things you said over the phone
things you said with the tv on mute
things you said when you were proud
things you said under your breath
things you said with sorrow between your fists
things you said when you were lost
things you said when our world began to crumble
things you said with too many days between us
things you didn’t say at all
things you said that i wasn’t meant to hear
things you said you’ll never forget
things you said with clammy hands
things you said when fear cut deep
things you said while a fever stole your mind
things you said with rage between your teeth
things you were afraid to say
things you said when no one else was around
things you said when the sun was shining
things you said with blooming bruises and stinging cuts
things you said when we were safe
things you said without thinking
things you said that kept me grounded
things you said you loved about me
things you said you hated about me
things you said when you lied
things you said with scraped knees
things you said with tears in your eyes
things you said while holding my hand
things you said in the car
things you said under the stars
things you said at my grave
things you said at the kitchen table
things you said on the porch at 3 am
things you said in a gas station parking lot
things you said in a hotel room
things you said in the waiting room
things you said while you stroked my hair
things you said that made me feel loved
things you said when i was crying
things you said while i cried in your arms
things you said when you thought i was asleep
things you said in your sleep
things you said when you kissed me goodnight
things you said after a nightmare
things you said before death snatched you
things you said that i wish you hadn’t
things you said when it ended
things you said when you met my friends
things you said when we first met
things you said when they took me away
text me up real good pls n thx 😘
● a morning text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 06:10 › do you think you’ll need plastic surgery for last night?⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 06:13 › you know if your face wasn’t so close to my hand, it wouldn’t have hurt.⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 06:15 › i’m not apologizing, i’m just acknowledging i was wrong.
● a angry text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 16:43 › i’m not mad⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 16:45 › you’re just getting on my last nerve with all this pro-kwak ji dam bullshit
● a drunk text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 23:59 › 언니 …….⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 00:01 › arne’t yon scared of turniNg into kwak ji dam?
● a vague text
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 23:59 › you make me sick
● a worried text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:00 › hey?⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:10 › no one has heard from you⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:11 › please, at least call jungmi 언니 or junsu !⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:13 › i don’t know what you’re so sad about we all know kwak ji dam is like this⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:14 › i get you love her but she’s an asshole⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:16 › where are you?⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:17 › we’re all worried, 언니
● a text not meant for you ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 21:03 › you should have heard the sound it made when i slapped her face! it literally stopped the whole party⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 21:04 › why would i regret it? it was absolutely AMAZING⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 21:06 › you should have seen the look on her face⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 21:07 › it was priceless⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 21:10 › …
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⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 21:22 › … i’m still not apologizing.
● a sassy text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 17:48 › wow, thanks kwak ji dam 2.0, you say that as if i didn’t already know that!
● a long-winded confession text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › you know when i was little i used to think that you were purposely trying to steal all of kwak ji dam’s attention and it wasn’t fair at all⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › i hated you a lot for it⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › i still think that but i don’t hate you⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › well, not as much, anyways⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › you’re still annoying af trying to be like her, you know that right?⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › i love you but if you keep acting like this ….
・ ・ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › are you really going to side with her for the rest of your life?
● a misguided advice text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 10:48 › why don’t you just crawl inside her ass? you’re already halfway in there!
● a desperate text ━━━ ・
⁺ 📞 › ( 15 ) OUTGOING CALL › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › VOICEMAIL.
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⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 23:35 › PLEASE ANSWER THE PHONE JIEUN 언니⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 23:36 › i know we don’t see eye to eye but … you really scared me, 언니
● a congratulatory text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 22:09 › congrats, you’re one step closer to being kwak ji dam’s bitch
● a text that should have never been sent ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 14:18 › what do you want? a reward for being kwak ji dam’s Perfect daughter?
all the texts pls dear 🦋
TW subtle depressive thoughts / escapism
● a morning text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 00:12 › you better be awake by 5
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⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 07:45 › did i say 5? i meant 8 🤭🤷♀️
● a angry text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 14:23 › what the fuck kai⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 14:25 › DON’T FUCKING TALK TO ME⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 14:26 › you better be ready to have my fist meet your FUCKING FACE
● a drunk text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 00:01 › kai … kai …. 야 …….⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 00:01 › i lovu ⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 00:04 › iM kidnafing⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 00:05 › i HATE yunr GUTS
● a vague text
⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:59 › i just want to be left alone
● a worried text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 20:00 › i don’t know who else to turn to⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 20:07 › if you’re gone i don’t have anyone else⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 20:10 › kai ………… please let me know you’re okay⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 20:10 › please tell me what i did wrong
● a text not meant for you ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 00:03 › do you ever want to disappear?
