone else in this shop can find their own purpose. And Agnes just heats her drink, the steam barely bringing up the temperature of her burning skin. She’s the sunlight, just bringing heat down on everyone with her touch. She can burn, but she is essential. She’s not sure who told her that. Something that has to be wrong within her tells her that it was her mother.

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just a sad double drabble of me thinking about agnes too hard!! she thinks about her mom regularly imo,, i consider her thinking about her mom's (voluntary) sacrifice as justification that she has to follow her destiny :((((

you guys need to let go of any rigid belief in what being nonbinary is because it can be anything. like someone can look completely average in gender presentation and do literally nothing to set themselves apart from their assigned gender and still be nonbinary.

Reading the book is not enough. I need to eat it.

as a chronic oversharer i'm always ready to answer asks, but i'm particularly bored today so if anyone has any questions for me i'd be happy to answer random queries

bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

why am I scrolling . What am I hoping to find

“ships should at least make sense.” no. ships can make sense, sure. but they’re just fictional characters we play with for fun. they’re fantasies, not a fucking thesis paper. so no, they don’t always have to make sense. they just have to make you happy (or horny).

let people enjoy (fictional) things however they want to enjoy.

I finished the raven cycle and I have SO MANY THOUGHTS

this series has the best portrayal of platonic love I've ever seen, the relationships between all the characters felt so natural and incredibly well written. none of the transitions to romantic relationships felt forced because it seemed so obvious "of course they love eachother, EVERYONE loves EVERYONE"

So obviously my love for all of these characters is unmatched but I would commit unspeakable crimes for blue sargent

Piper as an antagonist???? amazing beautiful perfect. her being manipulated by the demon was so cool to see, her transition from being green mantles wife with a semi normal life to "yo dad wassup just murdered my husband and found a new pet *holds up demon* isn't it cute?"

Noah my poor baby boi

stavinsky may have been a horrible person but he was a super interesting character

Chainsaw is the bestest bird to ever bird

gansey and blues relationship and adam and ronans relationship were both amazing and sweet and perfect

obsessed with opal as a short story, Adam and Ronan get to have these super sweet and sad moments in the background meanwhile opal's telling the real important story: her dangerous quest to drink windshield wiper fluid and honestly I'm here for it

i will give a small bit of criticism: the pacing did feel a little bit rushed in some places and there was some jumping around that didn't make a ton of sense

BUT IM IGNORING THAT BECAUSE SEARCHING FOR A LONG DEAD WELSH KING IS SUCH AN AWESOME STORY CONCEPT

Henry Cheng: amazing 10/10 no criticism I just love him

there were some points where I was ready to crawl through the pages and fight adam's father myself

and finally a fandom note: just learned that the main ship names are bluesey and pynch and that is so amazing I love that so much