● a sassy text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 06:30 › morons like you are truly a one of a kind 🙄
● a long-winded confession text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 24:10 › thanks for being a constant presence in my life
・ ・ ・
⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 00:02 › thanks for tonight, kaikai
・ ・ ・
⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 03:09 › i can’t sleep⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 03:10 › i can’t stop thinking, kaikai
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⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 06:30 › forget what i said last night, i’m fine now
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⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:11 › i know i don’t say it often, kaikai but i’m really thankful you’re still here and haven’t left⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:11 › so many people leave⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:13 › and i know why they do⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:14 › and i can’t blame them even i want to⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:18 › if i were them, i’d leave me too⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:20 › i’m just so tired⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:21 › sometimes i feel like it’s not worth it⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:21 › i pretend like i’m worth it⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:21 › but it’s just pretending, right?⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:21 › because i’m not worth it, ykno⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:25 › sometimes i’m ready to just go away and not come back like jihye⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:26 › because then maybe everyone will be at peace⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 23:30 › i wish jihye took me with her
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⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 01:00 › would you tell me not to leave?
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⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 05:45 › please delete those texts, kai, they’re embarrassing
● a misguided advice text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 14:49 › if you’re into her, why don’t you keep your dick slack for once and tell her with words
● a desperate text ━━━ ・
⁺ 📞 › ( 16 ) OUTGOING CALL › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › VOICEMAIL.
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⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 13:02 › S.O.S.
● a congratulatory text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 14:18 › must be nice having one brain cell⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 14:19 › omg you have two? Amazing
● a text that should have never been sent ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 琳凯HEADASS💢. › 01:01 › are you going to leave me like jiyi did?
⁺ EYES ON ME LIKE I’M A 𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐙𝐄, BUT YOU BETTER RECOGNIZE, I’M NOT YOUR 𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐋 ⧆
mmjunsu:
it was funny how things could fall into place so easily; how things could pick up from where they left off, without any thought of the circumstances prior.
(like how he’d shared an uncharacteristically emotional reunion with his sister; and then he was sitting at the kitchen island moments later, stuffing his puffy face with breakfast as she slipped back out into obscurity. don’t mention it to anyone just yet, she’d made him promise, but it seemed like the idea was already obliterated as he burned his tongue on seaweed soup).
and things went back to normal, like always.
maybe he should’ve taken it as a sign, when he walked into the apartment and was greeted with absolute silence— like the calm before the storm, it lulled him into a false sense of security as he kicked off his shoes comfortably and left a trail of his belongings on his way to the rec room.
maybe he should’ve been more cautious when he found a full, unopened bag of shrimp crackers and pepero sticks— a rarity in the kwak household— and it seemed like the stars were all aligned for him when he opened the fridge and his favourite banana milk was stocked on the top shelf.
(ahjumma must’ve gone shopping, was what he had thought, when he should’ve realized: ahjumma had bought him his last meal).
the alignment of the stars were clear now as kwak junsu took a fistful of shrimp crackers as he paused his video game, and the doorknob twisted open to reveal the grim reaper.
junsu could easily recognize the stages of kwak jina’s wrath, but the look she gave him from the threshold as he stared back at her with doe-eyes wide open and mouth agape, was positively lethal.
it felt like an eternity as he wracked his brain for the things he could’ve done wrong, a single cracker from the bunch in his fist falling down into his lap.
(after quickly assessing and reassessing his memory, kwak junsu found that he didn’t know what it was his sister was staring at him like she would kill him for, but after sixteen years of being the youngest, he quickly moved on to his second option: run).
“noona, hold up—”
the shrimp crackers all fell to the floor as kwak junsu tossed the game controller to the side, jumping up onto the couch and stumbling as he tripped over his own lanky legs. he tripped over the edge and quickly shot back up as he hid behind the couch: his only line of defense from kwak jina’s blazing stare.
𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐓𝐇 𝐁𝐄 𝐓𝐎𝐋𝐃, jina has two different type of aggressions. it wasn’t out of norm for one of them to be tickled on the daily. that one didn’t involve the throbbing of a vein against the very shell of her forehead, it didn’t include the rush of adrenaline into her bloodstream nor did it reap of deadly intentions.
no, that one was harmless in comparison to the aggression she felt swelling against her conscience. the one telling her that poor, innocent junsu looked scared to death. that perhaps, he didn’t deserve jina whatever jina had in store for settling whatever had set her off today.
of course her conscience was an idiot.
and jina full-heartedly believed whatever intentions she had in mind were rightfully just. especially when she was mad.
but no, jina wasn’t just mad -- she was pissed.
she, of course, was fair in her approach. far more than she thinks she should have been. maybe she was feeling merciful, or maybe she just enjoyed the way her little brother seemed a second close to shitting himself. she didn’t enjoy scaring him, but the fear in his eyes did give her a different type of high.
for now, she feels every type of emotion welling up within her. remnants of her conversation ( if you could call a screaming match in the middle of the courtyard a ‘conversation’ ) with jihye still fresh on the skin. the tears she had cried a dried up path to where blurred eyeliner and smudged mascara lay. the obviousness of her distress a second contender for the anger that blazed in her eyes was much more prevalent, obvious in the way she stalked into the rec room; fingers pushing the door open further to make her way inside.
“why are you backing up, junnie?” she blinks, voice a notch softer than it should be; coupled by the innocence dripping from her tone and the nickname she hardly uses, jina tilts her head. the venom in her expression says enough to warrant the activation of the fight or flight instinct, this she is sure -- watching his expression react in comparison has jina taking another step closer. “did you do something wrong?”
she takes one more step, fingers reaching out to grab the discarded controller, tinkering with the buttons, a single glance made to the device before her glare returns to him.
“don’t you have something to tell me?” timbre is soft, a false sense of security lulled into her voice as she takes another step closer; grasp tightening against the controller with each step before stopping just short of the couch he hid behind.
if he wanted to run, she’d give him a head start.
⎣ 곽𝐉𝐈𝐍𝐀 ⎤ ━━━━ yes & no xylo / queen loren gray / bad things meiko / you should see my in a crown billie eilish / kill of the night gin wigmore / primadonna marina & the diamonds / control halsey / bad guy billie eilish / all the king’s horses karmina / breathe fluerie / deep end ruelle / hurts like hell fluerie / someone to stay vancouver sleep clinic / sorry halsey / the truth untold bts / i can’t make you love me dave thomas jr / house of cards bts / all good girls go to hell billie ellish ━━ ・ 𝑆𝑂, 𝖳𝖱𝖤𝖠𝖳 𝖬𝖤 𝖫𝖨𝖪𝖤 𝖠 𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐄𝐍 .
the act of two oppositions striking violently against another. see also: jina and @mmjihye, mid-afternoon, cheong ryeong common room; wits end.
𝐊𝐖𝐀𝐊 𝐉𝐈𝐍𝐀 𝐖𝐀𝐒𝐍’𝐓 𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐄 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐒𝐇𝐄 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐄𝐗𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆:
a normal day, sure. that’s to be expected.
she figures from the start, that the day will go on as normal, or as close to it as possible. because what was ‘normal’, these days, wasn’t really normal (not when each day is faced with treacherous expectations set by the infamy that came with being one of the numerous spawn of the kwak jidam) by definition. so, the day spins out from dawn, slowly. it goes and goes and she pays no attention to the warning signs in plain sight, of the whispers that linger and hinder, she blocks them all out. for jina wasn’t one to read too into things, anyways.
she sees the hours come to a close, and the way the afternoon bleeds into her day.
and soon, the lunch hour ends uneventfully. the minutes tick on by; slow, casual steps are made as she strolls from where she and hana had taken their afternoon meal, where they part ways and back. a premeditated task lurking in the back of her mind, busy as always, pre-occupied all the same as she takes the route back towards the cheong ryeong common rooms. it’s a short walk, with faint remembrance of where she had left her books at the forefront of her mind, expecting the stack of literature to be right where she had left it.
again, jina wasn’t sure what she was expecting:
her books piled high atop one of the dozen side tables loitered about, yes.
but surely, not this.
not kwak jihye --kwak fucking jihye-- kwak, her fucking sister, leave-without-a-fucking-heads-up jihye and her god-forsaken face lounging about like it was the most natural thing to be. acting as if her ass hadn’t just gone awol for the last year, gone without a trace, pulling one of the most horrendous and disappointing houdini-disappearing acts known to mankind.
no, jina hadn’t expected this at all.
which was why, she blinks twice for good measure. three times to make sure and a fourth to keep the gigantic vein from bulging out of her temple. fingers gingerly prying said books from where she had left them, collecting them carefully and finely into her arms; taking careful, determined steps further into the room. fingers brace the spines of the books before she stops short of where her sister lay.
and without notice, she drops them, quite aggressively into the mahogany table by their feet. teeth tightening over her smile as she stares at her sister, head-on, words barely spit through grinding molars. “what the fuck are you doing here?” no i miss yous, no familiarity-filled, unnie!, no nothing --except pure, raw hostility and perhaps, a dash of well-warranted anger.
u alrdy kno we need all of the txts sis 💖
● a morning text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 06:43 › good morning 언니💕💕💕⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 06:43 › i hope you get some sleep⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 06:40 › i’m sorry me and junsu kept you up all night⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 06:55 › i made sure to leave you some food on the table to eat and some advil just in case⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 07:00 › have a good day 언니💕
● a angry text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 18:23 › @mmjunsu IS SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT 언니 🤬😡😤😠⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 18:23 › he just came and fucking blamed me for his pink uniform⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 18:23 › i’d never rat you out unnie so you’re safe⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 18:23 › BUT WHAT THE FUCK JUNSU IS SUCH AN ASSHOLE⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 18:23 › 🤬🤬🤬⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 18:23 › he’s such a little bitch ⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 18:23 › I HATE HIM
● a drunk text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:01 › 언니 언니 언니 언니 언니 언니⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:01 › itsj soooooooooooooooooooh muc h fun !!! drikknling⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:01 › I FEEEEEEEL SO FREKJIKY⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:01 › fuckk kwak ji daazm⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:01 › fuckk @mmjihye⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:01 › 1000000% fuckkkkfa em bijches⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:01 › ps dnon t blame @mmchoa
● a vague text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:00 › why does nothing ever go right
● a worried text ━━━ ・
⁺ 📞 › ( 28 ) OUTGOING CALL › 짱미 언니💕. › VOICEMAIL.
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⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 05:05 › i know you’re working on a very important case but you didn’t come home last night⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 05:06 › PLEASE CALL ME 언니⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 05:06 › 언니, please don’t be dead in a ditch somewhere, come home
● a text not meant for you ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 22:00 › @mmdaeil is such a loser⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 22:01 › I’M GOING TO MAKE HIM PAY FOR BREAKING UP WITH 언니⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 22:05 › how?⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 22:06 › well obviously i’m going to mass text his phone with death threats until he a ) leaves the country b ) changes his number c ) dies d ) makes a public apology because how dare he break up with THE kwak jungmi
● a sassy text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 03:02 › 언니, it’s 3 in the morning⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 03:03 › i know you don’t sleep at night⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 03:02 › but some of us need sleep to function as proper humans in this lifetime
● a long-winded confession text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:49 › ever since jihye 언니 left i always had a feeling you’d leave me too and i wouldn’t blame you⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:51 › i know it’s so hard to deal with me i fucking know⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:53 › you put up with so much and me and junsu don’t make it easier⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:54 › so thank you so much, 언니, for still being here⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:55 › i love you so much and i really don’t know what i’d do if you were to ever leave⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:55 › everything seems to fall apart when i do things but you always make it all better you do so much and all i do is create messes for you to clean up⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:57 › can you come to my room i don’t want to sleep alone tonight⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:59 › i can’t stop crying 언니 they won’t stop⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:59 › you’re my favorite person in the whole world 언니
● a misguided advice text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 13:08 › i say kick him in the balls, not like he’ll be needing them in the future
● a desperate text ━━━ ・
⁺ 📞 › ( 10 ) OUTGOING CALL › 짱미 언니💕. › VOICEMAIL.
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⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 09:59 › 언니 !!! 언니 !!! 언니 !!!!!⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 10:00 › please tell me you’re still home⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 10:03 › help me, everyone said they weren’t going to vote for me for class rep⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 10:05 › i can’t lose this too 언니
● a congratulatory text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 21:59 › congratulations 언니 🥳⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 22:01 › i know it’s no witch weekly spread⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 03:02 › but a playboy exert is nothing to be ashamed of
● a text that should have never been sent ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 짱미 언니💕. › 00:01 › everyone hates me, you hate me a little, too 헐